Thanx Ching..

Today is my one and only off day..so sian..so tired to wake up..anyway..when to SMU to matriculate..got ching to company mi..haha..and meh meh of course..she got mum to fetch so xin fu...mi and ching walk high and low then found the place..
anyway..then day was fun..haha..my student card not bad la..but forgot to push up my spects..look quite nerdy..haha

anyway..felt that Ching abit left out when mi and meh discuss things..i'm sorry ching..

then meh and ching saw SO MANY ACJC PPLE!!! wa!! from ching's exprience i very scared of AC pple..the last thing i want is to study with them...
SIANZ...then see all of them like i invisible like that..so hostal..anyway god taught ask not to jugde pple..and to judge pple in the most favorable light..maybe they shy?? haha..

Anyway i still believe that it is god's perfect plan for mi? Mayeb He wants my english to improve? haha..so mix with pple who has good gp grades will help mi improve? haha..actually quite scared..but anyway..i'll put my faith in God..

then meh went to wait for Eileen (her AC fren) then mi and ching proceeded with the matriculation then went for lunch together..

then we went home..and relax..finally..think i go take nap now..hahahaha..

really thank Hui Ching to company mi today..
THANK YOU CHING AND SORRY FOR NEGLECTING YOU...

Ching: so after wat i showed u, u wana come church to thank god urself?

Nice...so dun ver look down on urselves!!!

A very good message to ponder ...
A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding
up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200, he asked, "who would like this $20
bill?" Hands started going up.
He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you
but, first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple the $20 dollar bill up.
He then asked,
"Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied, "what if I do this?" And he dropped
it on the ground, started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He
picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now, who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.
"My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter
what I did to the money; you still wanted it because it did
not decrease in value. It is still worth $20."
"Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and
ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances
that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless."
"But no matter what has happened or what will happen,
you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely
creased, you are still priceless to those who DO love you. The worth of our
lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE."
"You are special - Don't EVER forget it."
If you do not pass this on, you may never know the
lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can
bring. Count your blessings, not your problems. Never be afraid to try
something new.
And remember: amateurs built the ark ... professionals
built the Titanic.
"My business is not to remake myself, but to make the
absolute best of what God made." --- Robert Browning

hey hey pple...

nice to see u guys having great time from each other's company..
hehe..i really hope i can join u all one fine day..hahaha

had a great time at Imee's house that day, scream till i no voice but heng got it back the next morning..haha
nice games...
but i dun like my "bed"..sleep till 8 am like that went to imee's living room to sleep..too cold..

then went home to put my presents from imee then rush to work

anyway that day work sucks..got some help from edric who is working at the 4th floor..haha so qiao rite..

then these fews days lost the anthu to work..bad sales, sian attitude..got to talk to my ARM (ast. retail manager) then realised i need to change..

haiz..work and church really clashing..and it brought mi bad name at work..haiz..but i'll pray to god that he help mi change..

anyway..these few days really no life..got nothing much to say..hahaha

will like to keep in touch with all of u!!
dun forget abt mi ok...

wahahaha!!
pple!! i got another testimony to share!!!
wahahaha

today..
erm..Like normal work days..
promote like reading from the sales guide,

this phone got a one mega pixel camera, 10mins video recording, 4 times digital zoom, blah blah blah..

exactly like wat the sales guide read..
i do my homework one ok..

but usually
the pple will go: "oh...That's cool..Ok I'll think abt it" then I'll go:"no problem..But dun think too long, stocks are going at a fast rate"

That's my only statement for promoting

hahaha..
anyway..Today as per normal..i talk like that, promote like that..but the dif is that i prayed for wisdom to spot pple who wants to buy a phone, pray for wisdom to talk, pray for god to help mi in this impossible industry (in my view).

know wat?
He did.

all were His work. i really mean ALL.

i did sense pple who has the intention of buying phones.
i told them all the truth abt the price, but they were fine with it. *MUZ BE HIM*
normally the pple will walk off..
then it was easy. They decided. They'll buy. Even though they can get it cheaper in Philippines or wat ever. They bought from mi..
wat happened lo? If I'm the one, I'll sure get the cheaper one rite. But..Guess wat. GOD MADE HIM BUY FROM MI.
i cant decide for him, only god can. The most is i do my best, the rest leave it all to God.

