Exams results.......**Lightning**

hellO!! the scariest of the holidays is over...i've got all my results..
in SMU the results come out one by one..some prof mark faster, some mark slower..
for me, the worst subjects came the fastest..was super sian at the beginning of the holidays..
first was my organizational behavior module...which was my favourite

Holidays!

Hello!!
got a virtual pet from my dear junior, huishan's blog..hehe suppose to meet up with her after my exams but after i read her blog, hmm..she sound really exhuasted..better contact her soon...

anyway, now's holidays!! i going to cut hair again now..ystday cut hair like didn't cut like that now going kimage to cut again..

gtg, update again..

anyway, Choon!! i found your blog!! from hweeling's blog..hehe, but ya..can't type anything..hehe..create one more?

God bless...

Exams Exams Exams

Hello!!
hey guys i got good news!! my PARENTS (Both mum and dad) allow me to go for CHURCH CAMP!!!!!! Woooo!! Praise the Lord!! i really really learn to wait upon the Lord and wait for God's timing for things. and indeed! God is good!! i learnt alot through this process...about praying, seeking God, acknowledging that He is God (as in seek His approval for things), know that i am weak and i need His grace, He has abundant of grace (BUT never take it for granted) also, making sure of your motives before you do things, esp doing the things of God, to ensure maximum learning experience. haha..

aiya..i still got quite alot of things to share...but now mugging for exams..
this term super xiong, 4 papers in 2 days..monday and tuesday..
so i'm only left with 5 days for my 4 modules...help!! i mean God help.
God has really been providing me with strength everyday. i slept at 2 and woke up at 6/7 this morning and have been studying with 10min nap inbetween. totally not my style and i know God has been providing me with the strength and determination.. THANK YOU JESUS!! May i praise You ALL DAYS of my life!! even if 'there's pain in the offering'..

=)

Hello, i seriously think my blog is just for show..haha..find no point really keeping a blog leh..

haha...ops..

maybe i'll consider not blogging...hmm..

anyway, all my assignments, progject deadlines, presentations are all coming up.
ESP my mid term exams, not studying for finance mid term exam tml..
hmm..i'm not sure if i can stay commited with my commitments through all these things that is going on. God, help me manage my time well..

i'm losing my motivation to do things, maybe too many things come at the same time i get freaked out and my organizing fail and pile up higher and higher then getting lesser and lesser motivated.. hmm..God help me please...

i'm getting to understand why some pple tell me that they are not motivated and all..and maybe its just their circumstances keep them moving..haiz. God, i dun wana just be here, Help me bring Glory to You God!

Fuquan's going NS soon..think he's kinda sad, must jiayou fuquan! you're not the only one going through this..=)

ok i gtg..see you guys...bye bye..

Some one got Sued for racist blogging!!

Ai yo ai yo!!
i didn't know even blogging also can get sued!
got 2 pple got sued for blogging racism stuff..
so ah you all better be careful what you all blog k..
for more information: http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/167812/1/.html

hehe..now things are going well, getting the momentum of school..but the readings are still very overwhelming for me..SO MUCH THINGS TO READ!!
esp company law..think i can just spend one whole week reading company law..but really really thank God that the textbook's ang mo is managable for my standard..
as you know, my ang mo so powderful, i can't understand very chim (esp the law kinda english) ang mo..was struggling like mad last term with the (biz law) readings..gave up from the start..haha

haiz..time time time is precious..no time to waste liao!

i really Thank God for all that He's given me, i'm learning to acknowledge and thank God every day for things like, my school's 15 min away, my church is 15 min away and my home is centre..hehe..God, really wana give you all the Glory and Credit for all the good things in my life! my friends, my churchmates, my schoolmates, my old/new/current friends..
though i dun really like my horrible pimples now, but God, i still thank You, coz i've learnt to better appreciate the skin that You've given me..hehe.. =) *staying positive! positive...*

i'm studying organizational behavour now..which talks alot about how pple react and behave think its really good..love its readings..think its very applicable everywhere, home, church, school..hehe..looking forward to major in this..but dun know what are my career aspects though... hmm...thinking....

just randomly updating..hehe..

