hey can help me see if you can see my tagboard and clicks? my lappie cannot see le

finally..

hey...my blog is finally done..found it too black and white so added some colours to it..
anyway..ysterday's worship was a disaster..Initially i asked Ms Tan to help me pei yue then i told her i'm going to sing "We Fall Down" and "Give Me One Pure and Holy Passon". Then she say she know the 1st one but the 2nd very difficult. so i told her nvm we just sing, no need music. So i happily go to the "cell group" yesterday, taking a cab down coz all the bus except my bus came. i reached like half an hour earlier before the foundation than got to eat, and then th guitar in church is quite low..doesnt sound nice then we try to put the note higher..then Ms Tan wana think make my worship session sound better..so she tried..she worked really hard.. :) it was really nice of her..then, the room was really hot the air con think never on then i was very hot..haha then we didn't start well la..singing out of key coz we adjusted to the higher one which was too high..the low one was too low..haha then quite cork up la..then the 2nd even more..then ijust like leave it to Ms tan to do the worship liao..haha then i did sya abit la..but really cannot coordinate with Ms Tan..think if we got more time..super cork up..we end with Where is the Love..looking at the lyrics it says alot of things about the world today..
it goes like this:

What’s wrong with the world, mama
People living’ like they ain’t got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to the things that’ll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here living’
In the USA, the big CIA
The bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you’re bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that’s exactly how anger work and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y’all, y’all

*People killing’, people dying’
Children hurt and you hear them crying’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questioning’
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain’t the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane?
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don’t belong
Nations dropping’ bombs
Chemical gasses filling’ lungs of little ones
With the ongoing’ suffering’ as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the loving’ really gone
So I could ask myself really what is going’ wrong
In this world that we living’ in people keep on giving’ in
Making’ wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respecting’ each other, deny thy brother
A war is going on but the reason’s undercover
The truth is kept secret, it’s swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where’s the love, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the truth, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the love, y’all
*
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I’m getting older, y’all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money making
Selfishness got us following our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids want to act like what they see in the cinema
Yo’, whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we’re spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feeling under
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feeling down
There’s no wonder why sometimes I’m feeling under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
*

then i shared my testimony of my conversion. think i did it quite badly..haha Ms Tan says must write it down then discuss of a certain aspect of my christian life. tok alot of jokes la..till they keep laughing then when i wana talk about God i like didnt humble myself. I said I dun know wat happened suring my conversion. Actually is God's work within me. keeping my open to Him, and thanks to Him revealing Himself to me, and starting to build a relationship with me and His patience all the way. I really dun want to back slide. its not that being a christian is very good, shuang. But because He is too good and i cannot deny that He is not there and hm...He is my purpose..haiz i dun know..i need to still learn alot alot alot more..

ya then cai yun taught me this lesson..then went for supper..alot of pple went.. Paul, James, me, Louis, Xiao Ling, Khal, Hui Yun, Jason, Alice, Ms Tan.

then after that Jason Keep saying i'm very funny and did encourage me coz my worship thing didnt go well..haha..
ok la..think we're very friendly, then he still call me to treat him coz i just got my commission suddenly..ya things between us are getting clearer and clearer..so its good la

thanks for reading to the end!! hahaha i'll visit all your blogs too!!
haha..ok..good bye!!

Thank you

hey..thanx for all the comments for my new blog skin..but the heart shape like cant appear heart shape become X. so sad...haha
then no title..no comments so sad..

pueh..finally...

Wa..so many things happened since i've blogged..
my com got virus then cannot delete the virus..sent it to CIT helpdesk
wait for my quene for 1 HOUR!! then finally my turn then i wait wait wait till fell asleep..then when i wake up the person still repairing... -__- then i left..later then callect my dear lap top..then i went to Far East eat burger king..Forgot to bring my FA homework to do..then read my Foundation lessons book and bible..then received a call to collect my lappy then go back then i go library then go for project..
haiz..we got this LTB project..so many problems. i think most importantly the team spirit is not there. then the TA came and help us. we do the proposal and today's presentation do from 6 to 10!! then i go PS buy my dinner then go home eat and watch TV. I seriously think watching TV is super brainwashing. After i watch i haven't bathe, havent do my presentation slides which i am in charge of! then bathe then do till 230am!! i'm dying....but ok la i'm feeling ok now..got very excited bcoz of my new blog skin!! added a tagboard and the bible search thing. going to add a counter. thanks to my uni fren Elaine. she's like super resourceful! tell mi go this go that webbie to download this download that then help mi solve this problem of cant type in my journals..THANK GOD!!

think my journal going to be super long coz the box super thin..haha ok la..i'm ending

i'm saying "HI JANIS AND MINSHENG!!" my uni buddies!! hahaha.
leave me comments!! chat in tag board le!! haha
see ya!

NO TIME~~!!

aiyo..busy busy..
tml got FA quiz and FA homework which i havent touch yet
then thursday need to hand in communications assignment which is a persuasive letter which will be graded then
Friday got to hand in Stats assignment which i'm only half way there
die ah
think today have to finish FA hw then Tomolo do Com hw..then Thurs do stats..die ah..i scared i cant finish my FA and com..haiz...
think i really get my lesson
stats homework was given last week..
FA also..then i last min then do
haiz..but after class do i really sian le..ok ok i'll try this week..
saturday is homework day
i cant do homework at home..i'll end up slacking the whole day..
must go mac do..
haiz..wish me luck!!

My team advisor wrote

Hi Siew Choon.

Thanks for replying. It is indeed interesting and exciting to hear from you and what you have to say! I am very glad to know that you are so exciting about things of God and that is indeed very encouraging.

I am grateful to know that you did have prior experience to camps and I suppose your expertise will serve well in this project. Nevertheless time is pressing and deadlines are coming, hence it is crucial for the team to put their acts together.

As for me, on is not exactly the word. Just be passionate. Passion is a very powerful factor. So powerful that it drives people to do things beyond their wildest imagination. Simply the reason why the film of our Lord Savior is Passion, The Christ.

I myself worshipped in New Creation Church. Bible study is on on Friday night and Campus ministry on Saturday evening, while Sunday will be the beloved Sabbath meeting.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with been zealous for things of God because it is that ever living water that keeps us going.

"Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be open onto you... if you ask for a bread, will your father gives you a stone? If you ask for a fish, will your father gives a snake? If your earthly father that's fill with sin knows how to give good gifts to you, what more your heavenly Father in heaven?" - my own paraphrase

Have you tried asking yet? Never restrict God. Since the very MOMENT you received Christ into your life, the Holy Spirit has ever since then gashed into your body, marking you for greatness and understanding. (It's biblical. Show you the reference when we are in contact.) Holy Spirit, been the third trinity of God is there to pour forth revelations and AGAPE (unconditional LOVE) in your life, which brings forth Hope that never ceases.

In that case, I challenge you to ask Daddy God for a hunger for THE WORD and let your spiritual eyes to be open. God obviously meant for you to be in His house but that doesn't mean that God only wants you to receive and be fed in there only!

In every stage in life, there is a particular calling. Now in varsity, the obvious is you are called to study. Learn to prioritise. In the event when school work clashes with services, there must be a way out. Personally if work clashes with Bible Study, I will put my work as priority simply because as a student, I have a right to put my work first. But definitely that is not going to stop me from trusting God for no clashes. However, Sunday services will always have a special place because it is the REST day, the Sabbath. No work is able to take me away from this day. There is still much more to share with you, but we will save it when we meet face to face.

Know that our God is a very practical God. God is not someone airy fairy, that only exist in a religon and Sunday services. Christianity is NOT a religion but a relationship. By accepting Christ means that you accept a new identity and a new, ever lasting relationship.

Enjoy whatever you can and DO NOT WORRY about everything. In short, God just wants to see you happy. He just wants you to be loved by Him endlessly, unceasingly. Enjoy every second of your life simply because it is worth it. Living with Jesus is a stress free and worry free relationship and let not the "calling or purpose" bug you. What is of use the big things in life when you do not even know that Jesus loves you and wants you to be happy.

Think about this. If you have a daughter and you are trying to groom her to be the best whatever you want her to be simply because you love her but in the process your daughter is trying to perfom so hard in order to meet your demands. In the midst of it, the feel of parent-child relationship is lost and she does not dwell in your love even though you really do want her to know that you love her.

That is a very wrong image of God many Christians have. They think that God has call them to do something, big or small. In the midst of discovery, they mistakeningly play God and try to achieve it.

God DO have BIG plans for you Siew Choon, that is because you are precious and unique in His sight. However, if it is His plans, HE WILL SEE TO IT, not you. The very aim of a parent is just hoping their kids to know and enjoy the love they have for them. Exactly or if not double and triple the desires of our Daddy God, wanting to express His love to you.

If you want to love God, enjoy your life first. Thank Him and praise Him for He only has good thoughts and plans for you.

