Wednesday, September 29, 2004

my blog song

hey hey!!
I was not aware that my blog song is "when you believe" a song i loved very much from the cartoon prince of egypt. this song always sparks me up when i'm down
and you know what? currently i'm not very down because i still have much faith in God. however, God put me in SMU for a reason. its not for me to Boast in my strength where i always like to be in a leadership position. It is for me to boast in my WEAKNESS. I got the hint that God put me there to test my faith. I want to know my Faith level too and i want to run this race with God. i have been having alot of encouragement these days as i surrender to God my weakness. i know i still got faith but i was falling asleep when i was perviewing my blog when i heard this song:

Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could
[wwoowwyes]
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe
Mmmyeah

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer bird
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My hearts so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill (Mmm)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe
[Hey]
[Ooh]

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see the way, get through the rain
A small but still, resilient voice
Says hope is very near, oh [Oh]
There can be miracles (Miracles)
When you believe (when you believe, yeah) [Though hope is frail]
Though hope is frail [It's hard]
It's hard to kill (Hard to kill, oh, yeah)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve, oh)
When you believe somehow you will (Somehow, somehow, somehow)
Somehow you will (I know, I know, know)
You will when you believe [When you]
(Ohoh)
[You will when you]
(You will when you believe)
[Oohoohooh]
[Oh...oh]
[You will When you believe]
[You will When you believe]

i got a revelation that God is there lo..Just keep on believing..if you keep on believing, praying although you feel like you're praying to the wall, By your faith, God may grant you miracles, you can't achieve it..thats the part of the song that i disagree..but Faith is a big Word, which can move mountains...
So when God is putting you to a test..He encourages you also!!

Do you know why God wants to put us through test and trails?
Its not because He wants to test us. God already knows every thing about us! Why does He needs to test us. So i got to this conclusion that, Trails or tests are meant to SHOW TO US something. e.g. our faith level, Our persistence in Christ etc. And all these things that we learn from our tests helps us to grow, help us to know more about ourselves. And so looking at the big picture, these are also events that builds us up, strengthen us, sharpen us. Amen? praise the Good Lord for the revelations!!!

And after knowing this, I also know that God wants us to start from the bottom. When we fail, we will work harder, learn more effectively. So i'm also holding onto this when i fail i tell myself God wants me to do better and God wants me to be humble by starting from the bottom.

so pple JIAYOU!! He knows all our thoughts and action. He is always there! and He will hold you when you fall, love you no matter what you have done. It is time to PLEASE HIM!!

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

finally again....

Wao!! Finally blog is done..found a culprite that was a mistake on my part..enjoy my blog...visitors are less and less..so sad....
Please tell me if the font is still too light..cant trust my screen liao..haha
need your blessings!
changed the word comments to blessings! hahaa

Thursday, September 23, 2004

hey

Now my msg box ok liao the blog itself got problem..sian ah..do you think i should change a blogskin?
need you comments please
ai ya think lessor and lessor pple blog these days..sian also
btw i got wireless in my room! but strength low..but can surf can liao
Now on my bed..hahaha i go pao milo now..then can enjoy surf net on my bed and drink milo..hahaha

Saturday, September 18, 2004

help!!!

hey can some one help me..i dun know wat is wrong with the tempate..
when i see it at home its ok
then on the lappy its bad

after i correct it from my house com then the whole template dun know wat happen..
ah peg ah..help....

Friday, September 17, 2004

hey can help me see if you can see my tagboard and clicks? my lappie cannot see le

Thursday, September 16, 2004

finally..

hey...my blog is finally done..found it too black and white so added some colours to it..
anyway..ysterday's worship was a disaster..Initially i asked Ms Tan to help me pei yue then i told her i'm going to sing "We Fall Down" and "Give Me One Pure and Holy Passon". Then she say she know the 1st one but the 2nd very difficult. so i told her nvm we just sing, no need music. So i happily go to the "cell group" yesterday, taking a cab down coz all the bus except my bus came. i reached like half an hour earlier before the foundation than got to eat, and then th guitar in church is quite low..doesnt sound nice then we try to put the note higher..then Ms Tan wana think make my worship session sound better..so she tried..she worked really hard.. :) it was really nice of her..then, the room was really hot the air con think never on then i was very hot..haha then we didn't start well la..singing out of key coz we adjusted to the higher one which was too high..the low one was too low..haha then quite cork up la..then the 2nd even more..then ijust like leave it to Ms tan to do the worship liao..haha then i did sya abit la..but really cannot coordinate with Ms Tan..think if we got more time..super cork up..we end with Where is the Love..looking at the lyrics it says alot of things about the world today..
it goes like this:

