The worst day in my Christian Life

Boohoohoo..i've become such a cry baby again. :~~~(

Last night, without thinking of my consequences, i told my mum about my faith.

It was terrible for her and for me.

I wasn't thinking right until Ms Tan put some sense into me!!

haiz...the whole story must credit to the devil. He took advantage of the time without the person who has been putting sense into my life and totally blinded me and the people around me to do that act.

After my talk with Ms Tan, i felt so regretful. I shouldn't have told my mum now, i shouldn't want more than what i can do. I wanted to go for church camp. and thinking back, God has already told me that i'm not going, but the people in church keep calling me to go, and that really confused me.

what i need to do to go, first tell my mum about everything, and pray for air tickets. and i rashly and irrationally did it. :(

they made it really seems possible but the fact is no.

Last night went better than i thought. I told my mum over the phone and i'm suppose to go home to continue to talk to her when Ms Tan stopped me.

After she put sense into me, she gave me some guidelines to handle this.
i need to stay unemotinal coz it will be very emotional and the devil will use this to make me feel guilty and secondly, i must prevent from fighting with my mum.

we prayed and i felt that it was a very powerful prayer and Ms Tan send me home.

when i reached home, i purposely press the bell. i want to see if my mum will let me in. She did.

than she brokedown. blah blah blah..
all emotional...

i assure her many things and now i need to be the greatest daughter in the world.

People i need prayers, and i really pray that God will answer them and i really expect God to do something regarding this problem.

I need support.....
I know i'm wrong.....
but i'm glad she knows and i hope she will pull through w/o falling into depression.

Ocean Park Hong Kong

went to ocean park just now!! its fun la. but not as fun as Disneyland and Disneysea. haha. got a lot of combi, got amusement parks, butterfly land, dinosaur park, panda habitat, shark n mix fish tank, cable car, mini race car, amazing amazon, and many more. its fun la not exciting thou. hehe coz i dun dare to sit the exciting rides, i hate the feeling of man in machine and fate is set. hahaha bullshit la, i just dun like the scared-i'll-died feeling hehehehe

Me n sis took public MRT there then change bus. The experience was great!! the MRT route will blink one..aiya difficult to describe but its like Japan's but looks newer. haha didn't really explore coz only took one stop. but the general feeling is good! took train to go HongKong island then from there take bus. WAO!! the bus also look super new!! all aircon, bright colour seats, some with seatbeats too!! the engine was smooth, but heard HongKong's busdrivers are famous for their terror driving but it wasn't as bad as i thought it will be. Had a comfortable trip to Ocean Park.

then reach there went to see see play play, but i dun dare to play scary ones la..then my sis complain i'm a boring person. haha, i'm sorry, i'm like that, i dun like to do things i dun like unless like God's calling or what but so far i'm still avioding haha, so pple, dun take me to escape k..or what downtown east, its a waste of money haha

but i enjoyed the mix fish aquarium! got so many dory inside!! hahaha almost all the fish in finding nemo is there, big ones, small ones, dead ones (saw a dead one), haha naugthy ones (swimming here and there chasing other fishes), lazy ones (lying at the bottom) all have, hahaha love the place man..so many different kinds of fishes, think it has more kinds than sentosa. hehe..

then, hmmm...nothing much..things very ex.

then return taking ferry!!! wa....scenary to nice!! enjoy the wind and everything..HOngKong is really a nice place, i dun mind migrating here.

hehe realised that the place better dun miss pple so much..haha may be a good thing or bad..hahaha..k la..

tomorrow going macau, not to gamble la, dun like, will just look around, shop around..hehe..all your presents haven't finish buying..mum unhappy me n sis keep buying for friends..haiz..its a hard barrier to shop for you all also...haiz..how i wish i'm going holiday with friends..hahaha..k la with mum around also not bad..more money but cannot spend..what a delimma..aiya dun knoe how to spell...haha..

kk go bath then dinner liao..then MORE SHOPPING!!!! wahahahaha
see all of you soon!!bye bye!!

hong kong is such a nice place!!!

wahahahahahhahahaha....
just went for a one day tour ystday..hongkong is such a nice place!! love the piers, seaside which is breezy and sunny (I WANA GO SENTOSA PLAY VBALL!!!), love the nu ren jie (woman's street) bought a slig bag, a cap for fuquan and...no more..wanted to buy more stuff..but prices qite steep, taiwan cheaper, chop the price still very steep, my bag is like $16 sing dollar, no not diff from bugis village, the hp chains all $2 buck EACH..taiwan can get $.60 each, each fake brand cap is like $11 each, i chop till $7 bucks, still ex le..wana chop till $5 one, but cannot, then wanted to buy a hp key pad for Ms Tan but cannot chop so left..haha but its a nice place la..

ok have to go each breakfast now...hehe going to each tim sum..btw the wanton noodle is so so so nice!! tim sum also nice!!

see ya! i'll be back soon!!

just finish my taiwan trip

wa lao....i miss home man....

i'm homesick.......

i hate it........ :~~~~~(

i'm now in hongkong, just flew here today.

Taiwan was, ok la..will not say its super fun, or fun...not at all...havse been visiting temples, more temples and even TEMPLE PARKS!!!! wa kaoz.....spiritual attack strong, ALMOST LOST MY FAITH. it was really that serious. the presences there is really strong, there is so so so so so so many pagan worshippers and i'm like GOING MAD!!! THANK GOD HE's with me..otherwise i will lose everything man, because i lost Him. haiz..it is really that serious..

haiz..you all got miss me or not..i miss you all so much le..got visit my blog and wait for me to post of not?? hahaha

my sis accidentally deleted all the photos..only left the last day's photos..so too bad if u miss my face k..hahaha

the scenary is really nice, didn't really buy a lot of stuff, the prices like same as singapore, some even more ex..sian...but i really hope i've got enough things for all of you..

anyway, i've grown fatter!!
Taiwan EVERYWHERE GOT FOOD!! all the road side food..SO NICE!! eat so much things..every meal eat till full...my table small but food alot everything push to me n my sis, eat till we siao, but its nice la..

then we eat, take long bus rides to scenic places so sleep..then everyday eat sleep eat sleep..sure fat..treated like queen here..hahahaha
but i miss you all leh..

wa in taiwan like monkey in a small cage..no hp, no internet, no communications to the outside world, can die..at least now got internet!! I HAPPY TILL SIAO NOW MAN..at pacific cafe, got free internet.

anyway, i really tired of everything, too long holiday, miss singapore so badly, i mean the people.

throughout this trip, God taught me a lot, i thought a lot about my life, the people who came and went, my charactor, my relationship with God and other people and my identity.

haiz ok la..i so sian..i wana go home.....

hope u all dun miss me too much k..
haha see ya on coming WEEK!!
i'll be back on wed...can't wait till then...
enjoy your holiadys guys...
bye bye
BTW!! dun forget to update me the christmas thing k!!

This scene i've seen it the 3rd time now..

noise, cheers, laughter, many many different colour uniforms, many maze, many chao ta faces...

Today is the last day of 30th band NCO camp.

This scence is so familiar, i've gone through it once, saw my dearest junior gone through once, now its at my school.

remembering it 4 years ago, it was a eye opener for me. I saw so many people holding the same positions as me, holding on the the glory of our whole band--the maze, marching with honour on the SAF air base. We were taught by the SPF band heads. They were strict but it was like my usual band drill practise because i was under strict management, Han Ching..haha But the conditions were so bad..under the hot sun for the whole day, short breaks. However the good thing about them was they treat us with honour, they will not pin point any of us or make us do push up like dogs. I like that treatment..hahaha

This happened at the my hardest heart break. i went with no expectations, but God gave me the best thing i could ever have at that point of time. A good friend. A wonderful girl. Peiwei. She was always there for me, although it means sacrificing some of her frenz at the camp. we were always together. She introduced other campmates to me, we laugh together like nobody's business, we ran together in rain, we quene up for food together, we make fun of each other like no one else was there. We just had so much fun like no body else was there.

We were best of friends, for the first time in my life, i had such a close girlfriend.

aiyo to be continue..have to go eat liao..haiz..i think i'm too lac le..i think i have to be more serious about this final term exam..haiz..jiayou ba.. see u all soon

exams are coming!!!

wahahaha..exams are coming..this time i'm not organised at all..i want to trust God, coz God said before not to worry..so i'm doing my best everyday..so far so good..but i think i need more practise..jiayou ba!!

quite lac..hehehe..only got 2 papers can't wait for it to be over!!

Haiz..now wed bible studies stop for 2 weeks..so sian..its ok la..after my exams i want to read my books!! got so many book haven't read!!

think i'm going borders, drink coffee, read book..wa..."heaven"..haha

must save $$$ then can go drink coffee, read book..hehehe

ok la i go back study liao!! everybody jiayou and enjoy!!