Learn to see the heart of God, as a Father, as a friend, as a lover. Let Him anchor your life and you are in for the road to glory with no returns.

Take care,
You are precious and beloved,

Peng

Sorry Yang..

Hey pple
Today i so so tired..
Last nite went to sabo my sis with her friends.
It was terrible..for her..

First we went to buy durians for the actual treat she said..then i tag along..
then she bluff her to the indoor stadium..

then she was first carried by the guys to the cosy bay which is at the indoor stadium then she's suppose to finish the whole tub of strawberry ice cream..then hahaha came the green tea ice cream..dun see its green green very nice hor..inside got wasabei!! hahaha..then she thought is chocolate chip coz the wasabei she thought is chocolate chip..hahaha..she got choked la..but manage to recover from it before the other sabos..then i brought the ugliest pyjamas for her..hahaha...super ugly..then she's suppose to wear then sing the lunar 7th month stage hahaha..so funny..she cant do it la in the end she use her butt to write her chinese name..hahaha so funny..
then her friends use stockings two put a potato, then one put egg tofu haha..then tie around her waist..hahaha let your imagination go wild..hahaha.. then she's suppose to get one person to sing a birthday song to her then she's going to blow the party thing that go "pooo!" then the paper will roll out one..haha into the person's face..hahaha luckily the guy agreed la..haha

then she's suppose to eat half of the water melon with her hands..while she was eating they put the other half of the melon (taking out the meat inside and replace with flour) then put it on her head!! hahaha..it looks so funny!! and the helmet is so heavy!! haha ok la veyr bad..

then the qian bian wen da ti..they put flour ad wipp cream smash it into her face..aiyo..super cham..but all of us including her was laughing away..hahaha..heng she can play..otherwise if its me i sure angry one..

then i think like smash her 5 times ah..then they bought a pandan cake then all put the wipp cream on top then put a candle then sing birthday song to her..hahaha then in the end also end up in her face..haha

then put the banana on the tree call her without her hands pluck it down but the tree isn't very tall la..then she cant peel the skin then the other guy take the banana put in the flour then she have to do the same..then she manage to get one piece out then eat it..er xin..

then we all got campaige then all of us yam seng..haha..i really told all of us is the same le!!
but they gave my sis drink vinegar!! ai yo..by the time she already cannot differentiate which is vinegar which is campaige liao.. but anyway she drank half of it... ops.. aiyo very bad la..

then i also gor bring her clothes and stuff for her to clean up and change.. haha then she look so clean then we ate durians..hahaha..it ended

with a new keyboard, waterbottle and 2 thongs.. her presents..
it was a really fun day..
but thin kwas very very bad..
btw..my senior sent me some thing that made me feel so loved by God..let u all see..

SMU ROCKS!

hey! SMU is fun! got lots of project..starting to like school..esp the wireless haha..
thats great! but work coming getting use to be a diligent worker like wat the bible says..haha
project group some are fun
but problems are arising..trouble..
i have been preparing ms tan they all's teachers day present
keep going out with Jason..coz he's the only one available to come buy presents with me. i asked the rest but nobody wana come with me.... sad..
anyway went out with him on sunday, monday, tuesday nite
he was late on monday and tuesday nite
monday coz i purposely super duper late
suan him on tuesday till he's super guilty haha. he keep saying sorry sorry hahaha
think ms tan didnt like her present.. sad.. anyway the rest i think they should like it
Paul love his carebear..haha and luckily the carebear wasnt so expensive
we last min do their cards..but luckily paul wasnt very angry
sorry peg u didnt get to sign their cards
but i wrote your name down

got to know Jason alot
i hope he dun get the wrong idea
i dun think i wana settle yet
coz i still dun know how to handle
i'll leave it to God. If He wants me to learn, i will try my best hoping nobody get hurt by the end of the day. but i think it'll be very difficult
some more it makes it more difficult when we're i the same church
i really hope God will reveal His plans to us soon..

suddenly thought of the dream i had a few weeks ago
i dreamt of Chris. i dreamt holding hands with him!! gosh....
the feeling was great but in the end i didnt choose to go steady with him
i'm not sure that the revelation i get is the correct one. i know i shouldnt be doubting but i really think its impossible..sorry God..i think i really need to pray about it

anyway how r u guys doing?
good?
sorry i've been MIA for so long..
i'll try to go to your blogs to look out how are you guys..hehe
hope to see u soon
and hope the sch network allow mi to publish this page

post peg bday

hey..you know wat..the last post i write like super long then when i press published the next thing i saw is "error"

SIAN..

anyway..you'll know the details from the others blog la hah..

today chruch was ok..but i went back after lunch..
find like very out..
they like see us as invisible..
haiz..anyway mi and peg find one corner than read our bible..
i read till fell asleep..hahaha..as usual..

then that Jason run here run there but still want meet us..in the end i went to my grand ma house then peg go home eat..
haha..then like 7 plus then Jason call back..he still tell us 5 plus call us..then 7 plus then call say he wana eat dinner outside, call mi dun eat at grandma's house..
you all dun think y y ok..we still feel very frenly..
seriously, personally..my mind have thoughts for him but my heart dun have..
then today when i was jotting down questions, i saw this quote i quoted from I Kissed Dating Goodbye
its says "You've given so many parts of your heart to short term relationship, what is left for your husband?"
the book actually encourage young pple like us to get into relationships UNLESS we are prepared to get married..Meanwhile, focus your eyes on God..Praise Him whole heartedly..

"First Seek His Righteouess, then all these things will be granted to you"

yup..so i'll keep praying for revalations and guide from God..

Actually i got confession to make..haha
i havent been praying..unless on wed and sun..
think it made mi less sensitive to God..
Actually i can feel abit but not very strong..now is not at all..very blur..haiz..muz change my lifestyle liao.. but i always feel very uncomfortable praying at home..
when i pray my sis will always chong into the room..its so DISTURBING!!! and spiritually hurting..haiz..
think i'll have to pray in the toilet..
but i always pray very loud..i scared she hears mi also...
haiz...

anyway..you know i always have the thought of my family when i'm praising God in Church..
haiz...quite disturbing also..got to ask Ms Tan liao..

ok la dun write liao..got to read up for tml's lesson..
bye bye

Today is a super fun day!!

morning went for the stats class till 10 then go lib wait for project meeting till 12
then while waiting chatted with liting..wanted to meet her but calculated the time very short can only meet her for one hour
then she suggested mi to crash NTU!!

IT WAS A GREAT SUGGESTION!!

then i went off early from project meeting but from wat i see i cant be on time if i take public transport..so i scarifice take cab..wa!! 11.70!! haiz..but i fore see that it will be fun so took the investment..haha

anyway went there meet liting then we take bus to NTU
then reached the LT called ching n v but nobody ans
so we tok cok till lesson time then i turn back saw both of them 2 rows behind mi and they didnt see mi.. -_-"""

then call them to come down sit with us..haha
then we tok more cok then got alot of funny incident

then when the prof came mi..my 1st reaction :"WA!!! SO SHINY!!"
he's blading..
hahaha..then vjie dropped her eraser in front call the person infront to help her pick up then we suan her say she wana pao the person in front..hahaha
then ching took my high lighter then ask mi wana aim who.. who shuai here..
then i point to the "shiny one" hahahaha..
had a good laugh there

tok alot of rubbish too..

but think the way they conduct their learning not very good..
lectures are too big..cant shot questions and not every one s listening..worst of all the atmosphere there very stress..

suddenly like SMU abit..haha

k la..then i went to eat the 1.39 icecream with liting..
pokia ah..
but heng today take my pay liao
1400plus..hahaha
this month dun need to chou le..haha

anyway..now looking for worship songs..learning some..hope can lead worship one day :)

ok i go sleep le..
nite ntie

blogger, i'm sick of you

actually quite sian of blogger..
anyway, today bible quiz real bad
i didnt really study for it
so of course lose to peg's team la..
haha
made alot of noise today with peg..
feeling a bit childish and naughty
haha..
anyway..i very sick of blog liao le..
skool starting, projects are starting..sian ah..

After The Camp

i'm half died..
as you get older the lesser zeal u have for camps?

i still can remember when i was in band in outram, i love to organise camps..i love it..haha..

But now.. "camp ah? sian ah.."

haha..the camp, after the first the i already like lobster..it was quite ok..not VERY fun..juz ok..was very tired and drained..wasnt enthu at all for the camp..got to know the pple in my group..quite fun pple, enthu..but all of us have something in common.. slack..haha
anything we can sit, we'll all sit down and after every meal all of us will stone..hahaha

aiya..gtg
got convocation later at suntec
see tmr's papers k
bye bye!!