today very little pple. So sales was bad. But guess wat.
out of 5 phones sold. 4 were mine. The 5th one is i too busy and my colleague too eng so he entertain for mi. But of course write his name la..today got 4 staff including the ast. Manager. But all the hps were all sold by mi.
why? How? Is it possible? i dun think so at first too. But God gave mi GRACE.
*GRACE is something that you dun deserve but god gave it to you*
GOD IS GREAT!! No words can describe how thankful i am to Him. The only thing i can do is to be His living testimony. As for mi prove. i can show you the transaction today. If you dun trust god, at least trust mi. HE IS ALIVE. HE LOVES YOU TOO. I'll pray for you that you may one day be like mi. the days of the world are counting down. Dun waste this day without god.

GOD IS ALL LOVING!!!

Hey..Got to go church today again!! But the bad thing is that I muz get back by 2pm..Ok la..At least I get to go..Anyway..went to church, practice my tongues, get to speak it clearer now..Louder also..But still cant understand, still learning..Then today I great thing happened.

pastor was talking abt the devil will fine pple who are "lurkwarm" in Christ (which means not so on for Christ pple , only abit on pple) and posses them..Then talk talk talk..Then pastor ask who havent receive the holy ghost yet..Go up front and we'll pray for them..Then I ask peg she wana go..I sense that she will say "hah..Dun wan la..I not prepared..But I also dun know le.." But she kept quiet them another girl came up and ask her..Then she still not decided..Then Pauline came to ask her also..Then she agreed..

then the 3 of us pray for her..WA...Pray so long!! Pray till I no voice liao ah..Then pray like 3 rounds le!! then she got it on the 3rd round..There was like SOOO MANY pple praying for her..There is another person who want to receive also, so its like the whole church pple one group for her one group for peg..although I cant see but I can sense that there is a big group of pple behind mi praying for peg too lo!! I can see so many hands from my view and I think still got alot more behind..WA..peg..u got the attention of the whole church!!! wahahaha..they're nice pple la..all pray for u..somemore so long!! mi Pauline and the long hair girl (both peg n mi forgot her name) prayed for her through out..WA...use alot of strength le..got alot of wrinkles from the concentration of praying le..peg...u know my ku xin? hahaha

anyway..she got it..all of us praying so loudly in tongues I cant even hear her..Pauline standing infront heard then we clapped! cue to stop..hahaha coz I dun know she got it or not..hahaha..

anyway..I was not late for work le..my hp says 2:00 pm sharp, the computer there says 1:58pm..But my boss(not the manager, higher rank then manager), terence's watch says 2:15pm... -_-"""" then I still count as late lo..

anyway, I feel its worth it to spend the time praying for peg!!! haha

anyway, work as usual, bad sales, 6 phones only, somemore today is a sunday..haiz...Anyway, the day was great!! SO HAPPY PEG GOT THE HOLY SPIRIT IN HER..

peg peg go practice also kk..hahaha..Dun it in the toilet..muz have boldness remember? do it in the living room!! hahaha..
Anyway, I really hope u can get to speak with Ms Tan..But think she's too busy..its normal that she dun pick up her phone la..hahaha..i'll pray for u.. :) and her not to be so tired everyday..haiz..

A wonderful day with god!!

Hey pple, due to my overexcitment and cant be understood English, I edited this entry..So for those who dun understand, can read it again? Sorry..Anyway For Ching: can read all? Not juz the non-Christian parts? I really wana share his love and show u that all this are true, My true testimony.

Woke up today..Feel like no "mu ai" (mother's love) like no one wana care abt mi..Think bcoz the previous nite talked with Ms Tan and she said once I'm independent enough, she'll hand mi over to someone else..Then in my sleep last nite, I believe the devil is dong something making mi feel like I'm having depression..But I told myself I can't like that..coz bcoz of my work, I dun get to go to church, but I fought for it..So I'm going to church today!!

then I take bus, realized my farecard no money, I got no money in my wallet too!! Only 50 cents..Told the bus driver. Heng the driver let mi pass. PRAISE THE LORD! Anyway was abit late for church..But juz in time before they start..