What’s wrong with the world, mama
People living’ like they ain’t got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to the things that’ll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here living’
In the USA, the big CIA
The bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you’re bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that’s exactly how anger work and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y’all, y’all

*People killing’, people dying’
Children hurt and you hear them crying’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questioning’
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain’t the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane?
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don’t belong
Nations dropping’ bombs
Chemical gasses filling’ lungs of little ones
With the ongoing’ suffering’ as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the loving’ really gone
So I could ask myself really what is going’ wrong
In this world that we living’ in people keep on giving’ in
Making’ wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respecting’ each other, deny thy brother
A war is going on but the reason’s undercover
The truth is kept secret, it’s swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where’s the love, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the truth, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the love, y’all
*
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I’m getting older, y’all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money making
Selfishness got us following our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids want to act like what they see in the cinema
Yo’, whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we’re spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feeling under
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feeling down
There’s no wonder why sometimes I’m feeling under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
*

then i shared my testimony of my conversion. think i did it quite badly..haha Ms Tan says must write it down then discuss of a certain aspect of my christian life. tok alot of jokes la..till they keep laughing then when i wana talk about God i like didnt humble myself. I said I dun know wat happened suring my conversion. Actually is God's work within me. keeping my open to Him, and thanks to Him revealing Himself to me, and starting to build a relationship with me and His patience all the way. I really dun want to back slide. its not that being a christian is very good, shuang. But because He is too good and i cannot deny that He is not there and hm...He is my purpose..haiz i dun know..i need to still learn alot alot alot more..

ya then cai yun taught me this lesson..then went for supper..alot of pple went.. Paul, James, me, Louis, Xiao Ling, Khal, Hui Yun, Jason, Alice, Ms Tan.

then after that Jason Keep saying i'm very funny and did encourage me coz my worship thing didnt go well..haha..
ok la..think we're very friendly, then he still call me to treat him coz i just got my commission suddenly..ya things between us are getting clearer and clearer..so its good la

thanks for reading to the end!! hahaha i'll visit all your blogs too!!
haha..ok..good bye!!

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Thank you

hey..thanx for all the comments for my new blog skin..but the heart shape like cant appear heart shape become X. so sad...haha
then no title..no comments so sad..

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

pueh..finally...

Wa..so many things happened since i've blogged..
my com got virus then cannot delete the virus..sent it to CIT helpdesk
wait for my quene for 1 HOUR!! then finally my turn then i wait wait wait till fell asleep..then when i wake up the person still repairing... -__- then i left..later then callect my dear lap top..then i went to Far East eat burger king..Forgot to bring my FA homework to do..then read my Foundation lessons book and bible..then received a call to collect my lappy then go back then i go library then go for project..
haiz..we got this LTB project..so many problems. i think most importantly the team spirit is not there. then the TA came and help us. we do the proposal and today's presentation do from 6 to 10!! then i go PS buy my dinner then go home eat and watch TV. I seriously think watching TV is super brainwashing. After i watch i haven't bathe, havent do my presentation slides which i am in charge of! then bathe then do till 230am!! i'm dying....but ok la i'm feeling ok now..got very excited bcoz of my new blog skin!! added a tagboard and the bible search thing. going to add a counter. thanks to my uni fren Elaine. she's like super resourceful! tell mi go this go that webbie to download this download that then help mi solve this problem of cant type in my journals..THANK GOD!!

think my journal going to be super long coz the box super thin..haha ok la..i'm ending

i'm saying "HI JANIS AND MINSHENG!!" my uni buddies!! hahaha.
leave me comments!! chat in tag board le!! haha
see ya!