The Camp

how long didn't I blogged? 1 week? haha
many things happened within this week, my god ah ma died, fighting to no go pai pai really left mi spiritually very drained..And suffered post pai pai syndrome.. Felt so so bad..Went to church and cried so badly..

then Monday went again..But this time I was praying to God when I took the joss stick..I keep saying I'm not worshipping the died person..And amazing I didn't felt the feeling the first time I pai..
Ms Tan said God knows the heart so I guess He helped mi not feeling it

anyway..Then sun liwei's bday watch fireworks and some sabotaging haha..Would love to see the pic wee lip took..haha

then today..Went to SMU for CCA day..signed up so many cca..Except archery (sorry peg) the booth was like the last few and I've joined so many so didn't want to sign any more "empty promises" coz I really think I'm going to stick to band

then the funny thing is I joined for band this game which is like 100sec no NG the nai ge and chen chen's show..We are suppose to say a speech in the counter we play before we can play then anything wrong have to re do..haha
then ours is the last..wahahahaha!! The person incharge hinted mi!! coz I too kan chong!! wahahaha!! Then my ping pong ball drop she also never stop mi. Thank God.
then the last counter we're suppose to do a human primand ( ai ya dun know how to spell la) the human triangle la..then the person say halfway then let ur pass liao..hahaha
then we did 8 counters in 6.24 sec won by 6 sec!! wahahaha $1000!!!!! but to the band fund..sian...

anyway it was a good day..but ended off quite badly..my flute skills sucks big time..haiz..quite depressed by that..but after talking to the taxi uncle and ching felt better.. :) now ok le..

anyway tml orientation camp liao.. hope i have fun.. dun really have high hopes for it..coz its in skool and we'll be sabo till siao..anyway..

keep in touch k pple??!!
nite nite

a really fun and unforgetable day

WA!! worte a super long blog last nite then i go press the BACK button when i press forward no more liao!!!! BOOHOOHOO!!!

anyway...haiz...
have been studying for my statistics test these few days..study slp eat watch tv...rotting..haha

then..sat actually meeting samuel to get my discman back..then this flirty samuel meeting her girlfren-to be (not girlfren yet) then dun wana meet mi liao..that pig! then i went to Louis's birthday with Ms Tan and Jason..

his house very nice!! the design of the house very cosy..the design of his bed room also..so creative!! his cardboards all on the ground below his bed! i dun know how to describe to u all la..but its very nice jiu dui liao..

then we went home..Ms Tan left mi at bradell then i take MRT home..she's sick again..fever and sore throat..so to let her rest earlier i went home myself..

on the way home..i was thinking abt wat i want to do with my life..
my purpose is to follow God..but wat i wana do with my life?
came across this quote
"The gift of Life is from God. What you are going to do with it will be a Gift to Him"
came across this quote quite a number of times liao..it didnt struck mi..untill now..

i'm still thinking abt it..
wat is my passion? wat i want to do with my life to make it colourful and meaningful?

you guys le?

then came sunday...thinking of it makes mi laugh..haha

went to church with Hui Ching..
i'm so happy she wana come..i know its hard for her..its uncomfortable..at first it was like that for mi also..but luckily things werent that bad when i started to juz focus on God..but now sitll cant really focus very well but i'm still learning..haha..

but i'm glad ching came with us..i'll be looking forward to her coming the next time..might not be soon..haha..i'll still continue to pray for u girl...

anyway..after church peg ching n jason came to my house..i was suppose to teach peg and ching maths..then they'll be staying to watch the fireworks..
then when they came..i juz throw my notes to ching..hahaha..didnt really teach her..but i hope the noes will help..hahaha..then i also dun know wat is peg writing..wat transformation..i only learn how to transform graph then she write this draw that i also dun know wat she drawing..hahaha..then also offer her my notes..but she dun want..hahaha..

then mi n ching were studying in my room when nurse peg came with the blood pressure measurer..haha then we measure all ours then nurse ching take down all our readings and analyse who most unhealthy...was it mi? haha..then we measure calf, wrists then mi n ching were thinking of measuring the head..then i thought sure cannot one la..the neck maybe can.. hahaha!! then both of the reaction so big..say will die..will be struggled..hahahaha..i didnt thought of that!! hahaha..i'm such a good doctor eh..hahaha..rite my nurses? hahahaha..

then we ordered KFC..then eat eat eat..then the HUI CHING eat till my carpet got so many crumbs!!!!
then eat halfway the fireworks came!!! aiyo!! oily hands how to take photos!! anyway the fireworks were great..next week is hong kong one..this one is by the US pple..

got pic for u all..but havent scan yet..
later later..haha

then the JASON went to throw pillows!! one attack 3!! never die before..
then we have a very tiring pillow fight..hahaha..was sweating like hell..
in the end of cuz we win..then we messed up jason's dearest hair..hahaha..then take photos..but i think the photos will not be nice..coz all wrong timings..hahaha..

then they left.. then all the place all got pillow!! below the com table. behind the monitor...ai yo!!

haha..but it was fun..haha..

then monday went to study and my grand ma's house then went to watch King Arther..
quite nice actually..

aiyo i no time liao..
tell u all another day..
bye bye..
leave mi comments!!

The Oneness Of God

Had a lesson on the oneness of God on wed..its good..really did answers my question but i would not say that i comprehened it completely..
Anyway i'm reading this book called The Oneness Of God
this is wat it wrote..some parts only la..not all..

from the old testament:
Deut 6:4 "Hear, O Isreal: the Lord our God is one Lord"
Exo 20:3, Duet 5:7 "Thou shalt have no other Gods before me"
Exo 20:5 God emphasized this command by stating that He is a jealous God
Duet 32:39 God said there is no other god with Him.
2 Sam 7:22, 1 Chronicles 17:20 "There is none like the Lord and there is no God beside Him
Psalm86:10 "He alone is God"

Many times the Bible calls God "the Holy One" (Psalm 71:22; 78:41; Isaish 1:4; 5:19; 5:24) but never "the holy two, "the holy three," or "the holy many."

A common remark by some trinitarians about the Old Testament doctrine of the oneness of God is that God only intended to emphasize His oneness as opposed to pagan deities but that He still existed as a plurality. However, if this conjecture were true, why did not God make it clear? Why have the Jews not understood a theolody of "persons" but have insisted on an adsolute monotheism?

The New Testament Teaches There Is but One God
Jesus emphatically taught Duet 6:4, calling it the first of all the commandments (mark 12:29-30) The New Testatment presupposes the Old Testament teaching of one God and explicitly repeats this message many times

"Seeing it is one God, which shal justify" (Romans 3:30)
"There is none other God but one" (1Corinthians 8:4)
"But to us there is but one God, the Father" (1 Corinthians 8:6)
"But God is one" (Galatians 3:20)
"One God and Father of all" (Ephesians 4:6)
"For there is one God" (1 Timothy 2:5)
"Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devild also believe, and tremble" (James 2:19)

Again, the Bible calls God "the Holy One" (1John 2:20). There isone throne in heaven and one sits upon it (Revelation 4:2)

Conclusion
Today, God still demands a monotheistic worship of Him. We in the church are heirs of Abraham by faith, and this exalted position demands that we have the same monothistic faith in the God of Abraham (Romans 4:13-17). As Christians in the world we must never cease to exalt and declare the message that there is only one true and living God.

So...Eileen..i know u will have alot of question but it is important that u know who u are worshipping and believing in..u wana meet mi? we discuss abt it?

JIAYOU CHUN!!!

where should i start?
erm..the chinatown pt church?
guessed peg have told u guys everything..

then the ktv..nothing much..Chris got mi a bday present..its a precious tot cross saying "Jesus Loves You" its nice, pretty, but i cant hang it..haha love it thou.. :)

then came to work today..so many mistakes..i cant survive man...wun be going back anymore man..otherwise my colleague will give mi qi si..hahaha

anyway..had been busy doing my community service stuff..i cant join the normal SMU freshman ones..coz i missed the first meeting and the rest all the activities too many things going on..
However thanx to cheng, i've got lobang.. i hope i really can participate till i finish my 80 hours..commitment is really needed..and God's help..

anyway..i hope everything will be fine..theses days life isnt that smooth..
and i know my nightmare is coming..soon my family will find out..and i know i cant keep it anymore..but i know i would not need to worry..coz God has good plans for mi..i juz hope i'll stick to Him..and not compromise..a big war is coming..

Had a vision that day at chinatown pt...
i saw a very very white wall..
there was a door in the middle..and it opened..
its a very very dark room inside..
i was scared even to look into the room
then the paster started saying abt spiritual war

i didnt understand until i discussed it with Ms Tan

She said God wants to tell mi there are no grey areas..its either you are on the white side or the black side..so you're either with God or with the devil..there is a very very clear line..no in betweens, no grey areas..
suddenly i remembered of the things i've been doing
i have been thinking its ok its ok to do this and that..i tot God will compromise..i tot God will forgive coz of the situation that is hard to not compromise..however rules and rules..
i have been in the dark room all the while!
SCARY....
so this taught mi not to compromise no matter wat the situation

THANK GOD FOR OPENING MY EYES AND TEACHING MI..