Angeline came along today..She's quite irritating when we were worshipping. Its like when we singing song, clap hands, blah blah blah..She'll stare at mi n Jason..Like poke her head out of the row (we were standing in a row) and look at us. Then she'll giggle giggle when u look at her back..

At first I was ok with it and was trying to block her stare at Jason..But Jason was super uncomfortable coz he's shy..I mean when pple stare at u like that and laugh at you u'll sure feel uncomfortable rite...Anyway, Ms Tan started to say her..But she dun listen. She still come and tell mi "u act happy ah!" then say to Ms Tan "ni kan..da shi bu shi zai act happy?!"

She upset mi..coz I really didn't wake up with a good mood, I woke up in a depression mood..Was trying to cheer up for god, to worship him, to enjoy my service as it did not came easy.

then I felt self pity, something like i'm not happy but bcoz of God, I "acted happy". Felt very wei qu..Felt like crying too..Really very bad..Its normal to cry in church so I would not be very noticed if I cried.

But suddenly, I remembered the bible did said we cannot self pity (also dun know where I learnt that from) coz God loves us so So much that he sent his only son to die for us.

I need made a decision..Its either I continue to self pity, or to go with god..I decided to go with god without expecting wat will happen..But at The moment I've decided, the sec, the split second, almost immediately, I felt a very very strong spiritual lift up! Raising my spirit up!!! Supporting my depressed spirit! Like i'm carried up in big warm hands..Then I heard God telling mi He's carrying mi up!!!!


**awesome!!!!!**


I feel so great!!!! The feeling makes mi feel so whole! The feeling of u knowing u can never fall..coz u have him.. Its like you're lying in his hands. Juz leave everything to him and it'll be alrite that kinda thing la..I cant really describe u the feeling..But its really really awesome..Then I close my eyes worshipping god, enjoying the wonderful spiritual support from god!!

then after Angeline "had-her-fun-teasing-pple" service She left early. She got other programs.

Then we continued to praise him!!!! Oh yeah!!! Enjoyed it so much..
When I was singing "Shout To The Lord" the part where it says "Forever I'll love you, Forever I'll stand!!" I meant it so much in my heart!!! I raised my right hand straight, giving God my promise. (Now then I know it takes so much sincerity to do that)

He has done SO MUCH SO MUCH for mi, and really changed my life..Change my attitude, change my character. I want to live a evangelistic life. I cant do it without him. He's my power, He's my energy, He IS my God, ONE AND ONLY GOD.

Then sister jenny, a pasture who was from the states, sent on a missionary to china..She met a lot of problems trying to keep the "trading activities" down..coz of the overwhelming response of the china pple.. They are so hungry for the word..So hungry that the pasture have to preach day to nite for 4 or 5 days!! After that they're still so hungry!! The reason is there is a lot of restrictions to wat u can preach..They're not allowed to speak of baptism, tougues, simply, there is nothing much left for them to preach..
so she talked abt her "contracts" as the water baptism she have to do, her "business" as the meet for open preaching, and her "business partners" are suppose to be business man also rite, but they come from a lot of places including rural areas..They have no jeans only those grey cloth pants and rough behavior that kind la..They're meeting her in the hotel room some more..Then abt 45 of them that kind..Got so much attention and also bare in mind china got so many pple I believe many of them are spies..From the government..If they caught, everything is traced, they will have to run..
anyway..heng the pasture didn't got it so far..PRAISE THE LORD!!

then I'm interested in the baptism of the holy spirit which pasture jenny did mention..Then I asked Ms Tan abt it..How to get it and stuff..

after service Pauline and Ms Tan prayed for the holy spirit to come into mi..As God promised in Acts 2:38, he wants a part of him in every of his pple..Pauline explained God wans to give it to mi..So I accepted..Then we started praying..

read carefully:


then I will have to say it after Pauline that kinda thing..But Pauline said it so long to repeat..I might juz forgot wat she said when I was going to start..
but miraculously, some thing read it word by word with mi..After I finished one word He tells mi the next..I believe is Him..