My Years

Years passes so so fast..
from sec 1
- friendship problems

to Sec 2:
- knowing the importance of studying
- losing my most percious big fat band senior,

to Sec 3
- knowing my passion for netball
- more commited to band
- my first real relationship, which left me broken and weak, and also
- knowing my first best friend who is closest to my heart (peiwei)who picked me up after my relationship,

to sec 4
- realising my talent in running
- carrying the weight of band
- enjoyed my last year in outram very very much
- Becoming more out spoken
- bondage with friend and teachers increased
- bug the teachers the whole day just to get them to explain the ten years series question
- gave up netball
- regret losing Peiwei
- learnt the commitment in BGR

To JC Year 1:
- Getting over my efforts in Outram and getting ready for JC life
- Pia like hell for F Maths but it doesn't seem enough
- Got to know many nice friends like Alicia, Liting, Wai Ping, Cheng ling, Xiang Xiang, Leemei, Xiao pang, Luo Qi
- Made efforts to meet up with Sec school friends, realising how much i miss them
- Learnt to deal with Ms Tie in Econs club
- try to understand friends

To JC Year 2:
- Stress like hell
- Pia even harder for F maths
- Get to go through thick and thin with my JC friends
- Learn to bond with them intellectually through observing and they really know me well and i am not sure if i know them well too
- trying to conquer A Levels

To Post JC year (This year):
- got in touch with Ms Tan
- Had a lot of problems in my working life
- Proclaim that I am a sinner and Low in spirit
- I want to have a need to have God in my life
- Got to know Christ
- Got know the Glory, power, mercy, love of Christ
This year is not over yet..and i'm having a expectant heart towards God..and i know God will fill me.

Life is all about decisions, God will not force you to decide, because He loves you. GOd's love is so misterious, So warm, So wei da, so qi miao..there's no adjective that can discribe it..i can only say that u have to exprience it yourself.
Its never easy to exprience God..but if what i am expriencing i real, its very very real, then the other else is sure fake, the lies of the devil. IF ANYONE OF YOU EXPRIENCE IT BEFORE, I pray, I pray you will not harden your heart. BeCAUSE WHAT YOU EXPRIENCE IS REAL, the feelings are real,
GOD IS REAL;
JESUS IS REAL
He has done everything, He has shown u the way, What are you waiting for?

Seeing Arafat die, i know the middle east will be very very chaotic, and there will be many pple wanting peace, and like what the bible says, an antichrist will arise to ensure peace in isreal and rebuild the temple of God again. and the rapture will come, and the earth will exprience many disasters..The end days are really coming..I really pray really really pray that all of you will see God, Stop believing in yourself, but God..He will save you if you chose Him, other than that, nothing He can do to save you..
Please...listen...
i'm just very sad lo..that i see how much God loves His pple and so much wanting to save them but they choose the oposite if He is REAL, Others is fake for God said He will not give His glory to another. Only Him..
what i can say is only this much, whether you read or not, whether u believe or not, its up to u..because i know i can only plant the seed and water it. Whether it grows, its on God. I will pray..and i really urge u to take the first step to God, He will do the rest, trust me..TRUST HIM.. GOD BLESS

What are friends for?

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Its like a team, individual alphabets does not make sense, but putting it together, it means: Love, Laughter, Care, Hope, Encouragement, Strength and Fun. And many many more (but my vocab limited sorry..)

Like people, when we're alone, we cannot do as much, but with FRIENDS, together we fall, together we rise.. when we are together, 1 + 1 = more than 2 that is what friends can achieve..

But what if we fall out?
Hurt, Loneliness, hardship, sadness...
where 1 = 1.

In the working world,
when all of us grow older, in like 5 yrs time,
when all our dreams, careers are building, when all of us are too busy to meet each other, where our dreams are different, our career paths are different, our goal are different, when others got our own partners,

What will happen? We are no longer a team, no longer have a common goal (e.g. O levels / A levels)
We will split, Everthing is only left, me n God...no others..its sad, but thats the reality..

So cherish what you have now

How's my new skin?

Hehehehe..nice eh.. love the sliding bears all th pic so cute and colourful..hehehe..just went to read Grace's blog..Ms Tan really made a great impact in her life. Thinking of Ms Tan, now she's very busy, we don't really talk on the phone, don't really go out. I really hope its just a season, after this season she'll be more free..after her UWC started she has been very very very tired..even talk also dont really have strength. So sad right, Kinda miss the times we had so much fun suaning each other and just having fun. I really really hope those times will never change.

Thank God..i couldn't have said that..

Anyway..Peg's exam is over i really hope she did well and come to church again.

Ching and V Jiayou!!

Janice!!! SUPER SUPER DUPER JIAYOU!!!

MehMeh as dead as me la but i still hope she'll be better

All my classmates all doing well i can see..i hope they will continue to excel! ESP Janis and Minsheng

I'm leading worship next week again i chose You rescued me..wa lao its so difficult to sing!! i cannot reach the notes!! ah..GOd help me if it really is what you want me to lead..

Now at home my parents some kinda forgot their quarrel, i'm very relieved..

Now everything seems to be good again

But i hope Jason and Hock Kee will be strengthen too

Ystday got to talk to Winnie and i slot a lot of bible verses..Really Thank God!! I felt that God is really grabbing every opportunity to guide her and love her. Your Will be done Lord. Amen

Went to Eileen for advises last sat, she really gives good advises..hahaha PRAY!! hahaha i didn't thought of that until she told me..i really Thank God for that!!

Now my life is more on school work and my quiet time with God..Not so much of people all over me liao..I'm glad and i know God is teaching me something..

Hey i just wana tell you all, For God is good, His plans are good. We might not see how good they are but God see the big picture..and its a good Big picture..

After knowing God, I really felt a lot of difference. I did many things that i couldn't do, just like that..its really God lo..After this experience i really cannot deny that God is not there..I can't deny the truth, because the truth has set me free...

"I want to love You Lord..Teach me how to please You, Teach me how to obey You, Teach me how to be more Chirst-like"
"You are more faithful, You are more loving, You are more persistent, You are more powerful, You are my God and i'm so proud of You"

"Come to the Father, though your gift is small.
Broken Hears, Broken lives, He will take them all.
The Power of the Word, the Power of His blood,
Everything was done so you would come"

i'm going to chang blogskin

wa lao......i'm going to change blogskin again..this stupid blogskin keep giving me problems.....

Over Night in school

wa...shag...
ystday over night in school
was waiting for my presentation script to come out then meanwhile we all do all our stuff..i did my FA homework la but i think its super effective le!! i usually take days but in that few hours i can do it liao..

now i know y i can write so long blogs

haha now that i'm more busy i cannot really write long blogs...so now i know that y liwei they all's blog entry so short..y mine so long..haha..coz they're too busy to update..like now...i'm so so busy just finished my camp and now doing my presentation on the whole CSP project which is due next tuesday!! so rush man!!

Anyway very busy, next few weeks all got presentation and stuff..wa cham ah...holiday faster come....

I'm feeling better

Hey..my Individual presentation was very very bad but i really thank God its over. Hock Kee consoled me a little..Actually i was not used to the way he lead pple and i told Ms Tan if he do that to me again face to face i'll speak my mind.. but these days after we plan to sponser Zhou Jie.. We were encouraging each other and sharing the lessons we learnt through our walk with God.. meanwhile Jason is entertaining Ai Ping..newcomer in church..Ms Tan's Track n field student.. Haven't really talked to her.. don't wana be like Hui Yun like that so despo to talk to new comers..haha ok la i very bad..i'm still learning how to deal with this kinda pple..haiz..life is full of up and down..but if its for God its more than worthy..coz i know God is always with me with i'm suffing.. =)

Me n Ms Tan are ok liao..hehe..today she's coming down for coaching TP again..i don't know wana go down or not...
firstly is what happened last week and
Secondly i got meeting anyway..but i think the meeting should end before they finish and
Lastly i haven't do my FA homework..but i do liao i also don't know how to hand in coz i'm not coming to school till next monday..haiz..i also don't know..

see how later
but i'm feeling better and i'm trying to not reply on my emotions..bcoz its very unhealthy...haiz..
we're still learning..hehe
Jiayou everybody for your exams!!
Jiayou for those who's deadlines are coming!! (like me)
and EnJOY THOSE WHO ARE HAVING HOLIDAYS!!
hehehe

long time no blog

wao lao...now whats wrong with my bears.......
irritating le..now the chatter box is back to normal my bears all run away from home...bears..come back...i need you

have been super busy with my midterm test
my fiancial accounting so bad only got
51.5/100
22nd percentile
cham...

my stats still ok
45/100
don know what percentile but its below the 50th percentile..sian...