Tml i'm starting to study for my Stats test..
pple help mi can? dun call mi out but keep intouch with mi? can chio bus? haha
You're doin mi a great favour!!

btw..my colleague keep saying i'm fat!!!! that pig!! i'm goin to eat lesser..i'm going to start running!!
deng zhe qiao!!!

i'll still praise Him

ysterday..work was ok..got good deals..
Finally it is over...

i got this community service i got to do this week..but thursday morning i called the person who said he will call mi to update mi abt the first meeting but nv call..

he told mi alot of pple turned up so those who didnt turn up cant join liao..
it left me abt sad..coz i've been waiting for this for very long..then suddenly he come tell mi cant join liao..i very sad..

then now have to find other things to join to make up my 80 hours..
but thank God i check my SMU email ystday got a national heritage board need pple..but they sent on thurs then i last nite then check and replied..dun know can get it or not coz it really sound exciting..

then juz now i juz receive my fren's email that the children foundation need pple..so i'mtrying that one out also..hope SMU can count that one as my hours too..

ystday nite church got this talk at another church..peg went and she said is very good..i'm going later..hope i dun fall asleep..haha..kk update u guys again abt the talk!

ohya...forgot to tell u all..i'm suppose to meet Chris tml to return him all the things..the christian cds all that and he owe mi chng's present money..
then we cant arrange a time tml..so he called..but he like dun wana talk to mi too long like that..it made the situation quite awkward..
i think i hurt him abit deep is it? otherwise he wun like that rite? wat u all think?

i like this..anybody wana employ mi?

see the sticker? its real addidus ok...hahaha 

my new cap!! 17bucks only! 

we take ourselves..haha 

its still in ours hands..hahaha 

three of us at fulleton!! 

fulleton is in ours hands!! hahaha 

post celebration picture taking session!! hahaha..at esplanade!! 

my and peg!! nice pic eh..ching dun jealous...haha 

twist twist twis!! aiyo..ching..y u go dig the statue's nose! 

my birthday celebration!! 

which rank are you?

1st Msg:
2329pm
by Niao

2nd Msg:
2342
by Edric

3rd Msg: 1st Msg after 12am! immediately
1200
by Hui Shan

4th:
1201
by Edmund

5th:
1203
by Eileen

6th:
1211
by Li Wei

7th:
1216
by Peg

8th:
1221
by Kelvin (my ast manager)

9th:
1224
by kum yeow

10th:
1232
by Huiling

11th:
1235
by Hui Jing

12th:
1237
by De Fang

13th
0119
by Hui Ching

14th
0122
by Sophia (ossmb)

**Here start liao..all the NS pple early in the MORNING all come msg..and my phone was not on silent**

15th
0538
by ShanJing

16th
0603
by jiemin

17th
0619
by Chris

18th
0714
by jacelyn

19th
0757
by defang again

20th
0859
by Daniel--wishing mi merry christmas

21st
0902
by Leemei

22nd
0907
by Chai Hong

23rd
dun know wat time

24rd
dun knw wat time..online one
Xue fen

25th
dun know wat time also
fuquan

26th
0946
meh meh

27th
0954
Ada (compass pt staff)

28th
1016
yeling--sang mi a happy birthday song

29th
1100
joseph--wanted to buy mi a present but dun know wat to get

30th
1128
Thomas--my funan colleague

31th
1229
Janice--wishing mi Happy new year

32th
1253
Meiyuan

33th
1348
Janice--wishing mi happy birthday

34th
1453
Kee Hong again

35th
1516
Shi Pei--my Jcmate

36th
1721
Kian hai--my e club fren

BELATED
1st
0001
Jennifer :)

2nd
0234
Jeremy--my jjc band senior

A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY WITH MY FRENZ

hey hey..
today went to orchand to meet Cheng and Alicia then we proceed to Swensens..
Got a nice place to sit..
then I told them abt my no-meat-fast..They wasn't very happy that I'm doing it..

but anyway, we ordered before Liting came coz she went to NTU to take the Eng test and Cheng have to leave early for her casting...Hope she got in..

Then when we finish then Liting came..then when LiTing was eating cheng and beaver wana go Toilet..I was talking to Liting and Liting's face blocked the counter unknowingly so I didn't notice they were buying the cake for mi

then we light up the candle then I sang myself a birthday song till too excited blow off 2 candles hahahahaha..Next time cake muz put further away from mi..hahahaha

then cheng left..She actually need to leave at 130 but she stayed till 210..
THANX CHENG!!

then Alicia, Liting and mi finished up the cake.....WA..Difficult man..The cake so so big then Liting's main course was too big..so mi and Alicia eat till wana bao zha..haha

then we foot the bill then I very very long nv watch movie liao..The last time was with Chris..Watch Shrek 2..then we went to watch mean Girls..
Not bad..The morale of the story is repent

then went to centre pt see there got Hui Ching's jeans..But dun have..then we go Courts haha..New open one is it? I nv see before le..then found very interesting utensils.. haha..then Alicia going to work..so she left us..

then we went to Royal Sporting House..i saw this Addidus Cap...bright red..cool man..very pretty..then saw another PUMA cap..blue..so pei with my outfit..haha..but i still prefer the addidus one..so i bought it 17 bucks..

then we actually wana go Robinsons one..but already 545 liao..meeting ching they all at 6 so i left liting..she also going home..we're meeting next wed..:)

then go meet yenling first then go NYDC meet the rest of them..
had a nice dinner..then vege bake rice was not bad..
then we were saying want desert..then nobody want..then a oreao cheese cake came with a candle..then i was like "HEY GOT ANOTHER PERSON ALSO SAME BIRTHDAY AS MI!!" then the waitor put it infront of mi..then he say was like awkwardly take his hand out and said happy birthday..then i was like..ok..thanx *shake hands* *PIAK!* THERE IS WHIP CREAM IN HIS HANDS!!.. **STUNNED**

then i was like..i no tissue then they were like discussing "juz now i saw the cream nicely put inside his hand" that kinda thing..haha but heng another waitress got tissue...haha

this is one of my few birthday since i was a teenager that have little sabotage..haha..

anyway..then we proceeded to esplanade..meh meh give us bluff to esplanade when she need to go take MRT..haha..
then yen, yuan, imee also left..then ching, peg mi went to esplanade TAKE PICTURES!!! MUZ SEE MUS SEE!! hahaha

then they walk mi home as usual singing christian songs..haha..then i wait with them for the bus...then i go home liao...
thats it..

quite a simple birthday celebration..
spent 160 treating my frenz..ok la..quite reasonable..treat 9 pple.. :)

Its Coming!!

tell you guys something...i juz typed one big big blog and when i go view janice's blog my nepscape got problem..then all my netscape have to close then its gone...

Must be that thing i shouldnt have said..

but anyway in short..

i sold 4 phones today.. Thank God

many pple cant make it for my bday treat

i hate to talk to "empty pple" those who physically with you but heart not with you but when they need you, they sick up all your energy and the whole cycle repeats itself everytime the person change her romantic partner..

i'm sick of that and i will scold the person if that happens again
but i will not be angry coz its a sin and i'll forgive her..but i will not be fair to the "pple"..

and this also leads mi to think of the pple who truly knows mi..
really wana say a BIG BIG THANK YOU!!

and then To Me:
a BIG BIG
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!

Oh ya!! Today Funan got a food fair!!! wahahaha!! so many things to eat!!!! but i'm on the vege fast le..cant really eat alot..but still ate quite alot..tu tu kueh, kachang puteh, mua ji, some vege stuff, DURIAN PANCAKE, strawberry cheesecake (not very nice), 9 storey cake (jiu chen gao) and bought 2 big bags og ko ro pok! wahahaha..

PEGGIE~~~~wana come my house~~~~~~
ops forgot u on diet..

btw to view the next blog pls go to View and zoom..i cant chnage the size of the font le..my com dun know what problem

My First Bday Present of the year!

hey pple!!

got my first birthday present of the year today!!!
Its from my supervisor and his girlfriend..
Gues what they got mi!!


They got mi the WOW WORSHIP CD!!

It ok ls..not fantatic but its nice..haha

I dun really have feelings that my Birthday is coming..

I'm more excited that my last day is friday

I find that the older you get the least excited you are for your birthday..haha for my case la..haha
What do you guys think??!!

Today work is ok la..juz hate my supervisor always say "siewchoon i got one liao le..you le" when he knows i dun have any sales..i juz hate it..i hate pressure..i esp hate this kinda pressure..but..i have to forgive him..God help mi...




I was juz thinking what Ms Tan said a few weeks ago.
Alot of pple thinks that they go church, worship God, God will please them,,will bless them..but they're so wrong..
Firstly, God knew us even before we were born. He first loved us. So no matter wat we do, He will bless us..but maybe we cant see the big picture in that point of time..we cant see things from God's point of view and think its bad for us. but at the end of the day if we follow Him truly even when "bad things" happen to us, we will still gain.

