First day off!!

Spent the whole day with my sister today. Haha.. firstly we went to look at wigs!! so funnY! my sister with long hair!! haha.. looks like my mum man.. hahaha take a look!

Then i tried the wig.. amazingly i think it looks quite good! but my sister say i look like philippino maid.. haha maybe coz too pretty ya? hahaha

Found this shrek hat. haha balded and ugly ears...

My sis bought this spects haha.. reminds me of my good old days! :D with spects! still so pretty! hahaha can't stand it! hahaha..
Super zhi lian.. hahaha

my cute sis! hahaha

You're a star!! a very interesting encouragement card.. from some social work project.. :)

Love my first off day!! many more good off days to come!!

Articles!

Keep The Romance
Jude 17-23

Keep yourselves in the love of God. —Jude 21

Is the romance still going on in our relationship with Jesus? When we first came in faith to Christ, we experienced the joy of knowing our sins were forgiven and we were adopted into His family. Our hearts were full and overflowing with love for the Lord. We longed to please Him.

As time passed, however, the zeal of our first love may have begun to cool. That's why we need to take to heart the words of Jude in his brief letter. He wrote, "Keep yourselves in the love of God" (v.21). Jesus used similar terms when He said, "Abide in My love" (John 15:9-10). We nurture that love when we focus on pleasing Him instead of ourselves.

Keep the romance going. — David C. Egner

"Keep yourselves in the love of God"Is what He says to do;Feeding on His Word each day,You'll find His love anew. —Hess

To renew your love for Christ, review His love for you.

Overcoming Envy
1 Peter 3:8-12

Be of one mind, having compassion for one another; love as brothers. —1 Peter 3:8

It's understandable to want to be a success like a neighbor. But it is wrong to have an attitude that says, "If I can't have it, I don't want anyone else to have it either."

I was about 13 when I began to realize that my 10-year-old brother Len's athletic skills were greater than mine. At first a tinge of resentment rose up within me, but it didn't have a chance to develop into a strong feeling of envy. Why? Because I loved Len. I soon began to take pride in his athletic achievements and felt with him the joy of victory and the agony of defeat.

That experience taught me that love and envy cannot coexist in the human heart. Now, whenever envy rears its ugly head, I recall how my love for Len drove it out of me. I also remember the admonition of 1 Peter 3:8, "Love as brothers." It enables me to "rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep" (Romans 12:15).

Being committed to loving others is the secret to overcoming envy. — Herbert Vander Lugt

From seeds of envy in the heartSpring up the noxious weeds of hate;So help me, Lord, to love the oneWhom I find hard to tolerate. —D. De Haan

A daily dose of Christlike love will heal the heart disease of envy.

Random stuff

• I miss Imee, God I pray that she'll find you.
• I miss my handphone.. like a pet that didn't come home feeling.. when i see the charger its like seeing an empty cage
• I miss my intimacy with God
• Its not about choosing my feelings or you. But its about because you are more important, I put your feelings before mine. I understand and see your feelings more impt than mine.
• An argument is not simply just who wins and who loses. Its an avenue to show love and feedback for change afterward.
• I love my friends! Janice, Hui Ching, Richelle, Laura, Joses, Eunice, Chelsea, Jen... etc.
• I feel like sleeping now...

Is it my emotions or lack of faith?

I think its a combination of things..

One week ago, i could still hear some of the things God is teaching me about being patient and if i dun enjoy what i have now but always thinking about what i can get, i will never enjoy them when i get them.

I could on and off hear things from God..but these days i feel so far away. I think becoz i dun act to seek God.

help me Lord..

You're are the most important God of my life. Not any man, nor my job.

fell down ystday while blading..

hp lost too..

life is tough

thoughts of God trying to teach me how to cherish are constantly in every circumstances that i face. I guess its a everyday decision that even though its hard, i will still choose you. Even though it hurts, i will still choose you. even though i'm angry, i will still choose you.

Even though whatever it is, because You are my choice, I will do it no matter I feel it or not. I guess what Ian says tt i can understand the general criteria, but it varies at different circumstances. I'm a person who changed too much. until i do not have something that i stand for, or someone i till stand for.

Only by that choice I can go through thick and thin, it is only when we can do that, we know what we truly value.

forget myself, just for you.

Holland Village - one of my favorite hang out!