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

NO TIME~~!!

aiyo..busy busy..
tml got FA quiz and FA homework which i havent touch yet
then thursday need to hand in communications assignment which is a persuasive letter which will be graded then
Friday got to hand in Stats assignment which i'm only half way there
die ah
think today have to finish FA hw then Tomolo do Com hw..then Thurs do stats..die ah..i scared i cant finish my FA and com..haiz...
think i really get my lesson
stats homework was given last week..
FA also..then i last min then do
haiz..but after class do i really sian le..ok ok i'll try this week..
saturday is homework day
i cant do homework at home..i'll end up slacking the whole day..
must go mac do..
haiz..wish me luck!!

Monday, September 06, 2004

My team advisor wrote

Hi Siew Choon.

Thanks for replying. It is indeed interesting and exciting to hear from you and what you have to say! I am very glad to know that you are so exciting about things of God and that is indeed very encouraging.

I am grateful to know that you did have prior experience to camps and I suppose your expertise will serve well in this project. Nevertheless time is pressing and deadlines are coming, hence it is crucial for the team to put their acts together.

As for me, on is not exactly the word. Just be passionate. Passion is a very powerful factor. So powerful that it drives people to do things beyond their wildest imagination. Simply the reason why the film of our Lord Savior is Passion, The Christ.

I myself worshipped in New Creation Church. Bible study is on on Friday night and Campus ministry on Saturday evening, while Sunday will be the beloved Sabbath meeting.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with been zealous for things of God because it is that ever living water that keeps us going.

"Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be open onto you... if you ask for a bread, will your father gives you a stone? If you ask for a fish, will your father gives a snake? If your earthly father that's fill with sin knows how to give good gifts to you, what more your heavenly Father in heaven?" - my own paraphrase

Have you tried asking yet? Never restrict God. Since the very MOMENT you received Christ into your life, the Holy Spirit has ever since then gashed into your body, marking you for greatness and understanding. (It's biblical. Show you the reference when we are in contact.) Holy Spirit, been the third trinity of God is there to pour forth revelations and AGAPE (unconditional LOVE) in your life, which brings forth Hope that never ceases.

In that case, I challenge you to ask Daddy God for a hunger for THE WORD and let your spiritual eyes to be open. God obviously meant for you to be in His house but that doesn't mean that God only wants you to receive and be fed in there only!

In every stage in life, there is a particular calling. Now in varsity, the obvious is you are called to study. Learn to prioritise. In the event when school work clashes with services, there must be a way out. Personally if work clashes with Bible Study, I will put my work as priority simply because as a student, I have a right to put my work first. But definitely that is not going to stop me from trusting God for no clashes. However, Sunday services will always have a special place because it is the REST day, the Sabbath. No work is able to take me away from this day. There is still much more to share with you, but we will save it when we meet face to face.

Know that our God is a very practical God. God is not someone airy fairy, that only exist in a religon and Sunday services. Christianity is NOT a religion but a relationship. By accepting Christ means that you accept a new identity and a new, ever lasting relationship.

Enjoy whatever you can and DO NOT WORRY about everything. In short, God just wants to see you happy. He just wants you to be loved by Him endlessly, unceasingly. Enjoy every second of your life simply because it is worth it. Living with Jesus is a stress free and worry free relationship and let not the "calling or purpose" bug you. What is of use the big things in life when you do not even know that Jesus loves you and wants you to be happy.

Think about this. If you have a daughter and you are trying to groom her to be the best whatever you want her to be simply because you love her but in the process your daughter is trying to perfom so hard in order to meet your demands. In the midst of it, the feel of parent-child relationship is lost and she does not dwell in your love even though you really do want her to know that you love her.

That is a very wrong image of God many Christians have. They think that God has call them to do something, big or small. In the midst of discovery, they mistakeningly play God and try to achieve it.

God DO have BIG plans for you Siew Choon, that is because you are precious and unique in His sight. However, if it is His plans, HE WILL SEE TO IT, not you. The very aim of a parent is just hoping their kids to know and enjoy the love they have for them. Exactly or if not double and triple the desires of our Daddy God, wanting to express His love to you.

If you want to love God, enjoy your life first. Thank Him and praise Him for He only has good thoughts and plans for you.

Learn to see the heart of God, as a Father, as a friend, as a lover. Let Him anchor your life and you are in for the road to glory with no returns.

Take care,
You are precious and beloved,

Peng

Sorry Yang..