Secondly, juz think of this, "Do we believe in Him only when He pleases us?"

Thirdly, look at the pple in the bible. They are pple who suffered for God. Thats wat made them great in the eyes of God. So christians who read my blog..juz a reminder..blessings come with prosecutions..be prepared when it comes..dun disappoint Him. We are rejected by the world bcoz we do not belong here.
you get wat i mean? i dun mean i'll go heaven la..juz encouraging you guys if applicable..

Dun know y i suddenly wanted to write this. juz felt like sharing.. :)
COMMENTS ANYONE??

Long time no BLOG!!!!

Hey this is cool!! so many things added to the blogging system!! can change colour some more..haha..

Anyway..juz to update pple..i'm still working and discovering abt God.
previously was having a spiritual down period. was pretty bad.
But God brought mi back, He showed mi signs..many of them..
its a very very long story to tell.. but anyway..God really opened my eyes and made mi realised all the great things He had done. And everytime i thought of them i felt like crying..its is that touching..

Good news to all who miss mi so much, i'm leaving my job on 23rd july 2004!! but they're calling mi back to work after i've started studying..actually also not bad hor..might consider.. :) wat do u think?

these few days i'm having a vege diet. When i told my sis, She wasnt very happy abt it..then when she read my blogger..she felt sad seeing how close i've got to know God. She doesnt want mi to convert. even if i want i'll have to wait till my parents pass away..but wat if the rapture comes before they pass away? i'm not saying i want them to faster pass away. i know its a selfish thinking..but how? God please help mi...give mi wisdom..

AH!!! when did blogger become like frenster!! i type finish but cant publish!! then when i come back only left half the blog!!!!!

anyway..i miss all of u!!! miss all our outings, gatherings, shopping sessions, tokcok sing song play mahjong sessons...i'll go visit all (if i can) ur blogs!! see ya!!

Eileen: wana meet up? i'm free after this coming week..when are ur free days?

ching!! you coming church ah!! dun fly my aeroplane ok!!
11am outside oriental plaza..i'll tell peg..haha..coz i have to rush off after chruch to work liao..

anyway..very sian..after one day of week the days seens to be passing very slowly..

discussed with my sis abt the laptop thing..my sis say actually ibm not bad..but i still like fujitsu le...
anyway checking up fujitsu s6130 first..

haiz..got to know ystday that i wun be going to compass pt anymore to work liao, will be struck at funan..sian..i like the pple at compass le...
and they dun wana tel mi the reason

i also dun know..dun is my mistake or wat..anyway..if i still got the job i happy le..

got my pay le..
$969.64
so little...
i think the 69.64 is my commission..
sian...

anyway..u guys enjoy urselves...
hope to see u all soon!!

Thanx Ching..

Today is my one and only off day..so sian..so tired to wake up..anyway..when to SMU to matriculate..got ching to company mi..haha..and meh meh of course..she got mum to fetch so xin fu...mi and ching walk high and low then found the place..
anyway..then day was fun..haha..my student card not bad la..but forgot to push up my spects..look quite nerdy..haha

anyway..felt that Ching abit left out when mi and meh discuss things..i'm sorry ching..

then meh and ching saw SO MANY ACJC PPLE!!! wa!! from ching's exprience i very scared of AC pple..the last thing i want is to study with them...
SIANZ...then see all of them like i invisible like that..so hostal..anyway god taught ask not to jugde pple..and to judge pple in the most favorable light..maybe they shy?? haha..

Anyway i still believe that it is god's perfect plan for mi? Mayeb He wants my english to improve? haha..so mix with pple who has good gp grades will help mi improve? haha..actually quite scared..but anyway..i'll put my faith in God..

then meh went to wait for Eileen (her AC fren) then mi and ching proceeded with the matriculation then went for lunch together..

then we went home..and relax..finally..think i go take nap now..hahahaha..

really thank Hui Ching to company mi today..
THANK YOU CHING AND SORRY FOR NEGLECTING YOU...

Ching: so after wat i showed u, u wana come church to thank god urself?

Nice...so dun ver look down on urselves!!!

A very good message to ponder ...
A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding
up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200, he asked, "who would like this $20
bill?" Hands started going up.
He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you
but, first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple the $20 dollar bill up.
He then asked,
"Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied, "what if I do this?" And he dropped
it on the ground, started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He
picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now, who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.
"My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter
what I did to the money; you still wanted it because it did
not decrease in value. It is still worth $20."
"Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and
ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances
that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless."
"But no matter what has happened or what will happen,
you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely
creased, you are still priceless to those who DO love you. The worth of our
lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE."
"You are special - Don't EVER forget it."
If you do not pass this on, you may never know the
lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can
bring. Count your blessings, not your problems. Never be afraid to try
something new.
And remember: amateurs built the ark ... professionals
built the Titanic.
"My business is not to remake myself, but to make the
absolute best of what God made." --- Robert Browning

hey hey pple...

nice to see u guys having great time from each other's company..
hehe..i really hope i can join u all one fine day..hahaha

had a great time at Imee's house that day, scream till i no voice but heng got it back the next morning..haha
nice games...
but i dun like my "bed"..sleep till 8 am like that went to imee's living room to sleep..too cold..

then went home to put my presents from imee then rush to work

anyway that day work sucks..got some help from edric who is working at the 4th floor..haha so qiao rite..

then these fews days lost the anthu to work..bad sales, sian attitude..got to talk to my ARM (ast. retail manager) then realised i need to change..

haiz..work and church really clashing..and it brought mi bad name at work..haiz..but i'll pray to god that he help mi change..

anyway..these few days really no life..got nothing much to say..hahaha

will like to keep in touch with all of u!!
dun forget abt mi ok...

wahahaha!!
pple!! i got another testimony to share!!!
wahahaha

today..
erm..Like normal work days..
promote like reading from the sales guide,

this phone got a one mega pixel camera, 10mins video recording, 4 times digital zoom, blah blah blah..

exactly like wat the sales guide read..
i do my homework one ok..

but usually
the pple will go: "oh...That's cool..Ok I'll think abt it" then I'll go:"no problem..But dun think too long, stocks are going at a fast rate"

That's my only statement for promoting

hahaha..
anyway..Today as per normal..i talk like that, promote like that..but the dif is that i prayed for wisdom to spot pple who wants to buy a phone, pray for wisdom to talk, pray for god to help mi in this impossible industry (in my view).

know wat?
He did.

all were His work. i really mean ALL.

i did sense pple who has the intention of buying phones.
i told them all the truth abt the price, but they were fine with it. *MUZ BE HIM*
normally the pple will walk off..
then it was easy. They decided. They'll buy. Even though they can get it cheaper in Philippines or wat ever. They bought from mi..
wat happened lo? If I'm the one, I'll sure get the cheaper one rite. But..Guess wat. GOD MADE HIM BUY FROM MI.
i cant decide for him, only god can. The most is i do my best, the rest leave it all to God.

today very little pple. So sales was bad. But guess wat.
out of 5 phones sold. 4 were mine. The 5th one is i too busy and my colleague too eng so he entertain for mi. But of course write his name la..today got 4 staff including the ast. Manager. But all the hps were all sold by mi.
why? How? Is it possible? i dun think so at first too. But God gave mi GRACE.
*GRACE is something that you dun deserve but god gave it to you*
GOD IS GREAT!! No words can describe how thankful i am to Him. The only thing i can do is to be His living testimony. As for mi prove. i can show you the transaction today. If you dun trust god, at least trust mi. HE IS ALIVE. HE LOVES YOU TOO. I'll pray for you that you may one day be like mi. the days of the world are counting down. Dun waste this day without god.

GOD IS ALL LOVING!!!