Wa.. finally i've got an eraser in the office! and its that kind of big big ones... wahahahaha! so cool! and i think its really nice to rub to.. wahahaha.. happy blessing from my dear Lord! thank you Jesus! :D

Went to Thai express at holland v with my new colleagues! some of my very good friends now.. ;)
There they are.. from the left, its Eunice and Chelsea!! :)
oh.. my favorite chix wings! hahaha but i think the deep friend chix wings are better.. ;) but i'm really surprised how can the stuff so much meat into the chix wing and how did they remove the bones?

hmm.. anywayz.. saw this documentary about a micro chip today.. planting into the forearm or upper hand, just rite underneath the skin..

Its exactly like what the bible said. . its really scary.. nothing that was said in the bible which didn't come true.. :) God almighty, you're the one and true God indeed!

Anyway, i was hoping to find a picture of 2 muscians.. share some of my thoughts about relationships with you..

I think relationships is just like making a wonderful piece of music. Each of us are the muscians and the tune that we play comes from our hearts. In a band, we'll have to listen to one another and play the tune accordingly, softening at some parts, counter melody at some parts, carrying on the tune, blending in the chords, adding the little details to beautify the piece of music! haha,, Chim rite.. haha.. music always has to have a balance, and when the music ends, it leaves an echo of the last note, just like how wonderful relationship leaves its sweet footprints on our hearts and memories.

:D

Photos!

Went for changi air cargo building for IATA inspection.. the view was wonderful! its breath taking, i know the picture doesn't really speak that much.. but it did make my day better! wahaha.. but later on it was a tough battle to fight at work..

Monday, 8th sept, was Joses (not Moses) first day.. i was gone for the whole morning with some reports to rush coz it only came back over the weekend.. (wanted to die when i realized it) and then when i was back in office like 1130am (half an hour before lunch) i just got to know i'll be teaching Joses!! must be some joke my manager is making rite.. think they wana match make the both of us.. -_-'" anyway, he's a nice guy la.. can bully that kind!! hahaha!! ops.. better dun laugh too loud.. ;)

Anyway, this guy is good!! wahaha.. he picks up really fast (like me) haha asks stupid questions like me.. and asks confusing questions like me!! hahaha and my answers make it even more confusing.. hahaha i cannot la.. haha but i do really wish i had recorded winson's answers, so i can just cut and paste to Joses.. hahaha

Anyway, that was what happened on monday.. =]

Have been waking up at 4 am to do my reports! coz gab is sick i too pai seh to ask him to help me do my reports when he has his own to do.. :( feel really bad for him. But i really just thank God he can make it to work.. coz i really got no time to take over his work load..

With teaching Joses, doing the STUPID SI 100 Ranking, and my own reports.. the volume is average. but i can't handle so much when i spend most of my time now teaching Joses.. Dun misunderstand, I do enjoy teaching Joses, haha he's a good kid to teach, learn fast, humble, can bully! hahaha.. just that i can't cope! think i got to start leaving my weekdays free coz i got to start doing OT.. :( I start to not like to do OT le..

Speaking of which!! see below @-@

Supper after a late night of OT! wahaha! at one of my favourite lavender food court! haha actually i do enjoy my manager's eating habits but i got to keep fit man! at the rate we're eating all the good food.. I'm sure going to get round round! hahaha but I LOVE IT! wahaha! Love life! *muacks!

Haha.. but the bad thing i forgot to claim OT!! OH NO rite!! How can I do this.. I used to not mind it until I think i really need to.. haha.. ok la.. but very like me, but if its for Total Swimming, i think its ok.. but seriously.. I think my company doesn't pay well.. :( But i like the company for the family like feeling.. :) I think its warmer than home..just that it doesn't have a bed for me to sleep.. otherwise i would love to stay with my colleagues! hahaha they're fun, sporty, funny, entertaining.. ;)

"Cherish" what a tough word to keep.. I apologised today.. Finally.. I'm not sure it means anything anymore coz it has been a repeating scene for a thousand and one time. But I'm praying God will supernaturally change me. Like what terence say. And i got to stay humble and keep praying. I believe God can TRANSFORM ME!!

Mark 11:23 - 24 "For assuredly, i say to you, whoever says to this mountain ;Be moved and be cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whateer he says. Therefore i say to you, what ever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them."

Jesus and Xiuchun Jiayou!! Forever together! Nothing can stop us! for nothing is impossible! Wahahaha!! ^^v

I have so many questions in my head!!

Photos

Hello! This is Bad Croc.. hehe but he's so cute! He's going to stay with me for 2 more weeks before Jansen comes back from Taiwan. Hehe.. Seeing this cute bad croc makes me happy! :D

Croc says Hello! *waves!

Cute bouncy tail!