School Started!!! hehe..New Campus...haha

Hey all fellow brothers and sisters in christ! (even those who are just interested or curious) this is a webbies of all the daily devotions! cool eh..courtesy of bible gateway..hehe..try some! good for the soul...hehe..
http://www.gospelcom.net/spiritual_walk/devotionals/
May God bless your spiritual walk abundantly!

hello, since school reopened, just have a boost of strength and urgency to know that i can't live in my own world in school any more. have to work hard!! argh..have been reading, catching up and i really like what i'm studying now!! hehe..of course la..coz can choose my modules this term liao...

i'm taking:

-Finance (the prof simply encourage me with his efforts and passion to really help us master the theories and calculations of Finance; he just protary the super approachable image and when he talks you can really see he tries his best to answer every one of your questions)

-International Econs (thought the prof talks so slowly i almost everytime fall asleep, but i like the readings..=) i like econs from JC hehe)

-Finishing Touch (a module that teaches skills for us to step into the working world..cool, but very ma fan..hmm needs to put in alot of effort for the assignments too)

-Management of People at Work (Handsome canadian prof..hehehe..alot of teamwork and team discussions which makes class very interesting for most of us, my teamate even did video conferencing with her french boy fren--she's an exchange student from france)

-Company Law (haven't attended the lesson yet, but the textbook is alot easier to read than the SMU biz law text and looks interesting from the ones that i've read so far, a lot to catch up tough..)


Life's tough, but i thank God that He uses all these little things to motivate me to work hard for His Glory..hehe..God is just so awesome....

Quite alot of pple sick these days..you guys please take good care ya?

ok got to go back and do my assignment liao..

jiayou pple! God bless!!

hello..LOooOoOong Time NoOoOooo write...

Haha..miss me?
wahahaha...

ya just finish work last wed..hmm was kinda sad when i left..really like that place and its the best places that i've worked at so far..

when i was in sec 3 worked at coffee bean, that was also good experience, but was going through i tough break up then so didn't really enjoy my work. furthermore, a quite old guy asked me to be with him (he also work at coffee bean)..i nearly faint when he talked to me about it..Thank God Janet was there, to distract him..haha me and janet were like joking and laughing out loud when the guy ask me THE question..hahaha..i'm sorry for being so bad, but give me a break! he's 30 plus and i'm only 15 then!! haha..so anyway, i laughed out of that situation..it was really funny..the 3 of us, me, janet, and that guy were sitting at the coffee bean we work at. that guy purposely came down to wait for me after my work, even called coffee bean to ask me to stay back to meet him..haha..telling me he got something to tell me..then i was like, just tell me now la.. (i didn't think too much, thought he wana talk rubbish..haha..ops..was really insensitive then la..sorry..haha) but he say he'll wait till i finish work..then i was like this person siao ah..nothing better to do..haha..ops..sorry..i was really bad then..haha.. Anyway, then he came, and i finished work, we sat down, before we started to talk, the chatterbox janet came kpoing..asking y the both of us sitting there..then she ask if she can sit also..then i was like OK OK!! haha...then me and janet talk talk talk..haha..he like in the back ground..ops..haha then when he got our attention and started to talk..hmm...both me and janet couldn't understand what he was saying..he was talking in circles! haha..then finally when he asked could you be my girlfren, both me and janet frozed...haha..then ask him, you're asking me or janet? haha..ops...he like biao chou qing..haha..then when he say its me, Janet laugh out loud!! hahaha..then i frozed...hahaha..eh.........i thought...then i ask him if he's joking...then that sickening janet ask when did he started to like me...then he say like when he first saw me and all that kinda stuff...haha..then both of us laughed out loud..then janet help me answer bu ke neng de la! hahaha...then i was like haha Go Janet Go! hahaha..

ok anyway, are you all entertained? haha..i'm very entertained by that poor guy..like give two 15-yr olds cheat..haha..ops..
anyway, ya it ended with me and janet laughing till we stomachache and the guy rejected flat in the face...ops...sorry la...

Anyway, ya, was saying, when i left, they gave me a table fan and a desktop cover, both quite cute..was quite sad to leave
there's this lady, Dorrine..she said a very touching speech before i left..hmm..all of them told me to study hard..like i'm their daughter..haha..but really la..they really take care of me and dote on my alot..though my lazy bones always dun wana go to work but my heart will always look forward to go..haha..Jesus, thank you for placing each one of them, karen, Jeslyn, Javine, Jeanie, Neo, Nora, Lynn, Linda, Mavis, Cornnie, Emily, Azlyn, Sita, Kai Sa...still got some others la..but mostly my happy times are with these pple..=) Jesus, may you bless them.

hmm..i would be very glad to go back next holiday but i know things will never be the same again and friendships will never be the same again.

Haiz..this is the painful reality, just like that, things will change, unless they're in your heart.