Hey..Got to go church today again!! But the bad thing is that I muz get back by 2pm..Ok la..At least I get to go..Anyway..went to church, practice my tongues, get to speak it clearer now..Louder also..But still cant understand, still learning..Then today I great thing happened.

pastor was talking abt the devil will fine pple who are "lurkwarm" in Christ (which means not so on for Christ pple , only abit on pple) and posses them..Then talk talk talk..Then pastor ask who havent receive the holy ghost yet..Go up front and we'll pray for them..Then I ask peg she wana go..I sense that she will say "hah..Dun wan la..I not prepared..But I also dun know le.." But she kept quiet them another girl came up and ask her..Then she still not decided..Then Pauline came to ask her also..Then she agreed..

then the 3 of us pray for her..WA...Pray so long!! Pray till I no voice liao ah..Then pray like 3 rounds le!! then she got it on the 3rd round..There was like SOOO MANY pple praying for her..There is another person who want to receive also, so its like the whole church pple one group for her one group for peg..although I cant see but I can sense that there is a big group of pple behind mi praying for peg too lo!! I can see so many hands from my view and I think still got alot more behind..WA..peg..u got the attention of the whole church!!! wahahaha..they're nice pple la..all pray for u..somemore so long!! mi Pauline and the long hair girl (both peg n mi forgot her name) prayed for her through out..WA...use alot of strength le..got alot of wrinkles from the concentration of praying le..peg...u know my ku xin? hahaha

anyway..she got it..all of us praying so loudly in tongues I cant even hear her..Pauline standing infront heard then we clapped! cue to stop..hahaha coz I dun know she got it or not..hahaha..

anyway..I was not late for work le..my hp says 2:00 pm sharp, the computer there says 1:58pm..But my boss(not the manager, higher rank then manager), terence's watch says 2:15pm... -_-"""" then I still count as late lo..

anyway, I feel its worth it to spend the time praying for peg!!! haha

anyway, work as usual, bad sales, 6 phones only, somemore today is a sunday..haiz...Anyway, the day was great!! SO HAPPY PEG GOT THE HOLY SPIRIT IN HER..

peg peg go practice also kk..hahaha..Dun it in the toilet..muz have boldness remember? do it in the living room!! hahaha..
Anyway, I really hope u can get to speak with Ms Tan..But think she's too busy..its normal that she dun pick up her phone la..hahaha..i'll pray for u.. :) and her not to be so tired everyday..haiz..

A wonderful day with god!!

Hey pple, due to my overexcitment and cant be understood English, I edited this entry..So for those who dun understand, can read it again? Sorry..Anyway For Ching: can read all? Not juz the non-Christian parts? I really wana share his love and show u that all this are true, My true testimony.

Woke up today..Feel like no "mu ai" (mother's love) like no one wana care abt mi..Think bcoz the previous nite talked with Ms Tan and she said once I'm independent enough, she'll hand mi over to someone else..Then in my sleep last nite, I believe the devil is dong something making mi feel like I'm having depression..But I told myself I can't like that..coz bcoz of my work, I dun get to go to church, but I fought for it..So I'm going to church today!!

then I take bus, realized my farecard no money, I got no money in my wallet too!! Only 50 cents..Told the bus driver. Heng the driver let mi pass. PRAISE THE LORD! Anyway was abit late for church..But juz in time before they start..

Angeline came along today..She's quite irritating when we were worshipping. Its like when we singing song, clap hands, blah blah blah..She'll stare at mi n Jason..Like poke her head out of the row (we were standing in a row) and look at us. Then she'll giggle giggle when u look at her back..

At first I was ok with it and was trying to block her stare at Jason..But Jason was super uncomfortable coz he's shy..I mean when pple stare at u like that and laugh at you u'll sure feel uncomfortable rite...Anyway, Ms Tan started to say her..But she dun listen. She still come and tell mi "u act happy ah!" then say to Ms Tan "ni kan..da shi bu shi zai act happy?!"

She upset mi..coz I really didn't wake up with a good mood, I woke up in a depression mood..Was trying to cheer up for god, to worship him, to enjoy my service as it did not came easy.

then I felt self pity, something like i'm not happy but bcoz of God, I "acted happy". Felt very wei qu..Felt like crying too..Really very bad..Its normal to cry in church so I would not be very noticed if I cried.

But suddenly, I remembered the bible did said we cannot self pity (also dun know where I learnt that from) coz God loves us so So much that he sent his only son to die for us.

I need made a decision..Its either I continue to self pity, or to go with god..I decided to go with god without expecting wat will happen..But at The moment I've decided, the sec, the split second, almost immediately, I felt a very very strong spiritual lift up! Raising my spirit up!!! Supporting my depressed spirit! Like i'm carried up in big warm hands..Then I heard God telling mi He's carrying mi up!!!!


**awesome!!!!!**


I feel so great!!!! The feeling makes mi feel so whole! The feeling of u knowing u can never fall..coz u have him.. Its like you're lying in his hands. Juz leave everything to him and it'll be alrite that kinda thing la..I cant really describe u the feeling..But its really really awesome..Then I close my eyes worshipping god, enjoying the wonderful spiritual support from god!!

then after Angeline "had-her-fun-teasing-pple" service She left early. She got other programs.

Then we continued to praise him!!!! Oh yeah!!! Enjoyed it so much..
When I was singing "Shout To The Lord" the part where it says "Forever I'll love you, Forever I'll stand!!" I meant it so much in my heart!!! I raised my right hand straight, giving God my promise. (Now then I know it takes so much sincerity to do that)

He has done SO MUCH SO MUCH for mi, and really changed my life..Change my attitude, change my character. I want to live a evangelistic life. I cant do it without him. He's my power, He's my energy, He IS my God, ONE AND ONLY GOD.

Then sister jenny, a pasture who was from the states, sent on a missionary to china..She met a lot of problems trying to keep the "trading activities" down..coz of the overwhelming response of the china pple.. They are so hungry for the word..So hungry that the pasture have to preach day to nite for 4 or 5 days!! After that they're still so hungry!! The reason is there is a lot of restrictions to wat u can preach..They're not allowed to speak of baptism, tougues, simply, there is nothing much left for them to preach..
so she talked abt her "contracts" as the water baptism she have to do, her "business" as the meet for open preaching, and her "business partners" are suppose to be business man also rite, but they come from a lot of places including rural areas..They have no jeans only those grey cloth pants and rough behavior that kind la..They're meeting her in the hotel room some more..Then abt 45 of them that kind..Got so much attention and also bare in mind china got so many pple I believe many of them are spies..From the government..If they caught, everything is traced, they will have to run..
anyway..heng the pasture didn't got it so far..PRAISE THE LORD!!

then I'm interested in the baptism of the holy spirit which pasture jenny did mention..Then I asked Ms Tan abt it..How to get it and stuff..

after service Pauline and Ms Tan prayed for the holy spirit to come into mi..As God promised in Acts 2:38, he wants a part of him in every of his pple..Pauline explained God wans to give it to mi..So I accepted..Then we started praying..

read carefully:


then I will have to say it after Pauline that kinda thing..But Pauline said it so long to repeat..I might juz forgot wat she said when I was going to start..
but miraculously, some thing read it word by word with mi..After I finished one word He tells mi the next..I believe is Him..

then not long after I said the read-after-mi-thing, I started to think abt nothing, blank..then I realize I was speaking......In something I dun know..(which is tougues--the evidence that the holy spirit has come into me!!) then I started to say it out more..Then Ms Tan say "juz let it flow..juz let it out.." Then I began to repeat the syllabus..Only 4 like that..And also not very clear. Then Pauline said "increase increase" then I said like 2 more new syllabus..I also not very sure how many..juz some new lippings came..But also not very clear..
then after a "long release", Pauline helped mi sealed it..Not to let it go away forever..And when we finished..I was like drowsy..Like the ground moving..But I felt so So so great!!!

then rush to work..But I was feeling so So great!!

although only sold 2 phones out of 19 phones today, I was so So happy!!!!

after I out stock waiting for my manager to check, funan is almost empty then I sang "shout to the lord" "how could I live without u" "when the music fades" like funan is my concert hall..hahahaha..It feels so great..Almost cried..Anyway, I was feeling so So so great..

then today is my last day at funan, tml going century square, sian..So far..At tampines...

Anyway I love this day!
I wouldn't wana forget this day ever ever!!
PRAISE THE GOOD LORD!! PRAISE THE EVER FAITHFUL GOD!!

"*My Jesus, My Savior
Lord there is none like You
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

My Comfort, My Shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath
And all that I am
Never cease to worship You

Chorus:
Shout to the Lord
All the earth
Let us sing
Power and majesty
Praise to the King
Mountains bow down
And the seas will roar
At the sound of Your Name

I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love you
Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

My Jesus, My Saviour
Lord there is none like You
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

Your my comfort (My comfort)
And my shelter(My Shelter)
Your my Tower of refuge and strength
let every breath
All that I am
Never cease to worship you

repeat Chorus twice"

PROCLAIM YOUR AWESOME POWER,

last nite..my work fren Renee got to speak to Ms tan and clarified some of her doubts with Ms tan..i hope and pray hard she'll come back to the heart of worship..then after hearing Ms tan said faith grows when u read more of God's word..then i suddenly like neglect my bible for a long long time liao..but i still got the "i kissed dating goodbye"

read abit ystday..
so inspiring!!
it sayd abt SMART LOVE..
test ur feelings with ur knowlegde to make sure it is not a sendimental gush..
to think of it all of my relationships are sendimental gush..
ai ya..i too tired to say wat i wana tell u all

i know ystday that today will be tough..then i suddenly have the thought that i will praise God no matter wat happens today..so...

anyway
today my outlet..funan got a new record, sold 9 phones today..but pai like hell la..and some incident happened that i dun wana rememeber..only ching knows..

then returned home 1130pm..
coz only mi and my ast. manager today..so we pack very slowly..haha..
i no eat dinner le!! go home then eat..

anyway..was complaining to ching then ask ching abt peg.