haiz..then i'm in the valley once again...
i knew i was distracted but i couldn't help it..
then i became too busy and i did not read the bible and stuff..
i told God i can't then i got a sign about "God will fins time for you to do His will" then ok la i read the bible but i didn't pray a lot on my own
I can't help it and i try ways and mean to have desire for God but....
anyway i fell...
many things were happening around me, my friends, my family, the circle and place i was in a person's heart was shaken (at least i felt that)..
i questioned my faith..i say i can't feel God..
had a lot of sessions with Ms Tan. She say when we try to get closer to God, the more difficult it will get because of the devil and the spiritual warfare but just remember His blessings that he poured out to you, count your blessings instead of your trails and tribulations...and remember that God is with u..when you need care and love he is always there..like even our earthly parents want to give us good gifts what more about our heavenly father?

but it didn't help much..i can say now that i'm still very emotional n i claim that i don't know the feeling of getting touched by God..i'm not if i did..but i would really wana know the feeling lo..

last sunday the pastor's brother came to preach, he preached about desire and thirst..he said this thing that really struck me..if you haven't been crying for God..haven't been touched for a long time, reflect on your hunger and thirst for God..it might be because of your faith that you are not being touched by God..
my eyes were opened..but i still don't know how about doing it..

then a few days later Ms Tan just briefly mentioned about reading the bible and praying..so i'll do my part and leave the rest to God..

then i felt that because of my fall, i disappointed Ms Tan..and i felt that our relationship (NOT BGR) was getting more and more far away...then came Ai Ping..i don't know..the circle of friends because of a new comer, the old ones get neglected..that was what i felt la..i mean its human nature la..come on..i don't blame any one..i just hope that i don't feel left out..

then ystday they came to train at SMU..i went down after my presentation (which went quite well) ai yo..got to do my homework..brb

ok i'm back..now is during financial accounting lesson..got presentation..sian..haha
ok anyway..i had a quarrel with Ms Tan last nite..i didn't have a quarrel for a long long time..but i was quite angry but i don't want our relationship to end up like me and peiwei's relationship..

But as she was explaining, i can't forgive..i don't know y then i was forced to say out my reasons y i was angry and walked away without telling her or asking for any reasons..haiz..anyway she like dun know call me how many times..i offed my phone bcoz i didn't want to answer her questions..aiyo have to go church for BS liao...
leading worship later..wish me luck..bye bye

busy busy busy

wao..want to know my past week? let me tell you.

Monday, Financial Accounting (FA) meeting n keyboard lesson.
Tuesday, whole day class n LTB meeting n FA homework
Wednesday, Study Bible Studies test n bible studies test
Thursday, Study for FA mid term exam
Friday, Car wash fund raising for LTB project
Saturday, FA mid term exam n LTB meeting n nite bike till sunday morning
Sunday, after nite nike, church service, Preaching class, Go hospital see church fren

wao...shiok man
i was praying that i will be attentive during church coz after the whole night of night bike i might not be survive church..
and i did!! my nite bike was from 1030pm to 7am
From SMU to
clementi -- the hills was killing
Nus -- after the hills got lost, extra meters cycled
West Coast Park -- play game,my group gave up..too tired
Esplanade -- went crazy, too tired till crazy, sang david tao song all around while playing game
Mustafa -- dead..but was in front, frenz encouraged me to go on
Paya lebar -- numb..am i cycling? i can't feel my limbs, but i'm still panting..(got lost twice here)
East Coast Park -- jia you jia you!! reaching! reaching!! ... y still haven't reach... am i there yet? no? hiaz...

Finally reached ECP after Travel">traveling north, west then east over 50KM!!!!!
dead...
then went to eat MAC breakfast, fell asleep when muffin was entering my mouth..hahahaha..its s very funny position to fall aslp but the sleeping feeling was great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha..then slpt on the bus home, then reach home sleeo around 1.5 hrs then go church, was late..haha but lucky service started late too..
then i was normal and attentive, lucky preaching was short, did not fall asleep AT ALL!!! then eat then preaching class..DID NOT FALL ASLP TOO!!!
then went to see a church fren Jack at NUH with Ms Tan, Hock kee, Jason and Louis..
till around 9 pm..I DID NOT SLEEP AT ALL LE!!!
I'm so PROUND OF MYSELF!!! WAHAHHAHA

THANK THE GREAT GOOD LORD!! remember my little prayer? He remembered and gave me all the strength i need!!!!!

i really cannot deny that there is no God in this world and this God is not Jesus! remembering my day when i worship my ancesters and idois, What a different feeling!! its a RELATIONSHIP with God. If others are real, y can't they satisfy my spirit? y do i not feel joyous like now? Y do i have super natural strength? and most importantly, Y do I LOVE? not in BGR case..i'm not that swallow..LOVE as in LOVing everybody, bcoz I know my God LOVES all, So i should do so too..and He has helped me alot.. to LOVE EVEYRYBODY as well As HIM WHO LOVES US.
He met me off track, and walk the difficult path with me back on track. Giving me strength, love and Purpose.

Thank you Lord, Love YOU!
Teach me, bend me as long as it is according to Your will.

my blog song

hey hey!!
I was not aware that my blog song is "when you believe" a song i loved very much from the cartoon prince of egypt. this song always sparks me up when i'm down
and you know what? currently i'm not very down because i still have much faith in God. however, God put me in SMU for a reason. its not for me to Boast in my strength where i always like to be in a leadership position. It is for me to boast in my WEAKNESS. I got the hint that God put me there to test my faith. I want to know my Faith level too and i want to run this race with God. i have been having alot of encouragement these days as i surrender to God my weakness. i know i still got faith but i was falling asleep when i was perviewing my blog when i heard this song:

Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could[wwoowwyes]
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe
Mmmyeah

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer bird
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My hearts so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill (Mmm)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe
[Hey]
[Ooh]

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see the way, get through the rain
A small but still, resilient voice
Says hope is very near, oh [Oh]There can be miracles (Miracles)
When you believe (when you believe, yeah) [Though hope is frail]
Though hope is frail [It's hard]
It's hard to kill (Hard to kill, oh, yeah)
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve, oh)
When you believe somehow you will (Somehow, somehow, somehow)
Somehow you will (I know, I know, know)
You will when you believe [When you]
(Ohoh)
[You will when you]
(You will when you believe)
[Oohoohooh]
[Oh...oh]
[You will When you believe]
[You will When you believe]

i got a revelation that God is there lo..Just keep on believing..if you keep on believing, praying although you feel like you're praying to the wall, By your faith, God may grant you miracles, you can't achieve it..thats the part of the song that i disagree..but Faith is a big Word, which can move mountains...
So when God is putting you to a test..He encourages you also!!

Do you know why God wants to put us through test and trails?
Its not because He wants to test us. God already knows every thing about us! Why does He needs to test us. So i got to this conclusion that, Trails or tests are meant to SHOW TO US something. e.g. our faith level, Our persistence in Christ etc. And all these things that we learn from our tests helps us to grow, help us to know more about ourselves. And so looking at the big picture, these are also events that builds us up, strengthen us, sharpen us. Amen? praise the Good Lord for the revelations!!!

And after knowing this, I also know that God wants us to start from the bottom. When we fail, we will work harder, learn more effectively. So i'm also holding onto this when i fail i tell myself God wants me to do better and God wants me to be humble by starting from the bottom.

so pple JIAYOU!! He knows all our thoughts and action. He is always there! and He will hold you when you fall, love you no matter what you have done. It is time to PLEASE HIM!!

finally again....

Wao!! Finally blog is done..found a culprite that was a mistake on my part..enjoy my blog...visitors are less and less..so sad....
Please tell me if the font is still too light..cant trust my screen liao..haha
need your blessings!
changed the word comments to blessings! hahaa

hey

Now my msg box ok liao the blog itself got problem..sian ah..do you think i should change a blogskin?
need you comments please
ai ya think lessor and lessor pple blog these days..sian also
btw i got wireless in my room! but strength low..but can surf can liao
Now on my bed..hahaha i go pao milo now..then can enjoy surf net on my bed and drink milo..hahaha

help!!!

hey can some one help me..i dun know wat is wrong with the tempate..
when i see it at home its ok
then on the lappy its bad

after i correct it from my house com then the whole template dun know wat happen..
ah peg ah..help....

hey can help me see if you can see my tagboard and clicks? my lappie cannot see le

finally..

hey...my blog is finally done..found it too black and white so added some colours to it..
anyway..ysterday's worship was a disaster..Initially i asked Ms Tan to help me pei yue then i told her i'm going to sing "We Fall Down" and "Give Me One Pure and Holy Passon". Then she say she know the 1st one but the 2nd very difficult. so i told her nvm we just sing, no need music. So i happily go to the "cell group" yesterday, taking a cab down coz all the bus except my bus came. i reached like half an hour earlier before the foundation than got to eat, and then th guitar in church is quite low..doesnt sound nice then we try to put the note higher..then Ms Tan wana think make my worship session sound better..so she tried..she worked really hard.. :) it was really nice of her..then, the room was really hot the air con think never on then i was very hot..haha then we didn't start well la..singing out of key coz we adjusted to the higher one which was too high..the low one was too low..haha then quite cork up la..then the 2nd even more..then ijust like leave it to Ms tan to do the worship liao..haha then i did sya abit la..but really cannot coordinate with Ms Tan..think if we got more time..super cork up..we end with Where is the Love..looking at the lyrics it says alot of things about the world today..
it goes like this:

What’s wrong with the world, mama
People living’ like they ain’t got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to the things that’ll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here living’
In the USA, the big CIA
The bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you’re bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that’s exactly how anger work and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y’all, y’all

*People killing’, people dying’
Children hurt and you hear them crying’
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
‘Cause people got me, got me questioning’
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain’t the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane?
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don’t belong
Nations dropping’ bombs
Chemical gasses filling’ lungs of little ones
With the ongoing’ suffering’ as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the loving’ really gone
So I could ask myself really what is going’ wrong
In this world that we living’ in people keep on giving’ in
Making’ wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respecting’ each other, deny thy brother
A war is going on but the reason’s undercover
The truth is kept secret, it’s swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where’s the love, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the truth, y’all, come on (I don’t know)
Where’s the love, y’all
*
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I’m getting older, y’all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money making
Selfishness got us following our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids want to act like what they see in the cinema
Yo’, whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we’re spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feeling under
That’s the reason why sometimes I’m feeling down
There’s no wonder why sometimes I’m feeling under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
*

then i shared my testimony of my conversion. think i did it quite badly..haha Ms Tan says must write it down then discuss of a certain aspect of my christian life. tok alot of jokes la..till they keep laughing then when i wana talk about God i like didnt humble myself. I said I dun know wat happened suring my conversion. Actually is God's work within me. keeping my open to Him, and thanks to Him revealing Himself to me, and starting to build a relationship with me and His patience all the way. I really dun want to back slide. its not that being a christian is very good, shuang. But because He is too good and i cannot deny that He is not there and hm...He is my purpose..haiz i dun know..i need to still learn alot alot alot more..

ya then cai yun taught me this lesson..then went for supper..alot of pple went.. Paul, James, me, Louis, Xiao Ling, Khal, Hui Yun, Jason, Alice, Ms Tan.

then after that Jason Keep saying i'm very funny and did encourage me coz my worship thing didnt go well..haha..
ok la..think we're very friendly, then he still call me to treat him coz i just got my commission suddenly..ya things between us are getting clearer and clearer..so its good la

thanks for reading to the end!! hahaha i'll visit all your blogs too!!
haha..ok..good bye!!

Thank you

hey..thanx for all the comments for my new blog skin..but the heart shape like cant appear heart shape become X. so sad...haha
then no title..no comments so sad..

pueh..finally...

Wa..so many things happened since i've blogged..
my com got virus then cannot delete the virus..sent it to CIT helpdesk
wait for my quene for 1 HOUR!! then finally my turn then i wait wait wait till fell asleep..then when i wake up the person still repairing... -__- then i left..later then callect my dear lap top..then i went to Far East eat burger king..Forgot to bring my FA homework to do..then read my Foundation lessons book and bible..then received a call to collect my lappy then go back then i go library then go for project..
haiz..we got this LTB project..so many problems. i think most importantly the team spirit is not there. then the TA came and help us. we do the proposal and today's presentation do from 6 to 10!! then i go PS buy my dinner then go home eat and watch TV. I seriously think watching TV is super brainwashing. After i watch i haven't bathe, havent do my presentation slides which i am in charge of! then bathe then do till 230am!! i'm dying....but ok la i'm feeling ok now..got very excited bcoz of my new blog skin!! added a tagboard and the bible search thing. going to add a counter. thanks to my uni fren Elaine. she's like super resourceful! tell mi go this go that webbie to download this download that then help mi solve this problem of cant type in my journals..THANK GOD!!

think my journal going to be super long coz the box super thin..haha ok la..i'm ending

i'm saying "HI JANIS AND MINSHENG!!" my uni buddies!! hahaha.
leave me comments!! chat in tag board le!! haha
see ya!

NO TIME~~!!

aiyo..busy busy..
tml got FA quiz and FA homework which i havent touch yet
then thursday need to hand in communications assignment which is a persuasive letter which will be graded then
Friday got to hand in Stats assignment which i'm only half way there
die ah
think today have to finish FA hw then Tomolo do Com hw..then Thurs do stats..die ah..i scared i cant finish my FA and com..haiz...
think i really get my lesson
stats homework was given last week..
FA also..then i last min then do
haiz..but after class do i really sian le..ok ok i'll try this week..
saturday is homework day
i cant do homework at home..i'll end up slacking the whole day..
must go mac do..
haiz..wish me luck!!

My team advisor wrote

Hi Siew Choon.

Thanks for replying. It is indeed interesting and exciting to hear from you and what you have to say! I am very glad to know that you are so exciting about things of God and that is indeed very encouraging.

I am grateful to know that you did have prior experience to camps and I suppose your expertise will serve well in this project. Nevertheless time is pressing and deadlines are coming, hence it is crucial for the team to put their acts together.

As for me, on is not exactly the word. Just be passionate. Passion is a very powerful factor. So powerful that it drives people to do things beyond their wildest imagination. Simply the reason why the film of our Lord Savior is Passion, The Christ.

I myself worshipped in New Creation Church. Bible study is on on Friday night and Campus ministry on Saturday evening, while Sunday will be the beloved Sabbath meeting.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with been zealous for things of God because it is that ever living water that keeps us going.

"Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be open onto you... if you ask for a bread, will your father gives you a stone? If you ask for a fish, will your father gives a snake? If your earthly father that's fill with sin knows how to give good gifts to you, what more your heavenly Father in heaven?" - my own paraphrase

Have you tried asking yet? Never restrict God. Since the very MOMENT you received Christ into your life, the Holy Spirit has ever since then gashed into your body, marking you for greatness and understanding. (It's biblical. Show you the reference when we are in contact.) Holy Spirit, been the third trinity of God is there to pour forth revelations and AGAPE (unconditional LOVE) in your life, which brings forth Hope that never ceases.

In that case, I challenge you to ask Daddy God for a hunger for THE WORD and let your spiritual eyes to be open. God obviously meant for you to be in His house but that doesn't mean that God only wants you to receive and be fed in there only!

In every stage in life, there is a particular calling. Now in varsity, the obvious is you are called to study. Learn to prioritise. In the event when school work clashes with services, there must be a way out. Personally if work clashes with Bible Study, I will put my work as priority simply because as a student, I have a right to put my work first. But definitely that is not going to stop me from trusting God for no clashes. However, Sunday services will always have a special place because it is the REST day, the Sabbath. No work is able to take me away from this day. There is still much more to share with you, but we will save it when we meet face to face.

Know that our God is a very practical God. God is not someone airy fairy, that only exist in a religon and Sunday services. Christianity is NOT a religion but a relationship. By accepting Christ means that you accept a new identity and a new, ever lasting relationship.

Enjoy whatever you can and DO NOT WORRY about everything. In short, God just wants to see you happy. He just wants you to be loved by Him endlessly, unceasingly. Enjoy every second of your life simply because it is worth it. Living with Jesus is a stress free and worry free relationship and let not the "calling or purpose" bug you. What is of use the big things in life when you do not even know that Jesus loves you and wants you to be happy.

Think about this. If you have a daughter and you are trying to groom her to be the best whatever you want her to be simply because you love her but in the process your daughter is trying to perfom so hard in order to meet your demands. In the midst of it, the feel of parent-child relationship is lost and she does not dwell in your love even though you really do want her to know that you love her.

That is a very wrong image of God many Christians have. They think that God has call them to do something, big or small. In the midst of discovery, they mistakeningly play God and try to achieve it.

God DO have BIG plans for you Siew Choon, that is because you are precious and unique in His sight. However, if it is His plans, HE WILL SEE TO IT, not you. The very aim of a parent is just hoping their kids to know and enjoy the love they have for them. Exactly or if not double and triple the desires of our Daddy God, wanting to express His love to you.

If you want to love God, enjoy your life first. Thank Him and praise Him for He only has good thoughts and plans for you.

Learn to see the heart of God, as a Father, as a friend, as a lover. Let Him anchor your life and you are in for the road to glory with no returns.

Take care,
You are precious and beloved,

Peng

Sorry Yang..

Hey pple
Today i so so tired..
Last nite went to sabo my sis with her friends.
It was terrible..for her..