Oh! another nice thing to jote down, Shirley bought me a box of quotes!! haha..friendship quotes, MY FAVOURITE! they're really cool..haven't finish reading it yet..hehe..but Thanks alot Shirley! really appreciate it!

here's a few i've found..think its very interesting to share..hehe

"We will be friends until forever, just you wait see." - Pooh Bear
**"A friend is one who knows all about you and likes you anyway." --Christi Mary Warner
"Friends are like television. Some are like PBS and always asking for money. Others are like the news, with sad tales to tell everyday, some are like that one station with the foreing language; you don't understand a word of it but you listen and watch anyway. And then there are the ones like the commercials, always changes, ever-so-annoying and only seem to be there when you are bored. But every once and a while you meet someone who's like a really good movie of the week or that one tv show you hardly ever get to see anymore because you're so busy. My point is hold on to the friends you care about and since we don't have a remote control to mute someone or just change the channel, pick your friends carefully."
"Friends. A simple word isn't it? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch ur heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just becuase it was with them. They're the people you can
share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. You're tied together by love for the other. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life." -Kate Tierney

what do you think?
cool eh? hehe

I'VE GOT A JOB!!!

Hello hello!!
I've got a job at UOB Bank at the Credit Card Department at Novena Square..my desk's computer spoil liao..now using dun know who's computer..hehe..hope i dun offend pple here..dun feel like mixing around with the people..feel like just being in my own world here..but i know its not good la..scully politics then can faint liao.
The people here mostly girls..hehe..not bad..but my supervisor very kan chong one..hehe..she'll always keep me busy..

Now having Lunch..so sad..having lunch alone..thats y dao bao back and come online lo..hmm..sian but its ok la..i'm looking forward to my next job..hehe first time doing office work..have that kind of xin fu de gan jue..hehe..waited so long for this job..

hmm..i'm sorry janice and Peiwei..actually we wanted to work together but this job came at the last min..i'm sorry, i really feel very bad for working like that..

Friendship Quotes! -- From The Bible

"Friends always show their love. What are brothers for if not to share troubles?"- Proverbs 17:17
"Some friendships do not last, but some friends are more loyal than brothers."
- Proverbs 18:24

"An honest answer is the sign of true friendship."
- Proverbs 24:26

"A friend means well, even when he hurts you. But when an enemy puts his hand round your shoulder - watch out!"
- Proverbs 27:6

"Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up."
- Bible: Ecclesiastes

"My friends are my estate. Forgive me then the avarice to hoard them. They tell me those who were poor early have different views of gold. I don't know how that is. God is not so wary as we, else He would give us no friends, lest we forget Him."
- Emily Dickinson

"The greatest love a person can have for his friends is to give his life for them."
- John 15:13

"A friend is one who strengthens you with prayers, blesses you with love and encourages you with hope."
- sent by Chris

"Those who live in the Lord never see each other for the last time."

"A mirror reflects a man's face, but what he is really like is shown by the kind of friends he chooses."
- Proverbs 27:19
NB: Brendan Johnston notes that this passage usually reads: "As water reflects a face, so a man's heart reflects the man."

"A friend loveth at all times."
- Proverbs 17:17

"Iron sharpens iron; so a man sharpens his friend's countenance."
-Proverbs 27:17 -Sent in by Frankie

"Friends are friends forever, if the Lord is the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never, cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands I know
That a lifetime's not too long... to live as friends."
-Michael W Smith - Sent in by Kellene

The Cookie Thief

The Cookie Thief - by Valerie Cox
Read by Wayne Dyer

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A woman was waiting at an airport one night
With several long hours before her flight
She hunted for a book in the airport shop
Bought a bag of cookies and found a place to drop
She was engrossed in her book but happened to see
That the man beside her as bold as could be
Grabbed a cookie or two from the bag between
Which she tried to ignore to avoid a scene
She munched cookies and watched the clock
As this gutsy cookie thief diminished her stock
She was getting more irritated as the minutes ticked by
Thinking "If I wasn't so nice I'd blacken his eye"
With each cookie she took he took one too
And when only one was left she wondered what he'd do
With a smile on his face and a nervous laugh
He took the last cookie and broke it in half
He offered her half as he ate the other
She snatched it from him and thought "Oh brother
This guy has some nerve and he's also rude
Why he didn't even show any gratitude"
She had never known when she had been so galled
And sighed with relief when her flight was called
She gathered her belongings and headed for the gate
Refusing to look back at the thieving ingrate
She boarded the plane and sank in her seat
Then sought her book which was almost complete
As she reached in her baggage she gasped with surprise
There was her bag of cookies in front of her eyes
"If mine are here" she moaned with despair
"Then the others were his and he tried to share"
"Too late to apologize she realized with grief"
That she was the rude one, the ingrate, the thief

haha..think its very interesting..what do you guys think? what do you learn from it?
hmm..i was thinking about being kind to others
then was thinking
maybe its the grace that we should always give with a cheerful heart.