Hey pple
Today i so so tired..
Last nite went to sabo my sis with her friends.
It was terrible..for her..

First we went to buy durians for the actual treat she said..then i tag along..
then she bluff her to the indoor stadium..

then she was first carried by the guys to the cosy bay which is at the indoor stadium then she's suppose to finish the whole tub of strawberry ice cream..then hahaha came the green tea ice cream..dun see its green green very nice hor..inside got wasabei!! hahaha..then she thought is chocolate chip coz the wasabei she thought is chocolate chip..hahaha..she got choked la..but manage to recover from it before the other sabos..then i brought the ugliest pyjamas for her..hahaha...super ugly..then she's suppose to wear then sing the lunar 7th month stage hahaha..so funny..she cant do it la in the end she use her butt to write her chinese name..hahaha so funny..
then her friends use stockings two put a potato, then one put egg tofu haha..then tie around her waist..hahaha let your imagination go wild..hahaha.. then she's suppose to get one person to sing a birthday song to her then she's going to blow the party thing that go "pooo!" then the paper will roll out one..haha into the person's face..hahaha luckily the guy agreed la..haha

then she's suppose to eat half of the water melon with her hands..while she was eating they put the other half of the melon (taking out the meat inside and replace with flour) then put it on her head!! hahaha..it looks so funny!! and the helmet is so heavy!! haha ok la veyr bad..

then the qian bian wen da ti..they put flour ad wipp cream smash it into her face..aiyo..super cham..but all of us including her was laughing away..hahaha..heng she can play..otherwise if its me i sure angry one..

then i think like smash her 5 times ah..then they bought a pandan cake then all put the wipp cream on top then put a candle then sing birthday song to her..hahaha then in the end also end up in her face..haha

then put the banana on the tree call her without her hands pluck it down but the tree isn't very tall la..then she cant peel the skin then the other guy take the banana put in the flour then she have to do the same..then she manage to get one piece out then eat it..er xin..

then we all got campaige then all of us yam seng..haha..i really told all of us is the same le!!
but they gave my sis drink vinegar!! ai yo..by the time she already cannot differentiate which is vinegar which is campaige liao.. but anyway she drank half of it... ops.. aiyo very bad la..


then i also gor bring her clothes and stuff for her to clean up and change.. haha then she look so clean then we ate durians..hahaha..it ended

with a new keyboard, waterbottle and 2 thongs.. her presents..
it was a really fun day..
but thin kwas very very bad..
btw..my senior sent me some thing that made me feel so loved by God..let u all see..

Thursday, September 02, 2004

SMU ROCKS!

hey! SMU is fun! got lots of project..starting to like school..esp the wireless haha..
thats great! but work coming getting use to be a diligent worker like wat the bible says..haha
project group some are fun
but problems are arising..trouble..
i have been preparing ms tan they all's teachers day present
keep going out with Jason..coz he's the only one available to come buy presents with me. i asked the rest but nobody wana come with me.... sad..
anyway went out with him on sunday, monday, tuesday nite
he was late on monday and tuesday nite
monday coz i purposely super duper late
suan him on tuesday till he's super guilty haha. he keep saying sorry sorry hahaha
think ms tan didnt like her present.. sad.. anyway the rest i think they should like it
Paul love his carebear..haha and luckily the carebear wasnt so expensive
we last min do their cards..but luckily paul wasnt very angry
sorry peg u didnt get to sign their cards
but i wrote your name down

got to know Jason alot
i hope he dun get the wrong idea
i dun think i wana settle yet
coz i still dun know how to handle
i'll leave it to God. If He wants me to learn, i will try my best hoping nobody get hurt by the end of the day. but i think it'll be very difficult
some more it makes it more difficult when we're i the same church
i really hope God will reveal His plans to us soon..

suddenly thought of the dream i had a few weeks ago
i dreamt of Chris. i dreamt holding hands with him!! gosh....
the feeling was great but in the end i didnt choose to go steady with him
i'm not sure that the revelation i get is the correct one. i know i shouldnt be doubting but i really think its impossible..sorry God..i think i really need to pray about it

anyway how r u guys doing?
good?
sorry i've been MIA for so long..
i'll try to go to your blogs to look out how are you guys..hehe
hope to see u soon
and hope the sch network allow mi to publish this page