First we went to buy durians for the actual treat she said..then i tag along..
then she bluff her to the indoor stadium..

then she was first carried by the guys to the cosy bay which is at the indoor stadium then she's suppose to finish the whole tub of strawberry ice cream..then hahaha came the green tea ice cream..dun see its green green very nice hor..inside got wasabei!! hahaha..then she thought is chocolate chip coz the wasabei she thought is chocolate chip..hahaha..she got choked la..but manage to recover from it before the other sabos..then i brought the ugliest pyjamas for her..hahaha...super ugly..then she's suppose to wear then sing the lunar 7th month stage hahaha..so funny..she cant do it la in the end she use her butt to write her chinese name..hahaha so funny..
then her friends use stockings two put a potato, then one put egg tofu haha..then tie around her waist..hahaha let your imagination go wild..hahaha.. then she's suppose to get one person to sing a birthday song to her then she's going to blow the party thing that go "pooo!" then the paper will roll out one..haha into the person's face..hahaha luckily the guy agreed la..haha

then she's suppose to eat half of the water melon with her hands..while she was eating they put the other half of the melon (taking out the meat inside and replace with flour) then put it on her head!! hahaha..it looks so funny!! and the helmet is so heavy!! haha ok la veyr bad..

then the qian bian wen da ti..they put flour ad wipp cream smash it into her face..aiyo..super cham..but all of us including her was laughing away..hahaha..heng she can play..otherwise if its me i sure angry one..

then i think like smash her 5 times ah..then they bought a pandan cake then all put the wipp cream on top then put a candle then sing birthday song to her..hahaha then in the end also end up in her face..haha

then put the banana on the tree call her without her hands pluck it down but the tree isn't very tall la..then she cant peel the skin then the other guy take the banana put in the flour then she have to do the same..then she manage to get one piece out then eat it..er xin..

then we all got campaige then all of us yam seng..haha..i really told all of us is the same le!!
but they gave my sis drink vinegar!! ai yo..by the time she already cannot differentiate which is vinegar which is campaige liao.. but anyway she drank half of it... ops.. aiyo very bad la..

then i also gor bring her clothes and stuff for her to clean up and change.. haha then she look so clean then we ate durians..hahaha..it ended

with a new keyboard, waterbottle and 2 thongs.. her presents..
it was a really fun day..
but thin kwas very very bad..
btw..my senior sent me some thing that made me feel so loved by God..let u all see..

SMU ROCKS!

hey! SMU is fun! got lots of project..starting to like school..esp the wireless haha..
thats great! but work coming getting use to be a diligent worker like wat the bible says..haha
project group some are fun
but problems are arising..trouble..
i have been preparing ms tan they all's teachers day present
keep going out with Jason..coz he's the only one available to come buy presents with me. i asked the rest but nobody wana come with me.... sad..
anyway went out with him on sunday, monday, tuesday nite
he was late on monday and tuesday nite
monday coz i purposely super duper late
suan him on tuesday till he's super guilty haha. he keep saying sorry sorry hahaha
think ms tan didnt like her present.. sad.. anyway the rest i think they should like it
Paul love his carebear..haha and luckily the carebear wasnt so expensive
we last min do their cards..but luckily paul wasnt very angry
sorry peg u didnt get to sign their cards
but i wrote your name down

got to know Jason alot
i hope he dun get the wrong idea
i dun think i wana settle yet
coz i still dun know how to handle
i'll leave it to God. If He wants me to learn, i will try my best hoping nobody get hurt by the end of the day. but i think it'll be very difficult
some more it makes it more difficult when we're i the same church
i really hope God will reveal His plans to us soon..

suddenly thought of the dream i had a few weeks ago
i dreamt of Chris. i dreamt holding hands with him!! gosh....
the feeling was great but in the end i didnt choose to go steady with him
i'm not sure that the revelation i get is the correct one. i know i shouldnt be doubting but i really think its impossible..sorry God..i think i really need to pray about it

anyway how r u guys doing?
good?
sorry i've been MIA for so long..
i'll try to go to your blogs to look out how are you guys..hehe
hope to see u soon
and hope the sch network allow mi to publish this page

post peg bday

hey..you know wat..the last post i write like super long then when i press published the next thing i saw is "error"

SIAN..

anyway..you'll know the details from the others blog la hah..

today chruch was ok..but i went back after lunch..
find like very out..
they like see us as invisible..
haiz..anyway mi and peg find one corner than read our bible..
i read till fell asleep..hahaha..as usual..

then that Jason run here run there but still want meet us..in the end i went to my grand ma house then peg go home eat..
haha..then like 7 plus then Jason call back..he still tell us 5 plus call us..then 7 plus then call say he wana eat dinner outside, call mi dun eat at grandma's house..
you all dun think y y ok..we still feel very frenly..
seriously, personally..my mind have thoughts for him but my heart dun have..
then today when i was jotting down questions, i saw this quote i quoted from I Kissed Dating Goodbye
its says "You've given so many parts of your heart to short term relationship, what is left for your husband?"
the book actually encourage young pple like us to get into relationships UNLESS we are prepared to get married..Meanwhile, focus your eyes on God..Praise Him whole heartedly..

"First Seek His Righteouess, then all these things will be granted to you"

yup..so i'll keep praying for revalations and guide from God..

Actually i got confession to make..haha
i havent been praying..unless on wed and sun..
think it made mi less sensitive to God..
Actually i can feel abit but not very strong..now is not at all..very blur..haiz..muz change my lifestyle liao.. but i always feel very uncomfortable praying at home..
when i pray my sis will always chong into the room..its so DISTURBING!!! and spiritually hurting..haiz..
think i'll have to pray in the toilet..
but i always pray very loud..i scared she hears mi also...
haiz...

anyway..you know i always have the thought of my family when i'm praising God in Church..
haiz...quite disturbing also..got to ask Ms Tan liao..

ok la dun write liao..got to read up for tml's lesson..
bye bye

Today is a super fun day!!

morning went for the stats class till 10 then go lib wait for project meeting till 12
then while waiting chatted with liting..wanted to meet her but calculated the time very short can only meet her for one hour
then she suggested mi to crash NTU!!

IT WAS A GREAT SUGGESTION!!

then i went off early from project meeting but from wat i see i cant be on time if i take public transport..so i scarifice take cab..wa!! 11.70!! haiz..but i fore see that it will be fun so took the investment..haha

anyway went there meet liting then we take bus to NTU
then reached the LT called ching n v but nobody ans
so we tok cok till lesson time then i turn back saw both of them 2 rows behind mi and they didnt see mi.. -_-"""

then call them to come down sit with us..haha
then we tok more cok then got alot of funny incident

then when the prof came mi..my 1st reaction :"WA!!! SO SHINY!!"
he's blading..
hahaha..then vjie dropped her eraser in front call the person infront to help her pick up then we suan her say she wana pao the person in front..hahaha
then ching took my high lighter then ask mi wana aim who.. who shuai here..
then i point to the "shiny one" hahahaha..
had a good laugh there

tok alot of rubbish too..

but think the way they conduct their learning not very good..
lectures are too big..cant shot questions and not every one s listening..worst of all the atmosphere there very stress..

suddenly like SMU abit..haha

k la..then i went to eat the 1.39 icecream with liting..
pokia ah..
but heng today take my pay liao
1400plus..hahaha
this month dun need to chou le..haha

anyway..now looking for worship songs..learning some..hope can lead worship one day :)

ok i go sleep le..
nite ntie

blogger, i'm sick of you

actually quite sian of blogger..
anyway, today bible quiz real bad
i didnt really study for it
so of course lose to peg's team la..
haha
made alot of noise today with peg..
feeling a bit childish and naughty
haha..
anyway..i very sick of blog liao le..
skool starting, projects are starting..sian ah..

After The Camp

i'm half died..
as you get older the lesser zeal u have for camps?

i still can remember when i was in band in outram, i love to organise camps..i love it..haha..

But now.. "camp ah? sian ah.."

haha..the camp, after the first the i already like lobster..it was quite ok..not VERY fun..juz ok..was very tired and drained..wasnt enthu at all for the camp..got to know the pple in my group..quite fun pple, enthu..but all of us have something in common.. slack..haha
anything we can sit, we'll all sit down and after every meal all of us will stone..hahaha

aiya..gtg
got convocation later at suntec
see tmr's papers k
bye bye!!