Clips from sis!! haha! It fits so nicely on my office table.. Thank God for the nice blessings and decorations! Love my sis!! Yeah! Her birthday this sunday.. going to get a carebear cake for her.. hopefully can get it.. not enough time!

Onz for blog!

Haha.. In a crappy mood now..

Think last time i used to be more popular and secure.. think as i grow older, I began to have more insecurities.. maybe coz of the past hurts i begin to find it hard to trust. But i realized that the more i dun trust and love others, the worse i'll become. hehe.. so anyway, just trying my best to love and trust and commit to God my weakness to work it out with him.

Today went to eat with Hai Han, a ex outramian and played with his not very fun iphone, coz there's no games inside.. but his pictures are quite nice la.. haha.. then crap here and there but was really tired from the medication. *hin ah..*

Then wanted to go home and rest but decided to go COMEX.. but you know what, so many pple till i can't even get into the conference hall!! my goodness.. i didn't know singapore got so many pple until

Desert Song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kLOGTYE6T2U&NR=1

Desert Song by Hillsong
Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praiseI will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
\And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my lifeIn every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've received I will sow

New Blog Skin! - CHANGE!

Haha..

I love to read people's blogs, maybe coz i'm very KPO but today when i went to revisit my previous blog, i realized i could blog quite well too! haha! Impressed with myself..

Anyway, i love my new blog skin! its organized in a arty farty manner, with all my fav decor one could get at MADE WITH LOVE plaza singapura. Always wanted and hope to make something like that but i guess, this blog is the best i've ever seen! haha

I was so busy with work since i came back from Sydney. Today i could blog coz of my MC? haha.. had what they call a common flu which left me strength less in bed this morning and when it was time to go to the clinic, i still couldn't feel my legs.. :(

Anyway, feeling much better now, from all the love that was showered over me by some of the people who has always been support and loving me! Thanks to them so much.

Was struggling with my insecurity problem again today when i was in bed. Thoughts just crash through my mind one by one, thoughts by thoughts. It left me so drained and helpless on my bed. Until i decided to sort it out with God rather than man.

I really have to thank God for the revelations He has shown through his word.

First i flipped to the people who struggle like me - Cain. God revealed.

"If you do well, will you not be accepted? And if you do not do well, sin lies at the door. And its desires is for you, but you should rule over it." Gen 4:7

I read this verse many times, but it has not revealed to me like this time it revealed to me.

I was so jealous, till i wasn't making sense and continues to put down the people i care for in my heart. They did not do anything wrong against me, but yet my heart couldn't but blame them and hate them. I seek for acceptance the wrong way, the wrong kind. Only God could fill me and make me understand.

Today, after i went to the doctor which i thank God for the compromise of time from mt to sent me there coz i couldn't make my way there. i'm really thankful for the timely help and ride.

Today, after a reflective session, I really want to listen and obey. I believe and trust that all that was said is good for my soul and directs me back to God. God has placed spiritual authority above us for a good reason and many times it is health for our bones too.

i hurt others too many times. I have to change this time no matter what it takes.

1. Honor my words. Be responsible to what i say
2. Do not return evil for evil, have compassion, love, trust, humilty.

I say too many sorry's but no actions and no change. I have to change!

Another thing i know about change is that i got to commit to God my weaknesses. Like what i did today, my problem i have to solve it with God. Ask God to take it away or provide strength to overcome it. "for my strength is made perfect in weakness."

I guess God got to take away my pride first before he can began the work in me.

I realized something too. Love is a decision, not a emotion. To love and accept all weakness of people takes more than an emotions or sheer will power. It takes our decision for better or for worse, I will walk with you. Weather i'm angry or tired or frustrated, or fearful. I will walk with you. How? - is a good question to ask. Being humble, compassionate, trust when everything else, even the person you want to love tells you not to. It may not be direct everytime, but it comes in different forms and way. But are you willing to let this love decision shape you attitude towards others? Am i willing to die to myself and surrender this weakness to God ? Can i put my pride down for the impossible to happen? it has got to be YES! because of LOVE. That was what Jesus did at the cross. Can i do it? YES I CAN! Coz Jesus has conquered the grave! Nothing is impossible with God, He just needs our yes and amen! Am I on God's side, or my side? Where will my side lead me to? or worse, where will my side bring my loved one too? how far will i go, how far will i change for my loved one?

Lord, forgive me as i forgive others. Thank you for your continuous love and grace even though i have hurt you so many times. Help me be teachable and humble. To be patient and trust in your plans. Lord, thank you for all the miracles you have done in my life. Praise be yours, that you are faithful and mighty to save. Thank you Lord. Hallelujah!