TO PEG: u ah...say serious abt jian fei still dun wana control..u'll juz waste ur money..the person already told u its not easy so if u think its easy now u better do someting abt it if u even wans lower ur weight by 1 kg!
abit kuang zhang la..but i dun wana see my friend waste money like that..

anyway..had a good laugh with ching and she really brighten up my day..haha..
praise the LORD for everything that happened today! bcoz i know the bad things he goes through it with mi and make mi feel better as he cleases and heal mi..n he makes the happy moments more meaningful with him around! GOD IS GREAT! SING HIS PRAISE! ALL THE EARTH! ALL THE HEAVENS! CAUSE WE'RE LIVING FOR THE GLORY OF YOUR NAME!
AMEN!!

GOD PLEASE HELP MI

last nite..have a heated discussion abt the BBR thing with Chris..after much talking..he still dun get my point.. this morning saw his msg telling mi wat he's going to do today..then i was like..haiz....

then i msg ms tan..
but guess wat..
i sent it to the wrong person
guess who i sent it to?
CHRISTOPHER

i wrote wat i felt during the chat ystday nite (which is not very positive) and something like i dun wana get too close to him..shit man..then he replied..
i understand...i'm sorry..

gosh.........i dun know wat to feel le..i'm happy my point was so efficiently brought across to him but i feel sorry for him..i hope our frenship still stands...

anyway..today work was so super stressed..
i almost cried at work today coz of the stress
but i nv cry la..in the end Ms tan came to buy HP lighten up my day..and HUI CHING'S 5 TESTIMONIAL in my frenster acc. made my day..

but working is so stress..had some tension with my senior staff..did so many mistakes! i so kan cheong! then i so stress!!
stress --> mistake --> even more stress --> EVEN more mistakes --> irritate my senior staff --> i get super stressed!!

i dun even dare to go for dinner break!! dun even dare to go water break or toilet break..

stress ah..but managed to sell 2 phones..stress ah..one is ms tan one lo..
stress ah................

i cmi liao..

off day!! they gave mi 7200 use for one day!

hey pple..thanx for the advice..erm for Janice's..bcoz i'm distracted from God, i felt it..i felt lost with God and it like u go to church to see chris not to worship god that kinda idea? ya..so if he wana wait i dun mind but i got no feelings for him lo..ystday he msg in the afternoon i nv reply coz working ma..then at nite he msg mi
(the exact msg)
"EvErYtImE We DuN kEeP iN tOuCh


I fEeL sAd

OnE tHiNg I'm SuRe Of Is

I mIsS yOu

BuT tHe MiSsInG pArT oF tHe StOrY,

hOpE tHe OtHeR hAlF iS yOu MiSs Me ToO!!"

haha..so how? think meh meh's advice is good..i'll talk to him abt it..but muz find the right opportunity otherwise even frenz also cant be liao..

hey pple..i'm now using 7200!!!! the nokia only flip flop phone..so cool man!!!! but only can use it for one day..haha.. tml muz return liao..now recording songs..

oh ya got things to tell u all also..
i got BS today..but first week of work cant off..then i was like telling my superviser if i can leave early tml..then after much praying and thinking..he let mi off today..wahahaha..

my sakes so far:
3hp 1 battery

Happy Birthday Ching~~~!!!

Haven't write Sunday rite..
Early morning mummy woke mi up to eat breakfast with her, when the lullaby was still playing (go to sleep now, close ur eyes~~) mum came in! "XIAO NUI AH~~!! PEI MAMA QU CHI ZAO CHAN YAO MA~~!!!" then was like "huh...wo yao shui jiao...." then she came sitting at my head sha jiao, shaking mi, " pei ma ma qu la!! pei ma ma qu la!" (She quarrelled with dad these few days..think her meno pause unbalanced homo coz her mood swing and over sensitiveness and sha jiao..) then she took the NTU rejection letter let mi see..Then I wake up liao..Cant go back to slp liao..So sian..I so tired..Then cant get in time to meet peg, so I only pei her to bus stop then I 920 like that reach outram park MRT..

guess wat..peg still at home doing all her chores forgetting the time..(wats new rite?) anyway..Company her go to the herb a live (jian fei one) talk..Almost fell asleep..Anyway, then went to church, enjoyed the worship but fall asleep when the pastor preaching..muz be the devil doing his "deeds" but I slept so soundly so sweetly altough the pastor so excited shouting here and there, walking here and there..hahaha

then peg left early to her street fest..Then mi, ms tan, Jason, mandy, hockey, Gary, evon, xuehua and....I forgot the last one..hahaha..Anyway..After lunch ms tan went to her CLC course. Then mi went home to check the stove mum thought she forgot to off..Then went home called my cousin.. Cant tuition again coz one went JB, then I very sian to teach only one..So cancelled..then went to write my Friday cum sat blog..Then went to aunt's house eat dinner and slept there for one nite..

then Chris msged mi..Asking how's service and saying his pastor preached very well..Then I was thinking..he really cant get my hint? Or he didn't like mi in the first place? Or he cant let go?? hm.....Confusing..Then he asked if I free to chat? hm...Actually its like every sun nite we chat like 2 hrs one..but I was at aunt's place play mahjong..Computer one la..Then I slept early coz morning got to get sis back from china..( pple I need ur views..)

then went to get my sis 4am in the morning then went home slp till morning 1030 like that then wake up for work..

anyway work was so difficult..I like said so much lies like that..But I can sit or stand whenever I want la..Then break when ever I want but cant go out for lunch..Anyway time went past very fast then met up with ching, Jan, peg after their exciting steamboat treat..

before meeting them went to haagen-daz to order a piece of cake..
then met them then blind fold ching with my hands then bring her to haagen daz..so So scared she'll fall..hahaha..Keep peeping!! u tot I dun know ah!! hahaha..Anyway..Luckily when she opened her eyes she only saw the cake.. hahaha then sing happy birthday in Eng then when we finish the candle no fire liao!!! wahahaha!!!!! I think I too excited sing with so much breath! Think I blow out one...wahahahaha!! then we sang in chi and call the waiter help as relight the candle..wahahaha..Every one was like laughing (including the waiter) then we ordered a 4 scoop ice cream then we ate and tk (tok cok) then they walk mi home again!! hahaha..Then we playing the qing wa game..this time I keep losing..hahaha..Then sent Janice to bus stop and wait for her bus to come..

then we talked abt ching
she's very tired of buying all our presents
that's y she bought yen and yuan's present for herself only..So I told Jan that next time like janice's birthday I buy for Jan? Then my bday peg buy for mi? Then peg bday ching buy for her then meh bday Jan buy for her? Then liwei bday vjie buy for her? and so on..So please dun always take ching for granted..she very xin ku also...can we do some things for our jie mei men ourselves too??

k la I go slp liao..tired..nite nite!

out of love ... but in love with God

**hey pple my Comments are Back..thankx to the Genius here, ahem, haha..its at the bottom of the page..so dun get confused**

Went to peg's house slp over last nite..Had a great time there..Watched monster Inc. Then go walk by the river till liang court..Get time chatting, sing songs..really enjoy these times man!! then went back to peg's house then I went to choose a new blog skin for my blog, then peg help mi change..

I was feeling very disappointed la..coz of Chris thing..Then was talkin to them abt it..

**actually I'm not even sure how Chris feels..U gave him my blog add anyway..**

then peg call mi company her go enrollment tml then I said ok..Going SP in t-shirts and shorts..hahaha..
then I fell asleep coz I tot the "good nite" was the cue to fall asleep..hahaha but ching and peg continue to talk..hahaha.. I was so worried I'll snore!! But luckily they no complain..haha..

then sat morning woke up at 9, Ching left first she meeting Jennifer to go her new company see see..Then accompany peg to SP..saw Jennifer the moment we rushed into the MRT..she's waiting for Ching..Then ching called to meet us for lunch at IMM they going to west coast..but we wana eat Mac at SP (cheaper) then got a trade off agreement..Who end first go to the one-who-end-later's place..
Then mi n peg happily go SP admissions to find out that the enrollment date was YSTDAY!!!!!! my goodness lo..How can she see the date wrongly!! Anyway, the person say they'll get back to her on Monday..cant confirm her place there still.. HAIZ...... She quite sad but I think she'll still get it..

then we call ching they all go IMM eat coz later peg got bbq at sambawang..Then mi and peg reach first..
then Chris msg mi..he wana meet mi for lunch..Then call him come IMM..he carry his ENORMOUS BAG and in his no. 4 uniform come meet peg and mi..haha..Then Ching and Jennifer come then we ate lunch..Then here comes the bad news. Janice got rejection letter from NTU..Mi and Ching were so worried!! But she say she'll be ok..Then Ching's sister called..ching also received a letter form NTU..Rejection letter also..I feel so devastated! When I heard wat Ching said my heart like drop to my toes..I feel so bad for them..I feel sad for them..then I msg my sis wat to do she say appeal, wait for next year, Poly, or private degree..Then Ching going to appeal on Monday..Haiz.. Ching went home with mi n Chris..

then I come home bathe then rush to meet Chris and Zhenglun to go indoor stadium for the festival for worship and praise..actually no mood one then zl consoled abit then Chris consoled abit..

then we go in and had so much fun..Then one of the paster ask who is below 20 yrs old who is a Christian..So many pple stand up!! Then we went down to receive some sort of blessing..then go back seat then sing song again..then towards the end they ask who haven't been saved yet to go down..Then Chris encouraged mi to go down..Then I said the Sinner's Prayer again..(the first time I rejected it) then got to know this person call Zena..She was behind mi when I was saying it..I feel so great man!! There's so much JOY in mi when I said it!! But I was shivering all the way..hahaha..But I'm so filled with joy and gladness.. then they give mi a pen..hahaha..Then not long after I reached my seat the concert end liao..I'm so So so happy lo!! Then on the way I talked a lot..hahaha chit chat chit chat chit chat..Basically all rubbish..But I was very very happy..

