had a very stressful call ystday when i was at suntec..
its from janis, my Business Governement and Society module projectmat.
she very stress coz our 2nd proposal submission got rejected again!! and we need to hand in a improved copy within 24hrs!!
oh man..that kinda freaked me out, but our last min work, within 1 hr we improved on it and submitted before our deadline. Thank God we were able to do it!!
and now, THANK GOD the prof accepted it!! but we still got things to improve on la..
anyway, i was really glad our whole group was very united in scolding him and improving on the proposal and finally we kinda made it..haha
yup i'm really thankful that i met these people.
oh ya..i found these lyrics very meaningful. its from the song called graduation (friends forever) i didn't think its so meaningful until i went to search for the lyrics. hehe here they are, take a look? tell me what do you think? hehe
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
From whatever
We will still be, friends forever
So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
Repeat chorus
La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Monday, February 21, 2005
mid term break..yeah yeah..
yeah..now is term break..but got to go back school everyday for project meeting. one of my project not approved by prof because we had some assumptions and the time periojd is vague so got to REDO the stuff..and we don't have the time to meet up on monday n tuesday and wednesday we have to hand it in again!! so we're going to meet in the morning then hand-in in the afternoon.
met up with peiwei ystday, had a nice chat with her, i'm very happy to have met her and to have helped her abit about her problem.
hmm i do miss the times we're together, when things are so much more simplier and happier.
maybe not happier coz of our circumstances but i'm happy to have found her at that point of time.
its such a blessing to have someone to go through one of your touhest time in life with you. and its a mistake to give up our friendship. that thing still haunts me always but as time heals, and when things are easier to let go on think i'm more ok about it now.
think my secondary school years are the most memorable ones that i make memories and strive hard to achieve something in life.
Junior college years is for time for getting over things, letting people go finally. haha, think i'm a person who cannot really get over things esp when its very dear to me.
then uni years, hmmm experience a new life with God. =) and enjoying the life accepting my past.
hehe..yup think i like it, there's always a time for everything yeah? hehe..
hmm for now i'm working hard in school, my grades last term is real bad and i can't get over it!! so i'm trying harder. hope i can give you guys good news in mid april? hehe..thats when my exams will be over!! yeah yeah yeah!! think i'm the earliest to be released from school, 3 and a half months of holidays!! yeah..but the bad thing is when you're happy enjoying holidays nobody can company me..=(
anyway, ystday me and a fren was talking and we talked about fearing lonliness. i said i'm not very much afraid of it, coz i just have to learn to accept it, if not i'll just make myself look poor thing and pitiful. i hate it.. i hate it more than the effort to accept being lonely is part and pacel of life. its hard but i will if i'm left alone.
but then i told my fren, now things are different, i have some people who i really cherish now. people i want to walk with them, for all my live. if i lose them, think, hmm..actually i'm not very sure, but what is the ultimate motive of having friends to walk with you in life? definitely not because you are lonely but think one person also cannot be so lonely to the point that nobody wants him/her. but if i lose my dear dear frenz, i will feel like that, the parting itself is more then me left being lonely, its more than many things, coz i lost a friend. He/she might not be my enemy, but the feeling that we're not close anymore is real saddening. you know? its like when me n jiemin parted, the bad feeling knowing we are not so close anymore. but is love really means that? love means we have to be close to that person? i mean even for love for friends.
the bible says
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not selfseeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
(1 corinthians 13:4 - 7)
does that means love does not have expectations? wa..very chim leh..i can't think..haha
but anyway, parting among friends..its just a very heartbreaking event la..thats all i have to say..hehe
i'm ok people dun worry k? i'm still very motivated coz i know God's love NEVER FAILS! and i am learning to accept that we are sinful people in a sinful world. we will disappoint and let down people so do others. yup, but God's love always protects, always trusts, always hope, always perseveres. yup and He never gives up on us so we shouldn't to others too. but think in theory its so easy to say, its easy to expect people to it. but what about doing it ourselves. i can't even accept my own mistakes! i mean i can't forgive myself, but i know God is dealing with me, He wants to take it away, but i just feel that if He takes it away i'll forget about it and there is a high possibility that i will commit that mistake again and it will hurt others again!! oh man!! i just hate the fact others is hurt because of my negligance on my own behaviour. i'm still trying to come to terms with God la..see how we can do it, i'm not sure if i want to involve people at the moment.
ok dun worry people i'm ok..
hear from you guys soon too!!
met up with peiwei ystday, had a nice chat with her, i'm very happy to have met her and to have helped her abit about her problem.
hmm i do miss the times we're together, when things are so much more simplier and happier.
maybe not happier coz of our circumstances but i'm happy to have found her at that point of time.
its such a blessing to have someone to go through one of your touhest time in life with you. and its a mistake to give up our friendship. that thing still haunts me always but as time heals, and when things are easier to let go on think i'm more ok about it now.
think my secondary school years are the most memorable ones that i make memories and strive hard to achieve something in life.
Junior college years is for time for getting over things, letting people go finally. haha, think i'm a person who cannot really get over things esp when its very dear to me.
then uni years, hmmm experience a new life with God. =) and enjoying the life accepting my past.
hehe..yup think i like it, there's always a time for everything yeah? hehe..
hmm for now i'm working hard in school, my grades last term is real bad and i can't get over it!! so i'm trying harder. hope i can give you guys good news in mid april? hehe..thats when my exams will be over!! yeah yeah yeah!! think i'm the earliest to be released from school, 3 and a half months of holidays!! yeah..but the bad thing is when you're happy enjoying holidays nobody can company me..=(
anyway, ystday me and a fren was talking and we talked about fearing lonliness. i said i'm not very much afraid of it, coz i just have to learn to accept it, if not i'll just make myself look poor thing and pitiful. i hate it.. i hate it more than the effort to accept being lonely is part and pacel of life. its hard but i will if i'm left alone.
but then i told my fren, now things are different, i have some people who i really cherish now. people i want to walk with them, for all my live. if i lose them, think, hmm..actually i'm not very sure, but what is the ultimate motive of having friends to walk with you in life? definitely not because you are lonely but think one person also cannot be so lonely to the point that nobody wants him/her. but if i lose my dear dear frenz, i will feel like that, the parting itself is more then me left being lonely, its more than many things, coz i lost a friend. He/she might not be my enemy, but the feeling that we're not close anymore is real saddening. you know? its like when me n jiemin parted, the bad feeling knowing we are not so close anymore. but is love really means that? love means we have to be close to that person? i mean even for love for friends.
the bible says
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not selfseeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
(1 corinthians 13:4 - 7)
does that means love does not have expectations? wa..very chim leh..i can't think..haha
but anyway, parting among friends..its just a very heartbreaking event la..thats all i have to say..hehe
i'm ok people dun worry k? i'm still very motivated coz i know God's love NEVER FAILS! and i am learning to accept that we are sinful people in a sinful world. we will disappoint and let down people so do others. yup, but God's love always protects, always trusts, always hope, always perseveres. yup and He never gives up on us so we shouldn't to others too. but think in theory its so easy to say, its easy to expect people to it. but what about doing it ourselves. i can't even accept my own mistakes! i mean i can't forgive myself, but i know God is dealing with me, He wants to take it away, but i just feel that if He takes it away i'll forget about it and there is a high possibility that i will commit that mistake again and it will hurt others again!! oh man!! i just hate the fact others is hurt because of my negligance on my own behaviour. i'm still trying to come to terms with God la..see how we can do it, i'm not sure if i want to involve people at the moment.
ok dun worry people i'm ok..
hear from you guys soon too!!