Back from sydney to die in homeland

Hey hey.. back from sydney.. sick..was sick from wednesday onwards..that one really can die ah..

Australia tonite!!

Hey hey hey.. i'm coming to australia sydney tonite!! i'll be missing alot of people this coming week!! hmm coz this week was such a fulfilling week, i could really feel that God has placed me in the midst of my relationships for a good purpose.. I feel that God can used me in so many more ways.. Lord, only in you i can fulfil my purpose, help me Lord.. Refill me and restore me as you use my as your instrument Lord.. I want to run this maranthon with you and for you alone. Lord, i want to be where you are and where you want me to be!! :D

Today pastor preached about the 2 verses which i sent out during this past week to encourage others.. I'm not really sure what this means, maybe this is really what God wants to say to our church? God i dun want to be a hero, I want to be in your plans..Help me not boost anything of myself but only in you Lord.. :) for i know the humble will be exalted at the end of the day.. hehehehehe...delayed gratification..hahaha no la kidding.. Lord help me k? you know i have this tendency.. :)

hmm..anyway don't y suddenly came to blog also.. dun have anymore to say.. see ya one week later!! shall sleep for 30mins first..hehehe.. byebye!!

I want to change blogskin!!

I'm back!

Its been such a long time since I posted anything on this blog!! hahaha I've been quite free these days, after the completion of watch heroes season one and season two, i've got nothing to do!! Everytime i surf blogs I feel the urge to blog again..haha i'm just wondering if i can one year dun touch my blog. The last time i bloged was oct 19 2007 but i guess i can't wait that long..

You know why?? hehe coz i'm going to start work soon!! at DP information group.. as a research officer. The more i think about it the more i like and cherish the opportunity given by them. Its a one year training program (at least that was what i was told) as a research officer, then i'll move on to either be a business analyst or do research projects. Personally, i would really hope that i can be a business analyst because i want to go into business consultantancy work in the future. Not that it pays very well, but because i love it..

Actually i was rejected by IBM which i thought was a wonderful opportunity, even the interview that i met, Ms Chu from Global Business Services is really very nice. But i guess i'm not good enough for that. HOWEVER! I'm going to train myself up at which ever opportunity and I pray that God will open the door for me to go into consultancy work.

I guess in this very confused and frustrated period of my life, i kinda laid down my career path directions and really explore what do i really wana do. You know it feels great to have goal, it really motivates you alot and change alot of perception about things. But God i pray that you'll search my motives and let me not be so selfish in building my world kingdom on earth and not knowing what is the most important. like what luke 12:21 tell us to be rich towards God and not yourself.

Below is this really cute picture i took from a nissan march! hahaha.. this wu gui is so cute to put on a car. Think the owner must have really the guts to put it there not afraid of what others might say about him or her. hahaha but none the less i think its so cool!! hahaha

I hope no one comes to read my blog..i just hope it can be just a private space i can freely express myself..I know my judgemental nature, and i really really PRAY that GOD will CHANGE ME please... Its horrible to feel judged i understand and hate it, despise it. I hope i don't do that to other people in terms of my speech and actions.

Later got bible studies with Daniel Ang..GOd i really dun know how to teach him anymore..GOd help me...I can't do it myself.. please give me more ideas as I share about your story with man. Father you have to work something within him. I can only be a mouth piece. I'm nothing without you, just like an instrument without a player, it is dead.. :) But i know God has been using me in many areas such as being there for bible studies, encouraging and praying with Jiawen has always been the time of the week that i look forward to!!

You know it just feels great to be at the place where you know God has called you to be. You can't feel that anywhere else!! :) Father, thank you for your mercy and undeserved favor you've given me. Thank you for giving me a calling and purpose in this life. Thank you for your blessings and unconditional love. :)

:D this is a very beautiful song about friendship...
by streams of praise.

最珍貴的角落 Precious Corner
詞：萬美蘭 曲：游智婷

謝謝你燦爛笑容，
照亮我的天空，
謝謝你分享心情，
把我放在你心中。

夜裡有時為寒冷，
你我生根同暖土，
友情是最亮的星，
我的生命從此美麗。

當你被花朵包圍盡情歡欣，
我帶春風使你舞其中，
當你正走在坎坷路，
我會伴你在左右。

一起向藍天歡呼，
向白雲招手，
我們要一起笑一起哭。
千萬人中有個人懂我，你有最珍貴的角落。