(continue from 1st jun last paragraph and 4th June's blog's story) Then on our way to kallang Mrt, I told Chris.. " Hey u know that day I was talking to Ms Tan then she said I cant get into a relationship now" then Chris said " y?" then I said " coz will be distracted from God wat..But Ms Tan also got say unless with a very matured Christian" then I added on " but I dun think got any for my frenz is a matured Christian" then we run across the road..Then no talk abt it liao..I dun know how he felt.. Then Ms Tan called back..I told her then she said " ni bu yao hai wo!" coz I forgot to tell Chris have to wait for mi to mature first..Then ready for relationship..Then Ms Tan also Reminded mi to tell him everything has a right time..Then Ms Tan said if he ask again than I add on la..Like if he's really concern then he'll ask again lo..But unfortunately he nv ask..So I think let go ba..he nv msg mi today (6th June)..see how la..

then we reach TBP then eat then met peg then we wait for bus together then I told her abt this also..Then came home do the usual stuff lo..

I got answers to my fustrations..

erm..juz came back home..
had a little chat with Ms tan..
got my answers to my fustrations (tuesday,1st june, Shrek 2~~!! Bs~~!! Love them!!, last paragraph)

erm..I have to thank god for bringing mi back first..
I told u guys I felt lost when I seek God again during Eileen's cell this is because of BGR distrations..

mi falling for Chris had distrated mi from God, hinder mi from my young growing faith..
Ms Tan said anything that make u distracted from God is a temptation.
As fans of the bible, we know that the devil is constantly tempting us..
yah so we are suppose to resist it like Jesus did when he was in the Desert for 40 days.
I didn't know it was a temptation..yah, until juz now la
I know it got nothing to do with Christopher.
Its is juz not the right time la..
There is time for everything and BGR obviously is not the right time now..
So have to wait for mi to mature first..i'm sure then, God will give mi a right guy at the right time..i trust Him!

erm..yah so..I'll try my very best to get out of it now lo..And erm..I'm fine la..I know God is always there for mi and I'm very very happy that God allowed this Test for mi. PRAISE THE LORD OF HOSTS!!! I LOVE YA!! Amen!

Shrek 2~~!!! Bs~~!! Love them!!

From ystday's 2 hr plus chat with Chris, He asked mi where I'm going tml..Then he say he company mi..Then I'm fine with anything..Then he wana meet mi do nothing also very weird so I asked him to watch shrek 2..

IT WAS A VERY VERY GREAT SHOW!!! They draw their emotions so detailed!! hahaha..Very funny also..The funniest is the donkey becoming a stallion..hahahaha!! Imagine the stallion with a enomorous donkey mouth..wahahaha!!!

then we went to meet huiching, liwei and weelip..Then they keep teasing us..Then we go lunch at sakae sushi..Then..I need to go for a interview..Then I ask him if he wants to go with mi..He say ok..Then later we go back meet ching they all for KTV..

then we went for the interview..Then went back orchand for KTV.

During KTV ching liwei and weelip keep teasing US!!!!!
make mi so super paisei!!!!!! But he's alrite with it le..
then la la la..Finished mi n Chris left early for BS..Were abit late la..haha..But were luckily not the latest! haha..Then had a super nice time at BS..But Chris left at 7 to go home pack, eat, book in.

today's BS is abt john the Baptist who is a fore runner of Christ which is said so many times back in the old testament and then of course says abt Jesus and then we were saying abt repentance..bcoz when Jesus come the old culture is passed..N came e new..Which is repentance and baptism by water n by e holy spirit..So we were saying abt btwn frenz or even before God, if one is so So angry with the other to the extend that he/she doesn't wana even see the other fren, wad should we do.

y we wana repent is bcoz we hurt our frenz and most importantly we hurt God.. boohoohoo..

IF I am the one who made my fren angry:
first, I should acknowledge my mistake before God and REPENT (change my thinking, mend my ways, change my direction in life. No matter wad u do u should not walk away from god)
Second, pray to god for help to recover my frenz' anger and broken heart..
If I'm the one who is angry with my fren,
1st pray to God to mend ur heart, give u patience to give ur fren a 2nd chance.
2nd pray for ur fren to repent.

then I was telling them I got my shoulders and upper back badly sunburned then when I slp or carry my backpack its so Painful!!!!!!!!!! Ah!!!!!! Imagine Jesus..He had his flesh ripped open all in his body..Rough clothes..Carrying the super heavy and rough cross!! AH!!!!!!! U call mi sun burnt go carry I sure die..Then still got nailed..But wad he said? "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do." (Luke 23:34) see how God loves his pple? even he is so badly distorted by his pple..haiz..Now pple still question where is the love (song by black eyed peas)..

anyway...Feel very Very bad for the confrontation btwn lw, kl, Chris..haiz..... Really wish I could help..I'm really very Very sorry........ To everyone..

SeNtOsA bEaCh~~!!

Yeah yeah Yeah!! Today meet 10 at harbourfront(hf) who knows the one who lives the furthest reach first!! hahaha its none other then meh~~~ rrylyn..hahaha..All of us were late!! Then late queen peggie was the 2nd to reach!! hahaha..So fan chang..Mi and yuan 3rd then ching janice and yen are the 5th..hahaha

then we reach the beach yen and janice took out their clothes..hahahaha..dun think dirty..They wore bikini inside..hahaha also very wee u weed!! hahaha I wear bikini look like meat ball!! I dun dare to show my fats..hahahhaa..Anyway..meh meh dun dare to take out her top clothing hahaha..Only bare her sexy legs and her sexymoles~~..hahaha..

then we play vball..Then they complain pain..Yah la for beginners sure pain then we change to captain ball..We got odd no. So mi, peg(the taller ones one team), and meh meh one team then the other team is yenling, yawn, ching and janice one team..Play play Play..of course, my team won!! hurray!! hahaha..We play not very long la..Then go play water..Sea water..

mi peg and meh meh swim to the border there..meh meh got difficulty come back..Her asyma(sp) cha yi dian come ah..Scared us..
then we tok cok, as usual, then suntan, then play poker, then go back to the water..But this time only mi Jan and peg..Then mi and peg float on the wave then suntan also la..hahaha..BTW..Its not true that only fatter pple can float hor!! hahaha..Meanwhile the others go bathe..Then when the toilets clear they call us go in bathe..Then we go lo..And left sentosa..so short hor...So wished I can stay longer..But then now I already so burnt..Stay longer think charcoal (sp) liao..

then we go hf eat dinner+lunch? hahaha..Then Ms tan called mi!! good news!! Got job..Go pao kopi at a christian cafe..They need pple with experience (ahem..That's so for mi~~!! hahaha) then she told mi is 6.5 per hour..That's a lot la..Then I make so much effort to call the boss..But she only giving mi 5 per hour..(chey) but think they need pple urgently so I think since I no job also..Might as well go help them..

then I went to meet Eileen..I'm going her cell..As usual..Their cell pple quite scary..Those super on pple but really can see their passion for Christ..I'll work towards that..

then go home super shagged and I'm almost a lobster liao..I think already a lobster..haha

After i go to eileen's cell i felt lost..then i now then realise bcoz the past few days my heart was with Chris..then after the cell with all the long tiring prayers..then realise i lost touch with God..God muz be so sad..i'm so sorry..thats y i'm feeling lost..then had a long chat with Chris..but this time i feel so fren fren with him..juz like that the feeling is lost..maybe its God's will? i dun know..or is it God telling mi to forget Him? then Chris how? i dun know how to handle seriously..i need some advice..but i feel that Ms Tan is too busy..Haiz...