Christian Leadership

God, how to lead Your people? Lord, what can i do to glorify You? Lord Jesus, i pray that You'll give me a humble heart to serve You and Your people.

i'm not borned a leader.

I need guidance, I need training, I need strength, I need encouragement to be one. Jesus, may you provide, for You are my Provider, and I trust in You.

its not easy being a leader, but if i'm called for the job, i'll do it, i'll do what God wants, for i trust His plans for me. I want to do my best to glorify God. and i trust that GOd will provide.

post exams activities

hehe..hello, its me again

hehe i thurs finish, fri went out with my uni frenz...watched 2 movies that day but with different people, one with uni frenz, one with fuquan (ching dun wana come along so dun be mistaken)

watch SAHARA with uni frenz, i dun know its me or what but i think the supporting actor's action super funny, i keep laughing when its like danger..think i must be very irritating...but i really do find him very funny, haha after watching that show have a very victorious feeling!! haha, like I just won a war..haha..ya but its not me la..i'm daydreaming haha..

at nite watched GUESS WHO, this one..in front romantic, middle funny, behind meaningful, its not a fantastic show but i like the morale behind it. the morale that i gathered is about one's pride. in the show, the dad was a very prideful person, the bf not so prideful but he really ren till canno ren liao so his pride came out, like there's still a level of pride in him. When they really want to get their woman/gf back, the dad really put down his pride but the bf n gf didn't went well even though the bf has put some pride down but at the crucial moment he didn't, then the dad went to find the bf and tell him, if you really love that girl, nothing else matters, even the things which you treasure the most (their pride) does not matter when it comes to keeping their love.
hehe, i can really understand this morale but mine is not that kinda romantic love la, i'm referring to friends..friendship love. i think what the dad said is really true, nothing is more than my friends, even though i love my pride but i cannot lose my friends too and putting down of pride really makes things easier. So friends, just wana let all of you know that the root of sin is pride, pride has a lot of side effects that makes it seems that its not pride that caused all the trouble, but it is, so put down your pride, things will be easier than losing dear ones. letting them go may seems to be the easiest alternative in a quarrel, but make sure you dun regret and you might miss out another alternative that is better for the situation which just might be putting down your pride.

yup so the show is ok la..hehe not fantastic but i like the morale..ok! i'm getting naggy, starting to repeat myself..haha

anyway, things seems to be ok for me, going to search for jobs next week i think, hehe..see how...

its in this kinda period (peaceful season) that i'm most afraid that i'll be contented, comfortable and things will not be peaceful after this season. yup so i better get my butt moving before its rooted to the bed of roses i'm in now..hehe

ok i'll keep you guys updated again..now go visit your blogs..hehe..
take care k?

exams are over!!

Hello people....
hehe..just finished my exams today!! so happy..but currently house com got problem, keep restarting itself, so cannot really type long msges..anyway, i've got my taiwan photos!! i'll try to post it asap!!

lastly, would like to thank everybody who kept me in their prayers!! may God bless you back many folds!! Love you guys..meet up soon!

For eileen: when are we going to play badminton?
for Peiwei: i'm honoured to be your friend too! jiayou!!
For gracia: hey whats your blog add...share leh..hehe
for yishan: FREEDOM!!!! hahaha...
for ching: jiayou jiayou!! you can do it!! i've got alot of oil (body oil) if you want some..hahaha.. ok sorry to disgust you..haha jiayou! God bless you ching!!

for anybody who is reading this: hello nice to meet you..haha..thanks for visiting, leave me a msg!! leave details like your name? do you have a blog too? hehe..just wana reciprocrite your love..haha.. =) keep you all updated again..maybe need to go school to use the net! keep in touch people!! love ya!

exams exams exams

wa..choon leong..dun xiao zhang..i know you finish exams liao..too eng rite...

anyway, guys my exams end on 15th april..but ok la..2 weeks piaing for a 4 months break..can one can one...

i should plan my study plans...

ok la..but i too stressed to do anything...
ok ok i have to get my feet going..