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
stresss....sssss.......
haiz..........
just finish my test 1 for management accounting..its so confusing!! i'm confused!! last nite i still very happy coz i find that MA is like A level econs,
BUT!! today's test is so difficult and confusing..and now i'm confused..very confused.. haiz..i wonder will i pass
furthermore!! i forgot if i not sure fun write coz got minus 1/4 points if i'm wrong!! ah!! wa...i really can die..
haiz..then i found out my grade point average is super low lo!!! others is like 3.5 but i only 2.7!! ah...
i need to buke up..but the test today........sad
just finish my test 1 for management accounting..its so confusing!! i'm confused!! last nite i still very happy coz i find that MA is like A level econs,
BUT!! today's test is so difficult and confusing..and now i'm confused..very confused.. haiz..i wonder will i pass
furthermore!! i forgot if i not sure fun write coz got minus 1/4 points if i'm wrong!! ah!! wa...i really can die..
haiz..then i found out my grade point average is super low lo!!! others is like 3.5 but i only 2.7!! ah...
i need to buke up..but the test today........sad
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
2nd week of school
hello pple!! thank you so much for your prayers and encouragements!
now things are better but not very much la..
as in haiz..i cannot control my temper esp when mum say abt God, say God teach me the bad ways then i blow up liao
then worst thing is she blame me for not telling her where i go when i told her so many times and esp when i tell her i go church i dun wana say so many time coz she dun like it, and i always get black face when i tell her i'm going to church then everytime she forget i get scolding say i didn't tell her.. -_-"'
hey sorry...gtg..update another day..
now things are better but not very much la..
as in haiz..i cannot control my temper esp when mum say abt God, say God teach me the bad ways then i blow up liao
then worst thing is she blame me for not telling her where i go when i told her so many times and esp when i tell her i go church i dun wana say so many time coz she dun like it, and i always get black face when i tell her i'm going to church then everytime she forget i get scolding say i didn't tell her.. -_-"'
hey sorry...gtg..update another day..
Sunday, December 19, 2004
The worst day in my Christian Life
Boohoohoo..i've become such a cry baby again. :~~~(
Last night, without thinking of my consequences, i told my mum about my faith.
It was terrible for her and for me.
I wasn't thinking right until Ms Tan put some sense into me!!
haiz...the whole story must credit to the devil. He took advantage of the time without the person who has been putting sense into my life and totally blinded me and the people around me to do that act.
After my talk with Ms Tan, i felt so regretful. I shouldn't have told my mum now, i shouldn't want more than what i can do. I wanted to go for church camp. and thinking back, God has already told me that i'm not going, but the people in church keep calling me to go, and that really confused me.
what i need to do to go, first tell my mum about everything, and pray for air tickets. and i rashly and irrationally did it. :(
they made it really seems possible but the fact is no.
Last night went better than i thought. I told my mum over the phone and i'm suppose to go home to continue to talk to her when Ms Tan stopped me.
After she put sense into me, she gave me some guidelines to handle this.
i need to stay unemotinal coz it will be very emotional and the devil will use this to make me feel guilty and secondly, i must prevent from fighting with my mum.
we prayed and i felt that it was a very powerful prayer and Ms Tan send me home.
when i reached home, i purposely press the bell. i want to see if my mum will let me in. She did.
than she brokedown. blah blah blah..
all emotional...
i assure her many things and now i need to be the greatest daughter in the world.
People i need prayers, and i really pray that God will answer them and i really expect God to do something regarding this problem.
I need support.....
I know i'm wrong.....
but i'm glad she knows and i hope she will pull through w/o falling into depression.
Last night, without thinking of my consequences, i told my mum about my faith.
It was terrible for her and for me.
I wasn't thinking right until Ms Tan put some sense into me!!
haiz...the whole story must credit to the devil. He took advantage of the time without the person who has been putting sense into my life and totally blinded me and the people around me to do that act.
After my talk with Ms Tan, i felt so regretful. I shouldn't have told my mum now, i shouldn't want more than what i can do. I wanted to go for church camp. and thinking back, God has already told me that i'm not going, but the people in church keep calling me to go, and that really confused me.
what i need to do to go, first tell my mum about everything, and pray for air tickets. and i rashly and irrationally did it. :(
they made it really seems possible but the fact is no.
Last night went better than i thought. I told my mum over the phone and i'm suppose to go home to continue to talk to her when Ms Tan stopped me.
After she put sense into me, she gave me some guidelines to handle this.
i need to stay unemotinal coz it will be very emotional and the devil will use this to make me feel guilty and secondly, i must prevent from fighting with my mum.
we prayed and i felt that it was a very powerful prayer and Ms Tan send me home.
when i reached home, i purposely press the bell. i want to see if my mum will let me in. She did.
than she brokedown. blah blah blah..
all emotional...
i assure her many things and now i need to be the greatest daughter in the world.
People i need prayers, and i really pray that God will answer them and i really expect God to do something regarding this problem.
I need support.....
I know i'm wrong.....
but i'm glad she knows and i hope she will pull through w/o falling into depression.
Monday, December 13, 2004
Ocean Park Hong Kong
went to ocean park just now!! its fun la. but not as fun as Disneyland and Disneysea. haha. got a lot of combi, got amusement parks, butterfly land, dinosaur park, panda habitat, shark n mix fish tank, cable car, mini race car, amazing amazon, and many more. its fun la not exciting thou. hehe coz i dun dare to sit the exciting rides, i hate the feeling of man in machine and fate is set. hahaha bullshit la, i just dun like the scared-i'll-died feeling hehehehe
Me n sis took public MRT there then change bus. The experience was great!! the MRT route will blink one..aiya difficult to describe but its like Japan's but looks newer. haha didn't really explore coz only took one stop. but the general feeling is good! took train to go HongKong island then from there take bus. WAO!! the bus also look super new!! all aircon, bright colour seats, some with seatbeats too!! the engine was smooth, but heard HongKong's busdrivers are famous for their terror driving but it wasn't as bad as i thought it will be. Had a comfortable trip to Ocean Park.
then reach there went to see see play play, but i dun dare to play scary ones la..then my sis complain i'm a boring person. haha, i'm sorry, i'm like that, i dun like to do things i dun like unless like God's calling or what but so far i'm still avioding haha, so pple, dun take me to escape k..or what downtown east, its a waste of money haha
but i enjoyed the mix fish aquarium! got so many dory inside!! hahaha almost all the fish in finding nemo is there, big ones, small ones, dead ones (saw a dead one), haha naugthy ones (swimming here and there chasing other fishes), lazy ones (lying at the bottom) all have, hahaha love the place man..so many different kinds of fishes, think it has more kinds than sentosa. hehe..
then, hmmm...nothing much..things very ex.
then return taking ferry!!! wa....scenary to nice!! enjoy the wind and everything..HOngKong is really a nice place, i dun mind migrating here.
hehe realised that the place better dun miss pple so much..haha may be a good thing or bad..hahaha..k la..
tomorrow going macau, not to gamble la, dun like, will just look around, shop around..hehe..all your presents haven't finish buying..mum unhappy me n sis keep buying for friends..haiz..its a hard barrier to shop for you all also...haiz..how i wish i'm going holiday with friends..hahaha..k la with mum around also not bad..more money but cannot spend..what a delimma..aiya dun knoe how to spell...haha..
kk go bath then dinner liao..then MORE SHOPPING!!!! wahahahaha
see all of you soon!!bye bye!!