The Camp

how long didn't I blogged? 1 week? haha
many things happened within this week, my god ah ma died, fighting to no go pai pai really left mi spiritually very drained..And suffered post pai pai syndrome.. Felt so so bad..Went to church and cried so badly..

then Monday went again..But this time I was praying to God when I took the joss stick..I keep saying I'm not worshipping the died person..And amazing I didn't felt the feeling the first time I pai..
Ms Tan said God knows the heart so I guess He helped mi not feeling it

anyway..Then sun liwei's bday watch fireworks and some sabotaging haha..Would love to see the pic wee lip took..haha

then today..Went to SMU for CCA day..signed up so many cca..Except archery (sorry peg) the booth was like the last few and I've joined so many so didn't want to sign any more "empty promises" coz I really think I'm going to stick to band

then the funny thing is I joined for band this game which is like 100sec no NG the nai ge and chen chen's show..We are suppose to say a speech in the counter we play before we can play then anything wrong have to re do..haha
then ours is the last..wahahahaha!! The person incharge hinted mi!! coz I too kan chong!! wahahaha!! Then my ping pong ball drop she also never stop mi. Thank God.
then the last counter we're suppose to do a human primand ( ai ya dun know how to spell la) the human triangle la..then the person say halfway then let ur pass liao..hahaha
then we did 8 counters in 6.24 sec won by 6 sec!! wahahaha $1000!!!!! but to the band fund..sian...

anyway it was a good day..but ended off quite badly..my flute skills sucks big time..haiz..quite depressed by that..but after talking to the taxi uncle and ching felt better.. :) now ok le..

anyway tml orientation camp liao.. hope i have fun.. dun really have high hopes for it..coz its in skool and we'll be sabo till siao..anyway..

keep in touch k pple??!!
nite nite

a really fun and unforgetable day

WA!! worte a super long blog last nite then i go press the BACK button when i press forward no more liao!!!! BOOHOOHOO!!!

anyway...haiz...
have been studying for my statistics test these few days..study slp eat watch tv...rotting..haha

then..sat actually meeting samuel to get my discman back..then this flirty samuel meeting her girlfren-to be (not girlfren yet) then dun wana meet mi liao..that pig! then i went to Louis's birthday with Ms Tan and Jason..

his house very nice!! the design of the house very cosy..the design of his bed room also..so creative!! his cardboards all on the ground below his bed! i dun know how to describe to u all la..but its very nice jiu dui liao..

then we went home..Ms Tan left mi at bradell then i take MRT home..she's sick again..fever and sore throat..so to let her rest earlier i went home myself..

on the way home..i was thinking abt wat i want to do with my life..
my purpose is to follow God..but wat i wana do with my life?
came across this quote
"The gift of Life is from God. What you are going to do with it will be a Gift to Him"
came across this quote quite a number of times liao..it didnt struck mi..untill now..

i'm still thinking abt it..
wat is my passion? wat i want to do with my life to make it colourful and meaningful?

you guys le?

then came sunday...thinking of it makes mi laugh..haha

went to church with Hui Ching..
i'm so happy she wana come..i know its hard for her..its uncomfortable..at first it was like that for mi also..but luckily things werent that bad when i started to juz focus on God..but now sitll cant really focus very well but i'm still learning..haha..

but i'm glad ching came with us..i'll be looking forward to her coming the next time..might not be soon..haha..i'll still continue to pray for u girl...

anyway..after church peg ching n jason came to my house..i was suppose to teach peg and ching maths..then they'll be staying to watch the fireworks..
then when they came..i juz throw my notes to ching..hahaha..didnt really teach her..but i hope the noes will help..hahaha..then i also dun know wat is peg writing..wat transformation..i only learn how to transform graph then she write this draw that i also dun know wat she drawing..hahaha..then also offer her my notes..but she dun want..hahaha..

then mi n ching were studying in my room when nurse peg came with the blood pressure measurer..haha then we measure all ours then nurse ching take down all our readings and analyse who most unhealthy...was it mi? haha..then we measure calf, wrists then mi n ching were thinking of measuring the head..then i thought sure cannot one la..the neck maybe can.. hahaha!! then both of the reaction so big..say will die..will be struggled..hahahaha..i didnt thought of that!! hahaha..i'm such a good doctor eh..hahaha..rite my nurses? hahahaha..

then we ordered KFC..then eat eat eat..then the HUI CHING eat till my carpet got so many crumbs!!!!
then eat halfway the fireworks came!!! aiyo!! oily hands how to take photos!! anyway the fireworks were great..next week is hong kong one..this one is by the US pple..

got pic for u all..but havent scan yet..
later later..haha

then the JASON went to throw pillows!! one attack 3!! never die before..
then we have a very tiring pillow fight..hahaha..was sweating like hell..
in the end of cuz we win..then we messed up jason's dearest hair..hahaha..then take photos..but i think the photos will not be nice..coz all wrong timings..hahaha..

then they left.. then all the place all got pillow!! below the com table. behind the monitor...ai yo!!

haha..but it was fun..haha..

then monday went to study and my grand ma's house then went to watch King Arther..
quite nice actually..

aiyo i no time liao..
tell u all another day..
bye bye..
leave mi comments!!

The Oneness Of God

Had a lesson on the oneness of God on wed..its good..really did answers my question but i would not say that i comprehened it completely..
Anyway i'm reading this book called The Oneness Of God
this is wat it wrote..some parts only la..not all..

from the old testament:
Deut 6:4 "Hear, O Isreal: the Lord our God is one Lord"
Exo 20:3, Duet 5:7 "Thou shalt have no other Gods before me"
Exo 20:5 God emphasized this command by stating that He is a jealous God
Duet 32:39 God said there is no other god with Him.
2 Sam 7:22, 1 Chronicles 17:20 "There is none like the Lord and there is no God beside Him
Psalm86:10 "He alone is God"

Many times the Bible calls God "the Holy One" (Psalm 71:22; 78:41; Isaish 1:4; 5:19; 5:24) but never "the holy two, "the holy three," or "the holy many."

A common remark by some trinitarians about the Old Testament doctrine of the oneness of God is that God only intended to emphasize His oneness as opposed to pagan deities but that He still existed as a plurality. However, if this conjecture were true, why did not God make it clear? Why have the Jews not understood a theolody of "persons" but have insisted on an adsolute monotheism?

The New Testament Teaches There Is but One God
Jesus emphatically taught Duet 6:4, calling it the first of all the commandments (mark 12:29-30) The New Testatment presupposes the Old Testament teaching of one God and explicitly repeats this message many times

"Seeing it is one God, which shal justify" (Romans 3:30)
"There is none other God but one" (1Corinthians 8:4)
"But to us there is but one God, the Father" (1 Corinthians 8:6)
"But God is one" (Galatians 3:20)
"One God and Father of all" (Ephesians 4:6)
"For there is one God" (1 Timothy 2:5)
"Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devild also believe, and tremble" (James 2:19)

Again, the Bible calls God "the Holy One" (1John 2:20). There isone throne in heaven and one sits upon it (Revelation 4:2)

Conclusion
Today, God still demands a monotheistic worship of Him. We in the church are heirs of Abraham by faith, and this exalted position demands that we have the same monothistic faith in the God of Abraham (Romans 4:13-17). As Christians in the world we must never cease to exalt and declare the message that there is only one true and living God.

So...Eileen..i know u will have alot of question but it is important that u know who u are worshipping and believing in..u wana meet mi? we discuss abt it?

JIAYOU CHUN!!!

where should i start?
erm..the chinatown pt church?
guessed peg have told u guys everything..

then the ktv..nothing much..Chris got mi a bday present..its a precious tot cross saying "Jesus Loves You" its nice, pretty, but i cant hang it..haha love it thou.. :)

then came to work today..so many mistakes..i cant survive man...wun be going back anymore man..otherwise my colleague will give mi qi si..hahaha

anyway..had been busy doing my community service stuff..i cant join the normal SMU freshman ones..coz i missed the first meeting and the rest all the activities too many things going on..
However thanx to cheng, i've got lobang.. i hope i really can participate till i finish my 80 hours..commitment is really needed..and God's help..

anyway..i hope everything will be fine..theses days life isnt that smooth..
and i know my nightmare is coming..soon my family will find out..and i know i cant keep it anymore..but i know i would not need to worry..coz God has good plans for mi..i juz hope i'll stick to Him..and not compromise..a big war is coming..

Had a vision that day at chinatown pt...
i saw a very very white wall..
there was a door in the middle..and it opened..
its a very very dark room inside..
i was scared even to look into the room
then the paster started saying abt spiritual war

i didnt understand until i discussed it with Ms Tan

She said God wants to tell mi there are no grey areas..its either you are on the white side or the black side..so you're either with God or with the devil..there is a very very clear line..no in betweens, no grey areas..
suddenly i remembered of the things i've been doing
i have been thinking its ok its ok to do this and that..i tot God will compromise..i tot God will forgive coz of the situation that is hard to not compromise..however rules and rules..
i have been in the dark room all the while!
SCARY....
so this taught mi not to compromise no matter wat the situation

THANK GOD FOR OPENING MY EYES AND TEACHING MI..

Tml i'm starting to study for my Stats test..
pple help mi can? dun call mi out but keep intouch with mi? can chio bus? haha
You're doin mi a great favour!!

btw..my colleague keep saying i'm fat!!!! that pig!! i'm goin to eat lesser..i'm going to start running!!
deng zhe qiao!!!

i'll still praise Him

ysterday..work was ok..got good deals..
Finally it is over...

i got this community service i got to do this week..but thursday morning i called the person who said he will call mi to update mi abt the first meeting but nv call..

he told mi alot of pple turned up so those who didnt turn up cant join liao..
it left me abt sad..coz i've been waiting for this for very long..then suddenly he come tell mi cant join liao..i very sad..

then now have to find other things to join to make up my 80 hours..
but thank God i check my SMU email ystday got a national heritage board need pple..but they sent on thurs then i last nite then check and replied..dun know can get it or not coz it really sound exciting..

then juz now i juz receive my fren's email that the children foundation need pple..so i'mtrying that one out also..hope SMU can count that one as my hours too..

ystday nite church got this talk at another church..peg went and she said is very good..i'm going later..hope i dun fall asleep..haha..kk update u guys again abt the talk!

ohya...forgot to tell u all..i'm suppose to meet Chris tml to return him all the things..the christian cds all that and he owe mi chng's present money..
then we cant arrange a time tml..so he called..but he like dun wana talk to mi too long like that..it made the situation quite awkward..
i think i hurt him abit deep is it? otherwise he wun like that rite? wat u all think?

i like this..anybody wana employ mi?

see the sticker? its real addidus ok...hahaha 

my new cap!! 17bucks only! 

we take ourselves..haha 

its still in ours hands..hahaha 

three of us at fulleton!! 

fulleton is in ours hands!! hahaha 

post celebration picture taking session!! hahaha..at esplanade!! 

my and peg!! nice pic eh..ching dun jealous...haha 

twist twist twis!! aiyo..ching..y u go dig the statue's nose! 

my birthday celebration!! 

which rank are you?