then not long after I said the read-after-mi-thing, I started to think abt nothing, blank..then I realize I was speaking......In something I dun know..(which is tougues--the evidence that the holy spirit has come into me!!) then I started to say it out more..Then Ms Tan say "juz let it flow..juz let it out.." Then I began to repeat the syllabus..Only 4 like that..And also not very clear. Then Pauline said "increase increase" then I said like 2 more new syllabus..I also not very sure how many..juz some new lippings came..But also not very clear..
then after a "long release", Pauline helped mi sealed it..Not to let it go away forever..And when we finished..I was like drowsy..Like the ground moving..But I felt so So so great!!!

then rush to work..But I was feeling so So great!!

although only sold 2 phones out of 19 phones today, I was so So happy!!!!

after I out stock waiting for my manager to check, funan is almost empty then I sang "shout to the lord" "how could I live without u" "when the music fades" like funan is my concert hall..hahahaha..It feels so great..Almost cried..Anyway, I was feeling so So so great..

then today is my last day at funan, tml going century square, sian..So far..At tampines...

Anyway I love this day!
I wouldn't wana forget this day ever ever!!
PRAISE THE GOOD LORD!! PRAISE THE EVER FAITHFUL GOD!!

"*My Jesus, My Savior
Lord there is none like You
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

My Comfort, My Shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath
And all that I am
Never cease to worship You

Chorus:
Shout to the Lord
All the earth
Let us sing
Power and majesty
Praise to the King
Mountains bow down
And the seas will roar
At the sound of Your Name

I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love you
Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

My Jesus, My Saviour
Lord there is none like You
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

Your my comfort (My comfort)
And my shelter(My Shelter)
Your my Tower of refuge and strength
let every breath
All that I am
Never cease to worship you

repeat Chorus twice"

PROCLAIM YOUR AWESOME POWER,

last nite..my work fren Renee got to speak to Ms tan and clarified some of her doubts with Ms tan..i hope and pray hard she'll come back to the heart of worship..then after hearing Ms tan said faith grows when u read more of God's word..then i suddenly like neglect my bible for a long long time liao..but i still got the "i kissed dating goodbye"

read abit ystday..
so inspiring!!
it sayd abt SMART LOVE..
test ur feelings with ur knowlegde to make sure it is not a sendimental gush..
to think of it all of my relationships are sendimental gush..
ai ya..i too tired to say wat i wana tell u all

i know ystday that today will be tough..then i suddenly have the thought that i will praise God no matter wat happens today..so...

anyway
today my outlet..funan got a new record, sold 9 phones today..but pai like hell la..and some incident happened that i dun wana rememeber..only ching knows..

then returned home 1130pm..
coz only mi and my ast. manager today..so we pack very slowly..haha..
i no eat dinner le!! go home then eat..

anyway..was complaining to ching then ask ching abt peg.

TO PEG: u ah...say serious abt jian fei still dun wana control..u'll juz waste ur money..the person already told u its not easy so if u think its easy now u better do someting abt it if u even wans lower ur weight by 1 kg!
abit kuang zhang la..but i dun wana see my friend waste money like that..

anyway..had a good laugh with ching and she really brighten up my day..haha..
praise the LORD for everything that happened today! bcoz i know the bad things he goes through it with mi and make mi feel better as he cleases and heal mi..n he makes the happy moments more meaningful with him around! GOD IS GREAT! SING HIS PRAISE! ALL THE EARTH! ALL THE HEAVENS! CAUSE WE'RE LIVING FOR THE GLORY OF YOUR NAME!
AMEN!!