Me n sis took public MRT there then change bus. The experience was great!! the MRT route will blink one..aiya difficult to describe but its like Japan's but looks newer. haha didn't really explore coz only took one stop. but the general feeling is good! took train to go HongKong island then from there take bus. WAO!! the bus also look super new!! all aircon, bright colour seats, some with seatbeats too!! the engine was smooth, but heard HongKong's busdrivers are famous for their terror driving but it wasn't as bad as i thought it will be. Had a comfortable trip to Ocean Park.
then reach there went to see see play play, but i dun dare to play scary ones la..then my sis complain i'm a boring person. haha, i'm sorry, i'm like that, i dun like to do things i dun like unless like God's calling or what but so far i'm still avioding haha, so pple, dun take me to escape k..or what downtown east, its a waste of money haha
but i enjoyed the mix fish aquarium! got so many dory inside!! hahaha almost all the fish in finding nemo is there, big ones, small ones, dead ones (saw a dead one), haha naugthy ones (swimming here and there chasing other fishes), lazy ones (lying at the bottom) all have, hahaha love the place man..so many different kinds of fishes, think it has more kinds than sentosa. hehe..
then, hmmm...nothing much..things very ex.
then return taking ferry!!! wa....scenary to nice!! enjoy the wind and everything..HOngKong is really a nice place, i dun mind migrating here.
hehe realised that the place better dun miss pple so much..haha may be a good thing or bad..hahaha..k la..
tomorrow going macau, not to gamble la, dun like, will just look around, shop around..hehe..all your presents haven't finish buying..mum unhappy me n sis keep buying for friends..haiz..its a hard barrier to shop for you all also...haiz..how i wish i'm going holiday with friends..hahaha..k la with mum around also not bad..more money but cannot spend..what a delimma..aiya dun knoe how to spell...haha..
kk go bath then dinner liao..then MORE SHOPPING!!!! wahahahaha
see all of you soon!!bye bye!!
hong kong is such a nice place!!!
wahahahahahhahahaha....
just went for a one day tour ystday..hongkong is such a nice place!! love the piers, seaside which is breezy and sunny (I WANA GO SENTOSA PLAY VBALL!!!), love the nu ren jie (woman's street) bought a slig bag, a cap for fuquan and...no more..wanted to buy more stuff..but prices qite steep, taiwan cheaper, chop the price still very steep, my bag is like $16 sing dollar, no not diff from bugis village, the hp chains all $2 buck EACH..taiwan can get $.60 each, each fake brand cap is like $11 each, i chop till $7 bucks, still ex le..wana chop till $5 one, but cannot, then wanted to buy a hp key pad for Ms Tan but cannot chop so left..haha but its a nice place la..
ok have to go each breakfast now...hehe going to each tim sum..btw the wanton noodle is so so so nice!! tim sum also nice!!
see ya! i'll be back soon!!
just went for a one day tour ystday..hongkong is such a nice place!! love the piers, seaside which is breezy and sunny (I WANA GO SENTOSA PLAY VBALL!!!), love the nu ren jie (woman's street) bought a slig bag, a cap for fuquan and...no more..wanted to buy more stuff..but prices qite steep, taiwan cheaper, chop the price still very steep, my bag is like $16 sing dollar, no not diff from bugis village, the hp chains all $2 buck EACH..taiwan can get $.60 each, each fake brand cap is like $11 each, i chop till $7 bucks, still ex le..wana chop till $5 one, but cannot, then wanted to buy a hp key pad for Ms Tan but cannot chop so left..haha but its a nice place la..
ok have to go each breakfast now...hehe going to each tim sum..btw the wanton noodle is so so so nice!! tim sum also nice!!
see ya! i'll be back soon!!
Saturday, December 11, 2004
just finish my taiwan trip
wa lao....i miss home man....
i'm homesick.......
i hate it........ :~~~~~(
i'm now in hongkong, just flew here today.
Taiwan was, ok la..will not say its super fun, or fun...not at all...havse been visiting temples, more temples and even TEMPLE PARKS!!!! wa kaoz.....spiritual attack strong, ALMOST LOST MY FAITH. it was really that serious. the presences there is really strong, there is so so so so so so many pagan worshippers and i'm like GOING MAD!!! THANK GOD HE's with me..otherwise i will lose everything man, because i lost Him. haiz..it is really that serious..
haiz..you all got miss me or not..i miss you all so much le..got visit my blog and wait for me to post of not?? hahaha
my sis accidentally deleted all the photos..only left the last day's photos..so too bad if u miss my face k..hahaha
the scenary is really nice, didn't really buy a lot of stuff, the prices like same as singapore, some even more ex..sian...but i really hope i've got enough things for all of you..
anyway, i've grown fatter!!
Taiwan EVERYWHERE GOT FOOD!! all the road side food..SO NICE!! eat so much things..every meal eat till full...my table small but food alot everything push to me n my sis, eat till we siao, but its nice la..
then we eat, take long bus rides to scenic places so sleep..then everyday eat sleep eat sleep..sure fat..treated like queen here..hahahaha
but i miss you all leh..
wa in taiwan like monkey in a small cage..no hp, no internet, no communications to the outside world, can die..at least now got internet!! I HAPPY TILL SIAO NOW MAN..at pacific cafe, got free internet.
anyway, i really tired of everything, too long holiday, miss singapore so badly, i mean the people.
throughout this trip, God taught me a lot, i thought a lot about my life, the people who came and went, my charactor, my relationship with God and other people and my identity.
haiz ok la..i so sian..i wana go home.....
hope u all dun miss me too much k..
haha see ya on coming WEEK!!
i'll be back on wed...can't wait till then...
enjoy your holiadys guys...
bye bye
BTW!! dun forget to update me the christmas thing k!!
i'm homesick.......
i hate it........ :~~~~~(
i'm now in hongkong, just flew here today.
Taiwan was, ok la..will not say its super fun, or fun...not at all...havse been visiting temples, more temples and even TEMPLE PARKS!!!! wa kaoz.....spiritual attack strong, ALMOST LOST MY FAITH. it was really that serious. the presences there is really strong, there is so so so so so so many pagan worshippers and i'm like GOING MAD!!! THANK GOD HE's with me..otherwise i will lose everything man, because i lost Him. haiz..it is really that serious..
haiz..you all got miss me or not..i miss you all so much le..got visit my blog and wait for me to post of not?? hahaha
my sis accidentally deleted all the photos..only left the last day's photos..so too bad if u miss my face k..hahaha
the scenary is really nice, didn't really buy a lot of stuff, the prices like same as singapore, some even more ex..sian...but i really hope i've got enough things for all of you..
anyway, i've grown fatter!!