1st Msg:
2329pm
by Niao

2nd Msg:
2342
by Edric

3rd Msg: 1st Msg after 12am! immediately
1200
by Hui Shan

4th:
1201
by Edmund

5th:
1203
by Eileen

6th:
1211
by Li Wei

7th:
1216
by Peg

8th:
1221
by Kelvin (my ast manager)

9th:
1224
by kum yeow

10th:
1232
by Huiling

11th:
1235
by Hui Jing

12th:
1237
by De Fang

13th
0119
by Hui Ching

14th
0122
by Sophia (ossmb)

**Here start liao..all the NS pple early in the MORNING all come msg..and my phone was not on silent**

15th
0538
by ShanJing

16th
0603
by jiemin

17th
0619
by Chris

18th
0714
by jacelyn

19th
0757
by defang again

20th
0859
by Daniel--wishing mi merry christmas

21st
0902
by Leemei

22nd
0907
by Chai Hong

23rd
dun know wat time

24rd
dun knw wat time..online one
Xue fen

25th
dun know wat time also
fuquan

26th
0946
meh meh

27th
0954
Ada (compass pt staff)

28th
1016
yeling--sang mi a happy birthday song

29th
1100
joseph--wanted to buy mi a present but dun know wat to get

30th
1128
Thomas--my funan colleague

31th
1229
Janice--wishing mi Happy new year

32th
1253
Meiyuan

33th
1348
Janice--wishing mi happy birthday

34th
1453
Kee Hong again

35th
1516
Shi Pei--my Jcmate

36th
1721
Kian hai--my e club fren

BELATED
1st
0001
Jennifer :)

2nd
0234
Jeremy--my jjc band senior

A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY WITH MY FRENZ

hey hey..
today went to orchand to meet Cheng and Alicia then we proceed to Swensens..
Got a nice place to sit..
then I told them abt my no-meat-fast..They wasn't very happy that I'm doing it..

but anyway, we ordered before Liting came coz she went to NTU to take the Eng test and Cheng have to leave early for her casting...Hope she got in..

Then when we finish then Liting came..then when LiTing was eating cheng and beaver wana go Toilet..I was talking to Liting and Liting's face blocked the counter unknowingly so I didn't notice they were buying the cake for mi

then we light up the candle then I sang myself a birthday song till too excited blow off 2 candles hahahahaha..Next time cake muz put further away from mi..hahahaha

then cheng left..She actually need to leave at 130 but she stayed till 210..
THANX CHENG!!

then Alicia, Liting and mi finished up the cake.....WA..Difficult man..The cake so so big then Liting's main course was too big..so mi and Alicia eat till wana bao zha..haha

then we foot the bill then I very very long nv watch movie liao..The last time was with Chris..Watch Shrek 2..then we went to watch mean Girls..
Not bad..The morale of the story is repent

then went to centre pt see there got Hui Ching's jeans..But dun have..then we go Courts haha..New open one is it? I nv see before le..then found very interesting utensils.. haha..then Alicia going to work..so she left us..

then we went to Royal Sporting House..i saw this Addidus Cap...bright red..cool man..very pretty..then saw another PUMA cap..blue..so pei with my outfit..haha..but i still prefer the addidus one..so i bought it 17 bucks..

then we actually wana go Robinsons one..but already 545 liao..meeting ching they all at 6 so i left liting..she also going home..we're meeting next wed..:)

then go meet yenling first then go NYDC meet the rest of them..
had a nice dinner..then vege bake rice was not bad..
then we were saying want desert..then nobody want..then a oreao cheese cake came with a candle..then i was like "HEY GOT ANOTHER PERSON ALSO SAME BIRTHDAY AS MI!!" then the waitor put it infront of mi..then he say was like awkwardly take his hand out and said happy birthday..then i was like..ok..thanx *shake hands* *PIAK!* THERE IS WHIP CREAM IN HIS HANDS!!.. **STUNNED**

then i was like..i no tissue then they were like discussing "juz now i saw the cream nicely put inside his hand" that kinda thing..haha but heng another waitress got tissue...haha

this is one of my few birthday since i was a teenager that have little sabotage..haha..

anyway..then we proceeded to esplanade..meh meh give us bluff to esplanade when she need to go take MRT..haha..
then yen, yuan, imee also left..then ching, peg mi went to esplanade TAKE PICTURES!!! MUZ SEE MUS SEE!! hahaha

then they walk mi home as usual singing christian songs..haha..then i wait with them for the bus...then i go home liao...
thats it..

quite a simple birthday celebration..
spent 160 treating my frenz..ok la..quite reasonable..treat 9 pple.. :)

Its Coming!!

tell you guys something...i juz typed one big big blog and when i go view janice's blog my nepscape got problem..then all my netscape have to close then its gone...

Must be that thing i shouldnt have said..

but anyway in short..

i sold 4 phones today.. Thank God

many pple cant make it for my bday treat

i hate to talk to "empty pple" those who physically with you but heart not with you but when they need you, they sick up all your energy and the whole cycle repeats itself everytime the person change her romantic partner..

i'm sick of that and i will scold the person if that happens again
but i will not be angry coz its a sin and i'll forgive her..but i will not be fair to the "pple"..

and this also leads mi to think of the pple who truly knows mi..
really wana say a BIG BIG THANK YOU!!

and then To Me:
a BIG BIG
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!

Oh ya!! Today Funan got a food fair!!! wahahaha!! so many things to eat!!!! but i'm on the vege fast le..cant really eat alot..but still ate quite alot..tu tu kueh, kachang puteh, mua ji, some vege stuff, DURIAN PANCAKE, strawberry cheesecake (not very nice), 9 storey cake (jiu chen gao) and bought 2 big bags og ko ro pok! wahahaha..

PEGGIE~~~~wana come my house~~~~~~
ops forgot u on diet..

btw to view the next blog pls go to View and zoom..i cant chnage the size of the font le..my com dun know what problem

My First Bday Present of the year!

hey pple!!

got my first birthday present of the year today!!!
Its from my supervisor and his girlfriend..
Gues what they got mi!!


They got mi the WOW WORSHIP CD!!

It ok ls..not fantatic but its nice..haha

I dun really have feelings that my Birthday is coming..

I'm more excited that my last day is friday

I find that the older you get the least excited you are for your birthday..haha for my case la..haha
What do you guys think??!!

Today work is ok la..juz hate my supervisor always say "siewchoon i got one liao le..you le" when he knows i dun have any sales..i juz hate it..i hate pressure..i esp hate this kinda pressure..but..i have to forgive him..God help mi...




I was juz thinking what Ms Tan said a few weeks ago.
Alot of pple thinks that they go church, worship God, God will please them,,will bless them..but they're so wrong..
Firstly, God knew us even before we were born. He first loved us. So no matter wat we do, He will bless us..but maybe we cant see the big picture in that point of time..we cant see things from God's point of view and think its bad for us. but at the end of the day if we follow Him truly even when "bad things" happen to us, we will still gain.

Secondly, juz think of this, "Do we believe in Him only when He pleases us?"

Thirdly, look at the pple in the bible. They are pple who suffered for God. Thats wat made them great in the eyes of God. So christians who read my blog..juz a reminder..blessings come with prosecutions..be prepared when it comes..dun disappoint Him. We are rejected by the world bcoz we do not belong here.
you get wat i mean? i dun mean i'll go heaven la..juz encouraging you guys if applicable..

Dun know y i suddenly wanted to write this. juz felt like sharing.. :)
COMMENTS ANYONE??

Long time no BLOG!!!!

Hey this is cool!! so many things added to the blogging system!! can change colour some more..haha..

Anyway..juz to update pple..i'm still working and discovering abt God.
previously was having a spiritual down period. was pretty bad.
But God brought mi back, He showed mi signs..many of them..
its a very very long story to tell.. but anyway..God really opened my eyes and made mi realised all the great things He had done. And everytime i thought of them i felt like crying..its is that touching..