GOD PLEASE HELP MI

last nite..have a heated discussion abt the BBR thing with Chris..after much talking..he still dun get my point.. this morning saw his msg telling mi wat he's going to do today..then i was like..haiz....

then i msg ms tan..
but guess wat..
i sent it to the wrong person
guess who i sent it to?
CHRISTOPHER

i wrote wat i felt during the chat ystday nite (which is not very positive) and something like i dun wana get too close to him..shit man..then he replied..
i understand...i'm sorry..

gosh.........i dun know wat to feel le..i'm happy my point was so efficiently brought across to him but i feel sorry for him..i hope our frenship still stands...

anyway..today work was so super stressed..
i almost cried at work today coz of the stress
but i nv cry la..in the end Ms tan came to buy HP lighten up my day..and HUI CHING'S 5 TESTIMONIAL in my frenster acc. made my day..

but working is so stress..had some tension with my senior staff..did so many mistakes! i so kan cheong! then i so stress!!
stress --> mistake --> even more stress --> EVEN more mistakes --> irritate my senior staff --> i get super stressed!!

i dun even dare to go for dinner break!! dun even dare to go water break or toilet break..

stress ah..but managed to sell 2 phones..stress ah..one is ms tan one lo..
stress ah................

i cmi liao..

off day!! they gave mi 7200 use for one day!

hey pple..thanx for the advice..erm for Janice's..bcoz i'm distracted from God, i felt it..i felt lost with God and it like u go to church to see chris not to worship god that kinda idea? ya..so if he wana wait i dun mind but i got no feelings for him lo..ystday he msg in the afternoon i nv reply coz working ma..then at nite he msg mi
(the exact msg)
"EvErYtImE We DuN kEeP iN tOuCh


I fEeL sAd

OnE tHiNg I'm SuRe Of Is

I mIsS yOu

BuT tHe MiSsInG pArT oF tHe StOrY,

hOpE tHe OtHeR hAlF iS yOu MiSs Me ToO!!"

haha..so how? think meh meh's advice is good..i'll talk to him abt it..but muz find the right opportunity otherwise even frenz also cant be liao..

hey pple..i'm now using 7200!!!! the nokia only flip flop phone..so cool man!!!! but only can use it for one day..haha.. tml muz return liao..now recording songs..

oh ya got things to tell u all also..
i got BS today..but first week of work cant off..then i was like telling my superviser if i can leave early tml..then after much praying and thinking..he let mi off today..wahahaha..

my sakes so far:
3hp 1 battery

Happy Birthday Ching~~~!!!

Haven't write Sunday rite..
Early morning mummy woke mi up to eat breakfast with her, when the lullaby was still playing (go to sleep now, close ur eyes~~) mum came in! "XIAO NUI AH~~!! PEI MAMA QU CHI ZAO CHAN YAO MA~~!!!" then was like "huh...wo yao shui jiao...." then she came sitting at my head sha jiao, shaking mi, " pei ma ma qu la!! pei ma ma qu la!" (She quarrelled with dad these few days..think her meno pause unbalanced homo coz her mood swing and over sensitiveness and sha jiao..) then she took the NTU rejection letter let mi see..Then I wake up liao..Cant go back to slp liao..So sian..I so tired..Then cant get in time to meet peg, so I only pei her to bus stop then I 920 like that reach outram park MRT..

guess wat..peg still at home doing all her chores forgetting the time..(wats new rite?) anyway..Company her go to the herb a live (jian fei one) talk..Almost fell asleep..Anyway, then went to church, enjoyed the worship but fall asleep when the pastor preaching..muz be the devil doing his "deeds" but I slept so soundly so sweetly altough the pastor so excited shouting here and there, walking here and there..hahaha

then peg left early to her street fest..Then mi, ms tan, Jason, mandy, hockey, Gary, evon, xuehua and....I forgot the last one..hahaha..Anyway..After lunch ms tan went to her CLC course. Then mi went home to check the stove mum thought she forgot to off..Then went home called my cousin.. Cant tuition again coz one went JB, then I very sian to teach only one..So cancelled..then went to write my Friday cum sat blog..Then went to aunt's house eat dinner and slept there for one nite..

then Chris msged mi..Asking how's service and saying his pastor preached very well..Then I was thinking..he really cant get my hint? Or he didn't like mi in the first place? Or he cant let go?? hm.....Confusing..Then he asked if I free to chat? hm...Actually its like every sun nite we chat like 2 hrs one..but I was at aunt's place play mahjong..Computer one la..Then I slept early coz morning got to get sis back from china..( pple I need ur views..)

then went to get my sis 4am in the morning then went home slp till morning 1030 like that then wake up for work..