Taiwan EVERYWHERE GOT FOOD!! all the road side food..SO NICE!! eat so much things..every meal eat till full...my table small but food alot everything push to me n my sis, eat till we siao, but its nice la..
then we eat, take long bus rides to scenic places so sleep..then everyday eat sleep eat sleep..sure fat..treated like queen here..hahahaha
but i miss you all leh..
wa in taiwan like monkey in a small cage..no hp, no internet, no communications to the outside world, can die..at least now got internet!! I HAPPY TILL SIAO NOW MAN..at pacific cafe, got free internet.
anyway, i really tired of everything, too long holiday, miss singapore so badly, i mean the people.
throughout this trip, God taught me a lot, i thought a lot about my life, the people who came and went, my charactor, my relationship with God and other people and my identity.
haiz ok la..i so sian..i wana go home.....
hope u all dun miss me too much k..
haha see ya on coming WEEK!!
i'll be back on wed...can't wait till then...
enjoy your holiadys guys...
bye bye
BTW!! dun forget to update me the christmas thing k!!
Friday, November 19, 2004
This scene i've seen it the 3rd time now..
noise, cheers, laughter, many many different colour uniforms, many maze, many chao ta faces...
Today is the last day of 30th band NCO camp.
This scence is so familiar, i've gone through it once, saw my dearest junior gone through once, now its at my school.
remembering it 4 years ago, it was a eye opener for me. I saw so many people holding the same positions as me, holding on the the glory of our whole band--the maze, marching with honour on the SAF air base. We were taught by the SPF band heads. They were strict but it was like my usual band drill practise because i was under strict management, Han Ching..haha But the conditions were so bad..under the hot sun for the whole day, short breaks. However the good thing about them was they treat us with honour, they will not pin point any of us or make us do push up like dogs. I like that treatment..hahaha
This happened at the my hardest heart break. i went with no expectations, but God gave me the best thing i could ever have at that point of time. A good friend. A wonderful girl. Peiwei. She was always there for me, although it means sacrificing some of her frenz at the camp. we were always together. She introduced other campmates to me, we laugh together like nobody's business, we ran together in rain, we quene up for food together, we make fun of each other like no one else was there. We just had so much fun like no body else was there.
We were best of friends, for the first time in my life, i had such a close girlfriend.
aiyo to be continue..have to go eat liao..haiz..i think i'm too lac le..i think i have to be more serious about this final term exam..haiz..jiayou ba.. see u all soon
Today is the last day of 30th band NCO camp.
This scence is so familiar, i've gone through it once, saw my dearest junior gone through once, now its at my school.
remembering it 4 years ago, it was a eye opener for me. I saw so many people holding the same positions as me, holding on the the glory of our whole band--the maze, marching with honour on the SAF air base. We were taught by the SPF band heads. They were strict but it was like my usual band drill practise because i was under strict management, Han Ching..haha But the conditions were so bad..under the hot sun for the whole day, short breaks. However the good thing about them was they treat us with honour, they will not pin point any of us or make us do push up like dogs. I like that treatment..hahaha
This happened at the my hardest heart break. i went with no expectations, but God gave me the best thing i could ever have at that point of time. A good friend. A wonderful girl. Peiwei. She was always there for me, although it means sacrificing some of her frenz at the camp. we were always together. She introduced other campmates to me, we laugh together like nobody's business, we ran together in rain, we quene up for food together, we make fun of each other like no one else was there. We just had so much fun like no body else was there.
We were best of friends, for the first time in my life, i had such a close girlfriend.
aiyo to be continue..have to go eat liao..haiz..i think i'm too lac le..i think i have to be more serious about this final term exam..haiz..jiayou ba.. see u all soon
exams are coming!!!
wahahaha..exams are coming..this time i'm not organised at all..i want to trust God, coz God said before not to worry..so i'm doing my best everyday..so far so good..but i think i need more practise..jiayou ba!!
quite lac..hehehe..only got 2 papers can't wait for it to be over!!
Haiz..now wed bible studies stop for 2 weeks..so sian..its ok la..after my exams i want to read my books!! got so many book haven't read!!
think i'm going borders, drink coffee, read book..wa..."heaven"..haha
must save $$$ then can go drink coffee, read book..hehehe
ok la i go back study liao!! everybody jiayou and enjoy!!
quite lac..hehehe..only got 2 papers can't wait for it to be over!!
Haiz..now wed bible studies stop for 2 weeks..so sian..its ok la..after my exams i want to read my books!! got so many book haven't read!!
think i'm going borders, drink coffee, read book..wa..."heaven"..haha
must save $$$ then can go drink coffee, read book..hehehe
ok la i go back study liao!! everybody jiayou and enjoy!!
Friday, November 12, 2004
My Years
Years passes so so fast..
from sec 1
- friendship problems
to Sec 2:
- knowing the importance of studying
- losing my most percious big fat band senior,
to Sec 3
- knowing my passion for netball
- more commited to band
- my first real relationship, which left me broken and weak, and also
- knowing my first best friend who is closest to my heart (peiwei)who picked me up after my relationship,
to sec 4
- realising my talent in running
- carrying the weight of band
- enjoyed my last year in outram very very much
- Becoming more out spoken
- bondage with friend and teachers increased
- bug the teachers the whole day just to get them to explain the ten years series question
- gave up netball
- regret losing Peiwei
- learnt the commitment in BGR
To JC Year 1:
- Getting over my efforts in Outram and getting ready for JC life
- Pia like hell for F Maths but it doesn't seem enough
- Got to know many nice friends like Alicia, Liting, Wai Ping, Cheng ling, Xiang Xiang, Leemei, Xiao pang, Luo Qi
- Made efforts to meet up with Sec school friends, realising how much i miss them
- Learnt to deal with Ms Tie in Econs club
- try to understand friends
To JC Year 2:
- Stress like hell
- Pia even harder for F maths
- Get to go through thick and thin with my JC friends
- Learn to bond with them intellectually through observing and they really know me well and i am not sure if i know them well too
- trying to conquer A Levels
To Post JC year (This year):
- got in touch with Ms Tan
- Had a lot of problems in my working life
- Proclaim that I am a sinner and Low in spirit
- I want to have a need to have God in my life
- Got to know Christ
- Got know the Glory, power, mercy, love of Christ
This year is not over yet..and i'm having a expectant heart towards God..and i know God will fill me.
Life is all about decisions, God will not force you to decide, because He loves you. GOd's love is so misterious, So warm, So wei da, so qi miao..there's no adjective that can discribe it..i can only say that u have to exprience it yourself.
Its never easy to exprience God..but if what i am expriencing i real, its very very real, then the other else is sure fake, the lies of the devil. IF ANYONE OF YOU EXPRIENCE IT BEFORE, I pray, I pray you will not harden your heart. BeCAUSE WHAT YOU EXPRIENCE IS REAL, the feelings are real,
GOD IS REAL;
JESUS IS REAL
He has done everything, He has shown u the way, What are you waiting for?