Good news to all who miss mi so much, i'm leaving my job on 23rd july 2004!! but they're calling mi back to work after i've started studying..actually also not bad hor..might consider.. :) wat do u think?

these few days i'm having a vege diet. When i told my sis, She wasnt very happy abt it..then when she read my blogger..she felt sad seeing how close i've got to know God. She doesnt want mi to convert. even if i want i'll have to wait till my parents pass away..but wat if the rapture comes before they pass away? i'm not saying i want them to faster pass away. i know its a selfish thinking..but how? God please help mi...give mi wisdom..

AH!!! when did blogger become like frenster!! i type finish but cant publish!! then when i come back only left half the blog!!!!!

anyway..i miss all of u!!! miss all our outings, gatherings, shopping sessions, tokcok sing song play mahjong sessons...i'll go visit all (if i can) ur blogs!! see ya!!

Eileen: wana meet up? i'm free after this coming week..when are ur free days?

ching!! you coming church ah!! dun fly my aeroplane ok!!
11am outside oriental plaza..i'll tell peg..haha..coz i have to rush off after chruch to work liao..

anyway..very sian..after one day of week the days seens to be passing very slowly..

discussed with my sis abt the laptop thing..my sis say actually ibm not bad..but i still like fujitsu le...
anyway checking up fujitsu s6130 first..

haiz..got to know ystday that i wun be going to compass pt anymore to work liao, will be struck at funan..sian..i like the pple at compass le...
and they dun wana tel mi the reason

i also dun know..dun is my mistake or wat..anyway..if i still got the job i happy le..

got my pay le..
$969.64
so little...
i think the 69.64 is my commission..
sian...

anyway..u guys enjoy urselves...
hope to see u all soon!!

Thanx Ching..

Today is my one and only off day..so sian..so tired to wake up..anyway..when to SMU to matriculate..got ching to company mi..haha..and meh meh of course..she got mum to fetch so xin fu...mi and ching walk high and low then found the place..
anyway..then day was fun..haha..my student card not bad la..but forgot to push up my spects..look quite nerdy..haha

anyway..felt that Ching abit left out when mi and meh discuss things..i'm sorry ching..

then meh and ching saw SO MANY ACJC PPLE!!! wa!! from ching's exprience i very scared of AC pple..the last thing i want is to study with them...
SIANZ...then see all of them like i invisible like that..so hostal..anyway god taught ask not to jugde pple..and to judge pple in the most favorable light..maybe they shy?? haha..

Anyway i still believe that it is god's perfect plan for mi? Mayeb He wants my english to improve? haha..so mix with pple who has good gp grades will help mi improve? haha..actually quite scared..but anyway..i'll put my faith in God..

then meh went to wait for Eileen (her AC fren) then mi and ching proceeded with the matriculation then went for lunch together..

then we went home..and relax..finally..think i go take nap now..hahahaha..

really thank Hui Ching to company mi today..
THANK YOU CHING AND SORRY FOR NEGLECTING YOU...

Ching: so after wat i showed u, u wana come church to thank god urself?

Nice...so dun ver look down on urselves!!!

A very good message to ponder ...
A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding
up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200, he asked, "who would like this $20
bill?" Hands started going up.
He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you
but, first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple the $20 dollar bill up.
He then asked,
"Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied, "what if I do this?" And he dropped
it on the ground, started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He
picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now, who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.
"My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter
what I did to the money; you still wanted it because it did
not decrease in value. It is still worth $20."
"Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and
ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances
that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless."
"But no matter what has happened or what will happen,
you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely
creased, you are still priceless to those who DO love you. The worth of our
lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE."
"You are special - Don't EVER forget it."
If you do not pass this on, you may never know the
lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can
bring. Count your blessings, not your problems. Never be afraid to try
something new.
And remember: amateurs built the ark ... professionals
built the Titanic.
"My business is not to remake myself, but to make the
absolute best of what God made." --- Robert Browning

hey hey pple...

nice to see u guys having great time from each other's company..
hehe..i really hope i can join u all one fine day..hahaha

had a great time at Imee's house that day, scream till i no voice but heng got it back the next morning..haha
nice games...
but i dun like my "bed"..sleep till 8 am like that went to imee's living room to sleep..too cold..

then went home to put my presents from imee then rush to work

anyway that day work sucks..got some help from edric who is working at the 4th floor..haha so qiao rite..

then these fews days lost the anthu to work..bad sales, sian attitude..got to talk to my ARM (ast. retail manager) then realised i need to change..

haiz..work and church really clashing..and it brought mi bad name at work..haiz..but i'll pray to god that he help mi change..

anyway..these few days really no life..got nothing much to say..hahaha

will like to keep in touch with all of u!!
dun forget abt mi ok...

wahahaha!!
pple!! i got another testimony to share!!!
wahahaha

today..
erm..Like normal work days..
promote like reading from the sales guide,

this phone got a one mega pixel camera, 10mins video recording, 4 times digital zoom, blah blah blah..

exactly like wat the sales guide read..
i do my homework one ok..

but usually
the pple will go: "oh...That's cool..Ok I'll think abt it" then I'll go:"no problem..But dun think too long, stocks are going at a fast rate"

That's my only statement for promoting

hahaha..
anyway..Today as per normal..i talk like that, promote like that..but the dif is that i prayed for wisdom to spot pple who wants to buy a phone, pray for wisdom to talk, pray for god to help mi in this impossible industry (in my view).

know wat?
He did.

all were His work. i really mean ALL.

i did sense pple who has the intention of buying phones.
i told them all the truth abt the price, but they were fine with it. *MUZ BE HIM*
normally the pple will walk off..
then it was easy. They decided. They'll buy. Even though they can get it cheaper in Philippines or wat ever. They bought from mi..
wat happened lo? If I'm the one, I'll sure get the cheaper one rite. But..Guess wat. GOD MADE HIM BUY FROM MI.
i cant decide for him, only god can. The most is i do my best, the rest leave it all to God.

today very little pple. So sales was bad. But guess wat.
out of 5 phones sold. 4 were mine. The 5th one is i too busy and my colleague too eng so he entertain for mi. But of course write his name la..today got 4 staff including the ast. Manager. But all the hps were all sold by mi.
why? How? Is it possible? i dun think so at first too. But God gave mi GRACE.
*GRACE is something that you dun deserve but god gave it to you*
GOD IS GREAT!! No words can describe how thankful i am to Him. The only thing i can do is to be His living testimony. As for mi prove. i can show you the transaction today. If you dun trust god, at least trust mi. HE IS ALIVE. HE LOVES YOU TOO. I'll pray for you that you may one day be like mi. the days of the world are counting down. Dun waste this day without god.

GOD IS ALL LOVING!!!

Hey..Got to go church today again!! But the bad thing is that I muz get back by 2pm..Ok la..At least I get to go..Anyway..went to church, practice my tongues, get to speak it clearer now..Louder also..But still cant understand, still learning..Then today I great thing happened.

pastor was talking abt the devil will fine pple who are "lurkwarm" in Christ (which means not so on for Christ pple , only abit on pple) and posses them..Then talk talk talk..Then pastor ask who havent receive the holy ghost yet..Go up front and we'll pray for them..Then I ask peg she wana go..I sense that she will say "hah..Dun wan la..I not prepared..But I also dun know le.." But she kept quiet them another girl came up and ask her..Then she still not decided..Then Pauline came to ask her also..Then she agreed..

then the 3 of us pray for her..WA...Pray so long!! Pray till I no voice liao ah..Then pray like 3 rounds le!! then she got it on the 3rd round..There was like SOOO MANY pple praying for her..There is another person who want to receive also, so its like the whole church pple one group for her one group for peg..although I cant see but I can sense that there is a big group of pple behind mi praying for peg too lo!! I can see so many hands from my view and I think still got alot more behind..WA..peg..u got the attention of the whole church!!! wahahaha..they're nice pple la..all pray for u..somemore so long!! mi Pauline and the long hair girl (both peg n mi forgot her name) prayed for her through out..WA...use alot of strength le..got alot of wrinkles from the concentration of praying le..peg...u know my ku xin? hahaha

anyway..she got it..all of us praying so loudly in tongues I cant even hear her..Pauline standing infront heard then we clapped! cue to stop..hahaha coz I dun know she got it or not..hahaha..

anyway..I was not late for work le..my hp says 2:00 pm sharp, the computer there says 1:58pm..But my boss(not the manager, higher rank then manager), terence's watch says 2:15pm... -_-"""" then I still count as late lo..

anyway, I feel its worth it to spend the time praying for peg!!! haha

anyway, work as usual, bad sales, 6 phones only, somemore today is a sunday..haiz...Anyway, the day was great!! SO HAPPY PEG GOT THE HOLY SPIRIT IN HER..

peg peg go practice also kk..hahaha..Dun it in the toilet..muz have boldness remember? do it in the living room!! hahaha..
Anyway, I really hope u can get to speak with Ms Tan..But think she's too busy..its normal that she dun pick up her phone la..hahaha..i'll pray for u.. :) and her not to be so tired everyday..haiz..