anyway work was so difficult..I like said so much lies like that..But I can sit or stand whenever I want la..Then break when ever I want but cant go out for lunch..Anyway time went past very fast then met up with ching, Jan, peg after their exciting steamboat treat..

before meeting them went to haagen-daz to order a piece of cake..
then met them then blind fold ching with my hands then bring her to haagen daz..so So scared she'll fall..hahaha..Keep peeping!! u tot I dun know ah!! hahaha..Anyway..Luckily when she opened her eyes she only saw the cake.. hahaha then sing happy birthday in Eng then when we finish the candle no fire liao!!! wahahaha!!!!! I think I too excited sing with so much breath! Think I blow out one...wahahahaha!! then we sang in chi and call the waiter help as relight the candle..wahahaha..Every one was like laughing (including the waiter) then we ordered a 4 scoop ice cream then we ate and tk (tok cok) then they walk mi home again!! hahaha..Then we playing the qing wa game..this time I keep losing..hahaha..Then sent Janice to bus stop and wait for her bus to come..

then we talked abt ching
she's very tired of buying all our presents
that's y she bought yen and yuan's present for herself only..So I told Jan that next time like janice's birthday I buy for Jan? Then my bday peg buy for mi? Then peg bday ching buy for her then meh bday Jan buy for her? Then liwei bday vjie buy for her? and so on..So please dun always take ching for granted..she very xin ku also...can we do some things for our jie mei men ourselves too??

k la I go slp liao..tired..nite nite!

out of love ... but in love with God

**hey pple my Comments are Back..thankx to the Genius here, ahem, haha..its at the bottom of the page..so dun get confused**

Went to peg's house slp over last nite..Had a great time there..Watched monster Inc. Then go walk by the river till liang court..Get time chatting, sing songs..really enjoy these times man!! then went back to peg's house then I went to choose a new blog skin for my blog, then peg help mi change..

I was feeling very disappointed la..coz of Chris thing..Then was talkin to them abt it..

**actually I'm not even sure how Chris feels..U gave him my blog add anyway..**

then peg call mi company her go enrollment tml then I said ok..Going SP in t-shirts and shorts..hahaha..
then I fell asleep coz I tot the "good nite" was the cue to fall asleep..hahaha but ching and peg continue to talk..hahaha.. I was so worried I'll snore!! But luckily they no complain..haha..

then sat morning woke up at 9, Ching left first she meeting Jennifer to go her new company see see..Then accompany peg to SP..saw Jennifer the moment we rushed into the MRT..she's waiting for Ching..Then ching called to meet us for lunch at IMM they going to west coast..but we wana eat Mac at SP (cheaper) then got a trade off agreement..Who end first go to the one-who-end-later's place..
Then mi n peg happily go SP admissions to find out that the enrollment date was YSTDAY!!!!!! my goodness lo..How can she see the date wrongly!! Anyway, the person say they'll get back to her on Monday..cant confirm her place there still.. HAIZ...... She quite sad but I think she'll still get it..

then we call ching they all go IMM eat coz later peg got bbq at sambawang..Then mi and peg reach first..
then Chris msg mi..he wana meet mi for lunch..Then call him come IMM..he carry his ENORMOUS BAG and in his no. 4 uniform come meet peg and mi..haha..Then Ching and Jennifer come then we ate lunch..Then here comes the bad news. Janice got rejection letter from NTU..Mi and Ching were so worried!! But she say she'll be ok..Then Ching's sister called..ching also received a letter form NTU..Rejection letter also..I feel so devastated! When I heard wat Ching said my heart like drop to my toes..I feel so bad for them..I feel sad for them..then I msg my sis wat to do she say appeal, wait for next year, Poly, or private degree..Then Ching going to appeal on Monday..Haiz.. Ching went home with mi n Chris..

then I come home bathe then rush to meet Chris and Zhenglun to go indoor stadium for the festival for worship and praise..actually no mood one then zl consoled abit then Chris consoled abit..

then we go in and had so much fun..Then one of the paster ask who is below 20 yrs old who is a Christian..So many pple stand up!! Then we went down to receive some sort of blessing..then go back seat then sing song again..then towards the end they ask who haven't been saved yet to go down..Then Chris encouraged mi to go down..Then I said the Sinner's Prayer again..(the first time I rejected it) then got to know this person call Zena..She was behind mi when I was saying it..I feel so great man!! There's so much JOY in mi when I said it!! But I was shivering all the way..hahaha..But I'm so filled with joy and gladness.. then they give mi a pen..hahaha..Then not long after I reached my seat the concert end liao..I'm so So so happy lo!! Then on the way I talked a lot..hahaha chit chat chit chat chit chat..Basically all rubbish..But I was very very happy..