Seeing Arafat die, i know the middle east will be very very chaotic, and there will be many pple wanting peace, and like what the bible says, an antichrist will arise to ensure peace in isreal and rebuild the temple of God again. and the rapture will come, and the earth will exprience many disasters..The end days are really coming..I really pray really really pray that all of you will see God, Stop believing in yourself, but God..He will save you if you chose Him, other than that, nothing He can do to save you..
Please...listen...
i'm just very sad lo..that i see how much God loves His pple and so much wanting to save them but they choose the oposite if He is REAL, Others is fake for God said He will not give His glory to another. Only Him..
what i can say is only this much, whether you read or not, whether u believe or not, its up to u..because i know i can only plant the seed and water it. Whether it grows, its on God. I will pray..and i really urge u to take the first step to God, He will do the rest, trust me..TRUST HIM.. GOD BLESS
from sec 1
- friendship problems
to Sec 2:
- knowing the importance of studying
- losing my most percious big fat band senior,
to Sec 3
- knowing my passion for netball
- more commited to band
- my first real relationship, which left me broken and weak, and also
- knowing my first best friend who is closest to my heart (peiwei)who picked me up after my relationship,
to sec 4
- realising my talent in running
- carrying the weight of band
- enjoyed my last year in outram very very much
- Becoming more out spoken
- bondage with friend and teachers increased
- bug the teachers the whole day just to get them to explain the ten years series question
- gave up netball
- regret losing Peiwei
- learnt the commitment in BGR
To JC Year 1:
- Getting over my efforts in Outram and getting ready for JC life
- Pia like hell for F Maths but it doesn't seem enough
- Got to know many nice friends like Alicia, Liting, Wai Ping, Cheng ling, Xiang Xiang, Leemei, Xiao pang, Luo Qi
- Made efforts to meet up with Sec school friends, realising how much i miss them
- Learnt to deal with Ms Tie in Econs club
- try to understand friends
To JC Year 2:
- Stress like hell
- Pia even harder for F maths
- Get to go through thick and thin with my JC friends
- Learn to bond with them intellectually through observing and they really know me well and i am not sure if i know them well too
- trying to conquer A Levels
To Post JC year (This year):
- got in touch with Ms Tan
- Had a lot of problems in my working life
- Proclaim that I am a sinner and Low in spirit
- I want to have a need to have God in my life
- Got to know Christ
- Got know the Glory, power, mercy, love of Christ
This year is not over yet..and i'm having a expectant heart towards God..and i know God will fill me.
Life is all about decisions, God will not force you to decide, because He loves you. GOd's love is so misterious, So warm, So wei da, so qi miao..there's no adjective that can discribe it..i can only say that u have to exprience it yourself.
Its never easy to exprience God..but if what i am expriencing i real, its very very real, then the other else is sure fake, the lies of the devil. IF ANYONE OF YOU EXPRIENCE IT BEFORE, I pray, I pray you will not harden your heart. BeCAUSE WHAT YOU EXPRIENCE IS REAL, the feelings are real,
GOD IS REAL;
JESUS IS REAL
He has done everything, He has shown u the way, What are you waiting for?
Seeing Arafat die, i know the middle east will be very very chaotic, and there will be many pple wanting peace, and like what the bible says, an antichrist will arise to ensure peace in isreal and rebuild the temple of God again. and the rapture will come, and the earth will exprience many disasters..The end days are really coming..I really pray really really pray that all of you will see God, Stop believing in yourself, but God..He will save you if you chose Him, other than that, nothing He can do to save you..
Please...listen...
i'm just very sad lo..that i see how much God loves His pple and so much wanting to save them but they choose the oposite if He is REAL, Others is fake for God said He will not give His glory to another. Only Him..
what i can say is only this much, whether you read or not, whether u believe or not, its up to u..because i know i can only plant the seed and water it. Whether it grows, its on God. I will pray..and i really urge u to take the first step to God, He will do the rest, trust me..TRUST HIM.. GOD BLESS
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
What are friends for?
F.R.I.E.N.D.S
Its like a team, individual alphabets does not make sense, but putting it together, it means: Love, Laughter, Care, Hope, Encouragement, Strength and Fun. And many many more (but my vocab limited sorry..)
Like people, when we're alone, we cannot do as much, but with FRIENDS, together we fall, together we rise.. when we are together, 1 + 1 = more than 2 that is what friends can achieve..
But what if we fall out?
Hurt, Loneliness, hardship, sadness...
where 1 = 1.
In the working world,
when all of us grow older, in like 5 yrs time,
when all our dreams, careers are building, when all of us are too busy to meet each other, where our dreams are different, our career paths are different, our goal are different, when others got our own partners,
What will happen? We are no longer a team, no longer have a common goal (e.g. O levels / A levels)
We will split, Everthing is only left, me n God...no others..its sad, but thats the reality..
So cherish what you have now
Its like a team, individual alphabets does not make sense, but putting it together, it means: Love, Laughter, Care, Hope, Encouragement, Strength and Fun. And many many more (but my vocab limited sorry..)
Like people, when we're alone, we cannot do as much, but with FRIENDS, together we fall, together we rise.. when we are together, 1 + 1 = more than 2 that is what friends can achieve..
But what if we fall out?
Hurt, Loneliness, hardship, sadness...
where 1 = 1.
In the working world,
when all of us grow older, in like 5 yrs time,
when all our dreams, careers are building, when all of us are too busy to meet each other, where our dreams are different, our career paths are different, our goal are different, when others got our own partners,
What will happen? We are no longer a team, no longer have a common goal (e.g. O levels / A levels)
We will split, Everthing is only left, me n God...no others..its sad, but thats the reality..
So cherish what you have now
Friday, November 05, 2004
How's my new skin?
Hehehehe..nice eh.. love the sliding bears all th pic so cute and colourful..hehehe..just went to read Grace's blog..Ms Tan really made a great impact in her life. Thinking of Ms Tan, now she's very busy, we don't really talk on the phone, don't really go out. I really hope its just a season, after this season she'll be more free..after her UWC started she has been very very very tired..even talk also dont really have strength. So sad right, Kinda miss the times we had so much fun suaning each other and just having fun. I really really hope those times will never change.
Thank God..i couldn't have said that..
Anyway..Peg's exam is over i really hope she did well and come to church again.
Ching and V Jiayou!!
Janice!!! SUPER SUPER DUPER JIAYOU!!!
MehMeh as dead as me la but i still hope she'll be better
All my classmates all doing well i can see..i hope they will continue to excel! ESP Janis and Minsheng
I'm leading worship next week again i chose You rescued me..wa lao its so difficult to sing!! i cannot reach the notes!! ah..GOd help me if it really is what you want me to lead..
Now at home my parents some kinda forgot their quarrel, i'm very relieved..
Now everything seems to be good again
But i hope Jason and Hock Kee will be strengthen too
Ystday got to talk to Winnie and i slot a lot of bible verses..Really Thank God!! I felt that God is really grabbing every opportunity to guide her and love her. Your Will be done Lord. Amen
Went to Eileen for advises last sat, she really gives good advises..hahaha PRAY!! hahaha i didn't thought of that until she told me..i really Thank God for that!!
