Boohoohoo..i've become such a cry baby again. :~~~(
Last night, without thinking of my consequences, i told my mum about my faith.
It was terrible for her and for me.
I wasn't thinking right until Ms Tan put some sense into me!!
haiz...the whole story must credit to the devil. He took advantage of the time without the person who has been putting sense into my life and totally blinded me and the people around me to do that act.
After my talk with Ms Tan, i felt so regretful. I shouldn't have told my mum now, i shouldn't want more than what i can do. I wanted to go for church camp. and thinking back, God has already told me that i'm not going, but the people in church keep calling me to go, and that really confused me.
what i need to do to go, first tell my mum about everything, and pray for air tickets. and i rashly and irrationally did it. :(
they made it really seems possible but the fact is no.
Last night went better than i thought. I told my mum over the phone and i'm suppose to go home to continue to talk to her when Ms Tan stopped me.
After she put sense into me, she gave me some guidelines to handle this.
i need to stay unemotinal coz it will be very emotional and the devil will use this to make me feel guilty and secondly, i must prevent from fighting with my mum.
we prayed and i felt that it was a very powerful prayer and Ms Tan send me home.
when i reached home, i purposely press the bell. i want to see if my mum will let me in. She did.
than she brokedown. blah blah blah..
all emotional...
i assure her many things and now i need to be the greatest daughter in the world.
People i need prayers, and i really pray that God will answer them and i really expect God to do something regarding this problem.
I need support.....
I know i'm wrong.....
but i'm glad she knows and i hope she will pull through w/o falling into depression.
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