(continue from 1st jun last paragraph and 4th June's blog's story) Then on our way to kallang Mrt, I told Chris.. " Hey u know that day I was talking to Ms Tan then she said I cant get into a relationship now" then Chris said " y?" then I said " coz will be distracted from God wat..But Ms Tan also got say unless with a very matured Christian" then I added on " but I dun think got any for my frenz is a matured Christian" then we run across the road..Then no talk abt it liao..I dun know how he felt.. Then Ms Tan called back..I told her then she said " ni bu yao hai wo!" coz I forgot to tell Chris have to wait for mi to mature first..Then ready for relationship..Then Ms Tan also Reminded mi to tell him everything has a right time..Then Ms Tan said if he ask again than I add on la..Like if he's really concern then he'll ask again lo..But unfortunately he nv ask..So I think let go ba..he nv msg mi today (6th June)..see how la..

then we reach TBP then eat then met peg then we wait for bus together then I told her abt this also..Then came home do the usual stuff lo..

I got answers to my fustrations..

erm..juz came back home..
had a little chat with Ms tan..
got my answers to my fustrations (tuesday,1st june, Shrek 2~~!! Bs~~!! Love them!!, last paragraph)

erm..I have to thank god for bringing mi back first..
I told u guys I felt lost when I seek God again during Eileen's cell this is because of BGR distrations..

mi falling for Chris had distrated mi from God, hinder mi from my young growing faith..
Ms Tan said anything that make u distracted from God is a temptation.
As fans of the bible, we know that the devil is constantly tempting us..
yah so we are suppose to resist it like Jesus did when he was in the Desert for 40 days.
I didn't know it was a temptation..yah, until juz now la
I know it got nothing to do with Christopher.
Its is juz not the right time la..
There is time for everything and BGR obviously is not the right time now..
So have to wait for mi to mature first..i'm sure then, God will give mi a right guy at the right time..i trust Him!

erm..yah so..I'll try my very best to get out of it now lo..And erm..I'm fine la..I know God is always there for mi and I'm very very happy that God allowed this Test for mi. PRAISE THE LORD OF HOSTS!!! I LOVE YA!! Amen!

Shrek 2~~!!! Bs~~!! Love them!!

From ystday's 2 hr plus chat with Chris, He asked mi where I'm going tml..Then he say he company mi..Then I'm fine with anything..Then he wana meet mi do nothing also very weird so I asked him to watch shrek 2..

IT WAS A VERY VERY GREAT SHOW!!! They draw their emotions so detailed!! hahaha..Very funny also..The funniest is the donkey becoming a stallion..hahahaha!! Imagine the stallion with a enomorous donkey mouth..wahahaha!!!

then we went to meet huiching, liwei and weelip..Then they keep teasing us..Then we go lunch at sakae sushi..Then..I need to go for a interview..Then I ask him if he wants to go with mi..He say ok..Then later we go back meet ching they all for KTV..

then we went for the interview..Then went back orchand for KTV.

During KTV ching liwei and weelip keep teasing US!!!!!
make mi so super paisei!!!!!! But he's alrite with it le..
then la la la..Finished mi n Chris left early for BS..Were abit late la..haha..But were luckily not the latest! haha..Then had a super nice time at BS..But Chris left at 7 to go home pack, eat, book in.

today's BS is abt john the Baptist who is a fore runner of Christ which is said so many times back in the old testament and then of course says abt Jesus and then we were saying abt repentance..bcoz when Jesus come the old culture is passed..N came e new..Which is repentance and baptism by water n by e holy spirit..So we were saying abt btwn frenz or even before God, if one is so So angry with the other to the extend that he/she doesn't wana even see the other fren, wad should we do.

y we wana repent is bcoz we hurt our frenz and most importantly we hurt God.. boohoohoo..