Now my life is more on school work and my quiet time with God..Not so much of people all over me liao..I'm glad and i know God is teaching me something..
Hey i just wana tell you all, For God is good, His plans are good. We might not see how good they are but God see the big picture..and its a good Big picture..
After knowing God, I really felt a lot of difference. I did many things that i couldn't do, just like that..its really God lo..After this experience i really cannot deny that God is not there..I can't deny the truth, because the truth has set me free...
"I want to love You Lord..Teach me how to please You, Teach me how to obey You, Teach me how to be more Chirst-like"
"You are more faithful, You are more loving, You are more persistent, You are more powerful, You are my God and i'm so proud of You"
"Come to the Father, though your gift is small.
Broken Hears, Broken lives, He will take them all.
The Power of the Word, the Power of His blood,
Everything was done so you would come"
Thank God..i couldn't have said that..
Anyway..Peg's exam is over i really hope she did well and come to church again.
Ching and V Jiayou!!
Janice!!! SUPER SUPER DUPER JIAYOU!!!
MehMeh as dead as me la but i still hope she'll be better
All my classmates all doing well i can see..i hope they will continue to excel! ESP Janis and Minsheng
I'm leading worship next week again i chose You rescued me..wa lao its so difficult to sing!! i cannot reach the notes!! ah..GOd help me if it really is what you want me to lead..
Now at home my parents some kinda forgot their quarrel, i'm very relieved..
Now everything seems to be good again
But i hope Jason and Hock Kee will be strengthen too
Ystday got to talk to Winnie and i slot a lot of bible verses..Really Thank God!! I felt that God is really grabbing every opportunity to guide her and love her. Your Will be done Lord. Amen
Went to Eileen for advises last sat, she really gives good advises..hahaha PRAY!! hahaha i didn't thought of that until she told me..i really Thank God for that!!
Now my life is more on school work and my quiet time with God..Not so much of people all over me liao..I'm glad and i know God is teaching me something..
Hey i just wana tell you all, For God is good, His plans are good. We might not see how good they are but God see the big picture..and its a good Big picture..
After knowing God, I really felt a lot of difference. I did many things that i couldn't do, just like that..its really God lo..After this experience i really cannot deny that God is not there..I can't deny the truth, because the truth has set me free...
"I want to love You Lord..Teach me how to please You, Teach me how to obey You, Teach me how to be more Chirst-like"
"You are more faithful, You are more loving, You are more persistent, You are more powerful, You are my God and i'm so proud of You"
"Come to the Father, though your gift is small.
Broken Hears, Broken lives, He will take them all.
The Power of the Word, the Power of His blood,
Everything was done so you would come"
i'm going to chang blogskin
wa lao......i'm going to change blogskin again..this stupid blogskin keep giving me problems.....
Monday, November 01, 2004
Over Night in school
wa...shag...
ystday over night in school
was waiting for my presentation script to come out then meanwhile we all do all our stuff..i did my FA homework la but i think its super effective le!! i usually take days but in that few hours i can do it liao..
ystday over night in school
was waiting for my presentation script to come out then meanwhile we all do all our stuff..i did my FA homework la but i think its super effective le!! i usually take days but in that few hours i can do it liao..
Saturday, October 30, 2004
now i know y i can write so long blogs
haha now that i'm more busy i cannot really write long blogs...so now i know that y liwei they all's blog entry so short..y mine so long..haha..coz they're too busy to update..like now...i'm so so busy just finished my camp and now doing my presentation on the whole CSP project which is due next tuesday!! so rush man!!
Anyway very busy, next few weeks all got presentation and stuff..wa cham ah...holiday faster come....
Anyway very busy, next few weeks all got presentation and stuff..wa cham ah...holiday faster come....
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
I'm feeling better
Hey..my Individual presentation was very very bad but i really thank God its over. Hock Kee consoled me a little..Actually i was not used to the way he lead pple and i told Ms Tan if he do that to me again face to face i'll speak my mind.. but these days after we plan to sponser Zhou Jie.. We were encouraging each other and sharing the lessons we learnt through our walk with God.. meanwhile Jason is entertaining Ai Ping..newcomer in church..Ms Tan's Track n field student.. Haven't really talked to her.. don't wana be like Hui Yun like that so despo to talk to new comers..haha ok la i very bad..i'm still learning how to deal with this kinda pple..haiz..life is full of up and down..but if its for God its more than worthy..coz i know God is always with me with i'm suffing.. =)
Me n Ms Tan are ok liao..hehe..today she's coming down for coaching TP again..i don't know wana go down or not...
firstly is what happened last week and
Secondly i got meeting anyway..but i think the meeting should end before they finish and
Lastly i haven't do my FA homework..but i do liao i also don't know how to hand in coz i'm not coming to school till next monday..haiz..i also don't know..
see how later
but i'm feeling better and i'm trying to not reply on my emotions..bcoz its very unhealthy...haiz..
we're still learning..hehe
Jiayou everybody for your exams!!
Jiayou for those who's deadlines are coming!! (like me)
and EnJOY THOSE WHO ARE HAVING HOLIDAYS!!
hehehe
Me n Ms Tan are ok liao..hehe..today she's coming down for coaching TP again..i don't know wana go down or not...
firstly is what happened last week and
Secondly i got meeting anyway..but i think the meeting should end before they finish and
Lastly i haven't do my FA homework..but i do liao i also don't know how to hand in coz i'm not coming to school till next monday..haiz..i also don't know..
see how later
but i'm feeling better and i'm trying to not reply on my emotions..bcoz its very unhealthy...haiz..
we're still learning..hehe
Jiayou everybody for your exams!!
Jiayou for those who's deadlines are coming!! (like me)
and EnJOY THOSE WHO ARE HAVING HOLIDAYS!!
hehehe
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
long time no blog
wao lao...now whats wrong with my bears.......
irritating le..now the chatter box is back to normal my bears all run away from home...bears..come back...i need you
have been super busy with my midterm test
my fiancial accounting so bad only got
51.5/100
22nd percentile
cham...
my stats still ok
45/100
don know what percentile but its below the 50th percentile..sian...
haiz..then i'm in the valley once again...
i knew i was distracted but i couldn't help it..
then i became too busy and i did not read the bible and stuff..
i told God i can't then i got a sign about "God will fins time for you to do His will" then ok la i read the bible but i didn't pray a lot on my own
I can't help it and i try ways and mean to have desire for God but....
anyway i fell...
many things were happening around me, my friends, my family, the circle and place i was in a person's heart was shaken (at least i felt that)..
i questioned my faith..i say i can't feel God..
had a lot of sessions with Ms Tan. She say when we try to get closer to God, the more difficult it will get because of the devil and the spiritual warfare but just remember His blessings that he poured out to you, count your blessings instead of your trails and tribulations...and remember that God is with u..when you need care and love he is always there..like even our earthly parents want to give us good gifts what more about our heavenly father?
but it didn't help much..i can say now that i'm still very emotional n i claim that i don't know the feeling of getting touched by God..i'm not if i did..but i would really wana know the feeling lo..