IF I am the one who made my fren angry:
first, I should acknowledge my mistake before God and REPENT (change my thinking, mend my ways, change my direction in life. No matter wad u do u should not walk away from god)
Second, pray to god for help to recover my frenz' anger and broken heart..
If I'm the one who is angry with my fren,
1st pray to God to mend ur heart, give u patience to give ur fren a 2nd chance.
2nd pray for ur fren to repent.

then I was telling them I got my shoulders and upper back badly sunburned then when I slp or carry my backpack its so Painful!!!!!!!!!! Ah!!!!!! Imagine Jesus..He had his flesh ripped open all in his body..Rough clothes..Carrying the super heavy and rough cross!! AH!!!!!!! U call mi sun burnt go carry I sure die..Then still got nailed..But wad he said? "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do." (Luke 23:34) see how God loves his pple? even he is so badly distorted by his pple..haiz..Now pple still question where is the love (song by black eyed peas)..

anyway...Feel very Very bad for the confrontation btwn lw, kl, Chris..haiz..... Really wish I could help..I'm really very Very sorry........ To everyone..

SeNtOsA bEaCh~~!!

Yeah yeah Yeah!! Today meet 10 at harbourfront(hf) who knows the one who lives the furthest reach first!! hahaha its none other then meh~~~ rrylyn..hahaha..All of us were late!! Then late queen peggie was the 2nd to reach!! hahaha..So fan chang..Mi and yuan 3rd then ching janice and yen are the 5th..hahaha

then we reach the beach yen and janice took out their clothes..hahahaha..dun think dirty..They wore bikini inside..hahaha also very wee u weed!! hahaha I wear bikini look like meat ball!! I dun dare to show my fats..hahahhaa..Anyway..meh meh dun dare to take out her top clothing hahaha..Only bare her sexy legs and her sexymoles~~..hahaha..

then we play vball..Then they complain pain..Yah la for beginners sure pain then we change to captain ball..We got odd no. So mi, peg(the taller ones one team), and meh meh one team then the other team is yenling, yawn, ching and janice one team..Play play Play..of course, my team won!! hurray!! hahaha..We play not very long la..Then go play water..Sea water..

mi peg and meh meh swim to the border there..meh meh got difficulty come back..Her asyma(sp) cha yi dian come ah..Scared us..
then we tok cok, as usual, then suntan, then play poker, then go back to the water..But this time only mi Jan and peg..Then mi and peg float on the wave then suntan also la..hahaha..BTW..Its not true that only fatter pple can float hor!! hahaha..Meanwhile the others go bathe..Then when the toilets clear they call us go in bathe..Then we go lo..And left sentosa..so short hor...So wished I can stay longer..But then now I already so burnt..Stay longer think charcoal (sp) liao..

then we go hf eat dinner+lunch? hahaha..Then Ms tan called mi!! good news!! Got job..Go pao kopi at a christian cafe..They need pple with experience (ahem..That's so for mi~~!! hahaha) then she told mi is 6.5 per hour..That's a lot la..Then I make so much effort to call the boss..But she only giving mi 5 per hour..(chey) but think they need pple urgently so I think since I no job also..Might as well go help them..

then I went to meet Eileen..I'm going her cell..As usual..Their cell pple quite scary..Those super on pple but really can see their passion for Christ..I'll work towards that..

then go home super shagged and I'm almost a lobster liao..I think already a lobster..haha

After i go to eileen's cell i felt lost..then i now then realise bcoz the past few days my heart was with Chris..then after the cell with all the long tiring prayers..then realise i lost touch with God..God muz be so sad..i'm so sorry..thats y i'm feeling lost..then had a long chat with Chris..but this time i feel so fren fren with him..juz like that the feeling is lost..maybe its God's will? i dun know..or is it God telling mi to forget Him? then Chris how? i dun know how to handle seriously..i need some advice..but i feel that Ms Tan is too busy..Haiz...