last sunday the pastor's brother came to preach, he preached about desire and thirst..he said this thing that really struck me..if you haven't been crying for God..haven't been touched for a long time, reflect on your hunger and thirst for God..it might be because of your faith that you are not being touched by God..
my eyes were opened..but i still don't know how about doing it..
then a few days later Ms Tan just briefly mentioned about reading the bible and praying..so i'll do my part and leave the rest to God..
then i felt that because of my fall, i disappointed Ms Tan..and i felt that our relationship (NOT BGR) was getting more and more far away...then came Ai Ping..i don't know..the circle of friends because of a new comer, the old ones get neglected..that was what i felt la..i mean its human nature la..come on..i don't blame any one..i just hope that i don't feel left out..
then ystday they came to train at SMU..i went down after my presentation (which went quite well) ai yo..got to do my homework..brb
ok i'm back..now is during financial accounting lesson..got presentation..sian..haha
ok anyway..i had a quarrel with Ms Tan last nite..i didn't have a quarrel for a long long time..but i was quite angry but i don't want our relationship to end up like me and peiwei's relationship..
But as she was explaining, i can't forgive..i don't know y then i was forced to say out my reasons y i was angry and walked away without telling her or asking for any reasons..haiz..anyway she like dun know call me how many times..i offed my phone bcoz i didn't want to answer her questions..aiyo have to go church for BS liao...
leading worship later..wish me luck..bye bye
irritating le..now the chatter box is back to normal my bears all run away from home...bears..come back...i need you
have been super busy with my midterm test
my fiancial accounting so bad only got
51.5/100
22nd percentile
cham...
my stats still ok
45/100
don know what percentile but its below the 50th percentile..sian...
haiz..then i'm in the valley once again...
i knew i was distracted but i couldn't help it..
then i became too busy and i did not read the bible and stuff..
i told God i can't then i got a sign about "God will fins time for you to do His will" then ok la i read the bible but i didn't pray a lot on my own
I can't help it and i try ways and mean to have desire for God but....
anyway i fell...
many things were happening around me, my friends, my family, the circle and place i was in a person's heart was shaken (at least i felt that)..
i questioned my faith..i say i can't feel God..
had a lot of sessions with Ms Tan. She say when we try to get closer to God, the more difficult it will get because of the devil and the spiritual warfare but just remember His blessings that he poured out to you, count your blessings instead of your trails and tribulations...and remember that God is with u..when you need care and love he is always there..like even our earthly parents want to give us good gifts what more about our heavenly father?
but it didn't help much..i can say now that i'm still very emotional n i claim that i don't know the feeling of getting touched by God..i'm not if i did..but i would really wana know the feeling lo..
last sunday the pastor's brother came to preach, he preached about desire and thirst..he said this thing that really struck me..if you haven't been crying for God..haven't been touched for a long time, reflect on your hunger and thirst for God..it might be because of your faith that you are not being touched by God..
my eyes were opened..but i still don't know how about doing it..
then a few days later Ms Tan just briefly mentioned about reading the bible and praying..so i'll do my part and leave the rest to God..
then i felt that because of my fall, i disappointed Ms Tan..and i felt that our relationship (NOT BGR) was getting more and more far away...then came Ai Ping..i don't know..the circle of friends because of a new comer, the old ones get neglected..that was what i felt la..i mean its human nature la..come on..i don't blame any one..i just hope that i don't feel left out..
then ystday they came to train at SMU..i went down after my presentation (which went quite well) ai yo..got to do my homework..brb
ok i'm back..now is during financial accounting lesson..got presentation..sian..haha
ok anyway..i had a quarrel with Ms Tan last nite..i didn't have a quarrel for a long long time..but i was quite angry but i don't want our relationship to end up like me and peiwei's relationship..
But as she was explaining, i can't forgive..i don't know y then i was forced to say out my reasons y i was angry and walked away without telling her or asking for any reasons..haiz..anyway she like dun know call me how many times..i offed my phone bcoz i didn't want to answer her questions..aiyo have to go church for BS liao...
leading worship later..wish me luck..bye bye
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
busy busy busy
wao..want to know my past week? let me tell you.
Monday, Financial Accounting (FA) meeting n keyboard lesson.
Tuesday, whole day class n LTB meeting n FA homework
Wednesday, Study Bible Studies test n bible studies test
Thursday, Study for FA mid term exam
Friday, Car wash fund raising for LTB project
Saturday, FA mid term exam n LTB meeting n nite bike till sunday morning
Sunday, after nite nike, church service, Preaching class, Go hospital see church fren
wao...shiok man
i was praying that i will be attentive during church coz after the whole night of night bike i might not be survive church..
and i did!! my nite bike was from 1030pm to 7am
From SMU to
clementi -- the hills was killing
Nus -- after the hills got lost, extra meters cycled
West Coast Park -- play game,my group gave up..too tired
Esplanade -- went crazy, too tired till crazy, sang david tao song all around while playing game
Mustafa -- dead..but was in front, frenz encouraged me to go on
Paya lebar -- numb..am i cycling? i can't feel my limbs, but i'm still panting..(got lost twice here)
East Coast Park -- jia you jia you!! reaching! reaching!! ... y still haven't reach... am i there yet? no? hiaz...
Finally reached ECP after Travel">traveling north, west then east over 50KM!!!!!
dead...
then went to eat MAC breakfast, fell asleep when muffin was entering my mouth..hahahaha..its s very funny position to fall aslp but the sleeping feeling was great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha..then slpt on the bus home, then reach home sleeo around 1.5 hrs then go church, was late..haha but lucky service started late too..
then i was normal and attentive, lucky preaching was short, did not fall asleep AT ALL!!! then eat then preaching class..DID NOT FALL ASLP TOO!!!
then went to see a church fren Jack at NUH with Ms Tan, Hock kee, Jason and Louis..
till around 9 pm..I DID NOT SLEEP AT ALL LE!!!
I'm so PROUND OF MYSELF!!! WAHAHHAHA
THANK THE GREAT GOOD LORD!! remember my little prayer? He remembered and gave me all the strength i need!!!!!
i really cannot deny that there is no God in this world and this God is not Jesus! remembering my day when i worship my ancesters and idois, What a different feeling!! its a RELATIONSHIP with God. If others are real, y can't they satisfy my spirit? y do i not feel joyous like now? Y do i have super natural strength? and most importantly, Y do I LOVE? not in BGR case..i'm not that swallow..LOVE as in LOVing everybody, bcoz I know my God LOVES all, So i should do so too..and He has helped me alot.. to LOVE EVEYRYBODY as well As HIM WHO LOVES US.
He met me off track, and walk the difficult path with me back on track. Giving me strength, love and Purpose.
Thank you Lord, Love YOU!
Teach me, bend me as long as it is according to Your will.
Monday, Financial Accounting (FA) meeting n keyboard lesson.
Tuesday, whole day class n LTB meeting n FA homework
Wednesday, Study Bible Studies test n bible studies test
Thursday, Study for FA mid term exam
Friday, Car wash fund raising for LTB project
Saturday, FA mid term exam n LTB meeting n nite bike till sunday morning
Sunday, after nite nike, church service, Preaching class, Go hospital see church fren
wao...shiok man
i was praying that i will be attentive during church coz after the whole night of night bike i might not be survive church..
and i did!! my nite bike was from 1030pm to 7am
From SMU to
clementi -- the hills was killing
Nus -- after the hills got lost, extra meters cycled
West Coast Park -- play game,my group gave up..too tired
Esplanade -- went crazy, too tired till crazy, sang david tao song all around while playing game
Mustafa -- dead..but was in front, frenz encouraged me to go on
Paya lebar -- numb..am i cycling? i can't feel my limbs, but i'm still panting..(got lost twice here)
East Coast Park -- jia you jia you!! reaching! reaching!! ... y still haven't reach... am i there yet? no? hiaz...
Finally reached ECP after Travel">traveling north, west then east over 50KM!!!!!
dead...
then went to eat MAC breakfast, fell asleep when muffin was entering my mouth..hahahaha..its s very funny position to fall aslp but the sleeping feeling was great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha..then slpt on the bus home, then reach home sleeo around 1.5 hrs then go church, was late..haha but lucky service started late too..
then i was normal and attentive, lucky preaching was short, did not fall asleep AT ALL!!! then eat then preaching class..DID NOT FALL ASLP TOO!!!
then went to see a church fren Jack at NUH with Ms Tan, Hock kee, Jason and Louis..
till around 9 pm..I DID NOT SLEEP AT ALL LE!!!
I'm so PROUND OF MYSELF!!! WAHAHHAHA
THANK THE GREAT GOOD LORD!! remember my little prayer? He remembered and gave me all the strength i need!!!!!
i really cannot deny that there is no God in this world and this God is not Jesus! remembering my day when i worship my ancesters and idois, What a different feeling!! its a RELATIONSHIP with God. If others are real, y can't they satisfy my spirit? y do i not feel joyous like now? Y do i have super natural strength? and most importantly, Y do I LOVE? not in BGR case..i'm not that swallow..LOVE as in LOVing everybody, bcoz I know my God LOVES all, So i should do so too..and He has helped me alot.. to LOVE EVEYRYBODY as well As HIM WHO LOVES US.
He met me off track, and walk the difficult path with me back on track. Giving me strength, love and Purpose.
Thank you Lord, Love YOU!
Teach me, bend me as long as it is according to Your will.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
my blog song
hey hey!!
I was not aware that my blog song is "when you believe" a song i loved very much from the cartoon prince of egypt. this song always sparks me up when i'm down
and you know what? currently i'm not very down because i still have much faith in God. however, God put me in SMU for a reason. its not for me to Boast in my strength where i always like to be in a leadership position. It is for me to boast in my WEAKNESS. I got the hint that God put me there to test my faith. I want to know my Faith level too and i want to run this race with God. i have been having alot of encouragement these days as i surrender to God my weakness. i know i still got faith but i was falling asleep when i was perviewing my blog when i heard this song:
Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could[wwoowwyes]
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe
Mmmyeah
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer bird
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My hearts so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill (Mmm)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe
[Hey]
[Ooh]
They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see the way, get through the rain
A small but still, resilient voice
Says hope is very near, oh [Oh]There can be miracles (Miracles)
When you believe (when you believe, yeah) [Though hope is frail]
Though hope is frail [It's hard]
It's hard to kill (Hard to kill, oh, yeah)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve, oh)
When you believe somehow you will (Somehow, somehow, somehow)
Somehow you will (I know, I know, know)
You will when you believe [When you]
(Ohoh)
[You will when you]
(You will when you believe)
[Oohoohooh]
[Oh...oh]
[You will When you believe]
[You will When you believe]
i got a revelation that God is there lo..Just keep on believing..if you keep on believing, praying although you feel like you're praying to the wall, By your faith, God may grant you miracles, you can't achieve it..thats the part of the song that i disagree..but Faith is a big Word, which can move mountains...
So when God is putting you to a test..He encourages you also!!
Do you know why God wants to put us through test and trails?
Its not because He wants to test us. God already knows every thing about us! Why does He needs to test us. So i got to this conclusion that, Trails or tests are meant to SHOW TO US something. e.g. our faith level, Our persistence in Christ etc. And all these things that we learn from our tests helps us to grow, help us to know more about ourselves. And so looking at the big picture, these are also events that builds us up, strengthen us, sharpen us. Amen? praise the Good Lord for the revelations!!!
And after knowing this, I also know that God wants us to start from the bottom. When we fail, we will work harder, learn more effectively. So i'm also holding onto this when i fail i tell myself God wants me to do better and God wants me to be humble by starting from the bottom.
so pple JIAYOU!! He knows all our thoughts and action. He is always there! and He will hold you when you fall, love you no matter what you have done. It is time to PLEASE HIM!!
I was not aware that my blog song is "when you believe" a song i loved very much from the cartoon prince of egypt. this song always sparks me up when i'm down
and you know what? currently i'm not very down because i still have much faith in God. however, God put me in SMU for a reason. its not for me to Boast in my strength where i always like to be in a leadership position. It is for me to boast in my WEAKNESS. I got the hint that God put me there to test my faith. I want to know my Faith level too and i want to run this race with God. i have been having alot of encouragement these days as i surrender to God my weakness. i know i still got faith but i was falling asleep when i was perviewing my blog when i heard this song:
Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could[wwoowwyes]
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe
Mmmyeah
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer bird
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My hearts so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill (Mmm)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe
[Hey]
[Ooh]
They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see the way, get through the rain
A small but still, resilient voice
Says hope is very near, oh [Oh]There can be miracles (Miracles)
When you believe (when you believe, yeah) [Though hope is frail]
Though hope is frail [It's hard]
It's hard to kill (Hard to kill, oh, yeah)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve, oh)
When you believe somehow you will (Somehow, somehow, somehow)
Somehow you will (I know, I know, know)
You will when you believe [When you]
(Ohoh)
[You will when you]
(You will when you believe)
[Oohoohooh]
[Oh...oh]
[You will When you believe]
[You will When you believe]
i got a revelation that God is there lo..Just keep on believing..if you keep on believing, praying although you feel like you're praying to the wall, By your faith, God may grant you miracles, you can't achieve it..thats the part of the song that i disagree..but Faith is a big Word, which can move mountains...
So when God is putting you to a test..He encourages you also!!
Do you know why God wants to put us through test and trails?
Its not because He wants to test us. God already knows every thing about us! Why does He needs to test us. So i got to this conclusion that, Trails or tests are meant to SHOW TO US something. e.g. our faith level, Our persistence in Christ etc. And all these things that we learn from our tests helps us to grow, help us to know more about ourselves. And so looking at the big picture, these are also events that builds us up, strengthen us, sharpen us. Amen? praise the Good Lord for the revelations!!!
And after knowing this, I also know that God wants us to start from the bottom. When we fail, we will work harder, learn more effectively. So i'm also holding onto this when i fail i tell myself God wants me to do better and God wants me to be humble by starting from the bottom.
so pple JIAYOU!! He knows all our thoughts and action. He is always there! and He will hold you when you fall, love you no matter what you have done. It is time to PLEASE HIM!!
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