ok la..i'll update my blog more often after my exams k..

thanx for reading people...
really appreciate all of your comments..
love you guys, miss ya!

busy stress..I NEED MORE TIME

oh man oh man..ok here is an update, i'm going to be dead.

i'm super screwed..i've got a MA test tml morning 830am and i only touched a small portion (the size of a salt crystal) and i've got maybe s cupful of salt left? haiz..i was wondering why ami so screwed..
i wanted to revise last week, but i seems to always have something else to do, esp when i've got a presentation today which our data collection is like only a little..

think i should have arranged my schedule...
ok la..hope i can stay awake tonite to study..
God help..

busy stress..I NEED MORE TIME

oh man oh man..ok here is an update, i'm going to be dead.

i'm super screwed..i've got a MA test tml morning 830am and i only touched a small portion (the size of a salt crystal) and i've got maybe s cupful of salt left? haiz..i was wondering why ami so screwed..
i wanted to revise last week, but i seems to always have something else to do, esp when i've got a presentation today which our data collection is like only a little..

think i should have arranged my schedule...
ok la..hope i can stay awake tonite to study..
God help..

hey

hey people!! go download MSN 7!! its super cool!!

anyway the movie with ching was great! haha
a series of unfortunate events

Firstly, it tells children not to take for granted what they have
secondly, it tells them that not all people are good
thirdly, it tells children that in every situation there is a way out, dun give up hope
forthly, there are still good people in the world
fifth, when you're with your family members, wherever you go, its a home already.

yup think its nice la..the boy very cute haha the baby also
they girl got character haha (you qi zhi)

i still wana watch in good company and HELLPALUMP!!! hmm....did i spell correctly?

anyway, ystday was a fun day out with ching hehe..
i'm her model..haha for imee's present..

anyway, PEG AND MEH MEH you owe me money k? haha i'll call you all up soon...
haha

ok la..
anyway, these few days were peaceful and enjoyable, many times i hope these days will come more often, i'm thankful for them, and will always cherish them, i want to write them down so that i will never ever forget them. hehe..thank God!

take care people!
see ya!

A Series of Unfortunate Tales

hehe..hello, ystday nite went to watch a series of unfortunate tales with Ching.
its quite good.

Firstly, it teaches children not to take things for granted
when their house was burnt down, then they learn to appreciate their home.
Secondly, not to trust everybody.
Thirdly, it teach the children to use their talents and fight for their rights, like in every situation there is a way out.
Forthly, it also teaches the children that home is where a family is together no matter where they are, learning to appreciate each other as a family

yup so these are the things i've learnt la..hehe..

then next, i was huiching model! hahaha..we have to get imee's present in half an hour haha.
we went to zara, i tried 5 tops then in the end we got one cardigan, its very thick, to let Imee go Japan use one..
then we went to penili's silver to get imee a bracelet then yup! its done!
haha..within budget..haha..
its quite a nice experience, first time i change so fast haha and everything seems to go with my baggy 3 quats haha..all so nice, we had a hard time choosing..haha..ops haha ok la..the clothes there are nice la...but you know the model do make a difference...hahaha..get the idea? can? haha

yup, its a good time hanging with Ching, haha but we didn't really have time to talk..haha..we talk halfway..

anyway, peg and meh meh is suppose to pay me..haha..i'll call you all soon..very soon..haha..

ok take care all of you!
see ya!

A Series of Unfortunate Tales

hehe..hello, ystday nite went to watch a series of unfortunate tales with Ching.
its quite good.

Firstly, it teaches children not to take things for granted
when their house was burnt down, then they learn to appreciate their home.
Secondly, not to trust everybody.
Thirdly, it teach the children to use their talents and fight for their rights, like in every situation there is a way out.
Forthly, it also teaches the children that home is where a family is together no matter where they are, learning to appreciate each other as a family

yup so these are the things i've learnt la..hehe..

then next, i was huiching model! hahaha..we have to get imee's present in half an hour haha.
we went to zara, i tried 5 tops then in the end we got one cardigan, its very thick, to let Imee go Japan use one..
then we went to penili's silver to get imee a bracelet then yup! its done!
haha..within budget..haha..
its quite a nice experience, first time i change so fast haha and everything seems to go with my baggy 3 quats haha..all so nice, we had a hard time choosing..haha..ops haha ok la..the clothes there are nice la...but you know the model do make a difference...hahaha..get the idea? can? haha

yup, its a good time hanging with Ching, haha but we didn't really have time to talk..haha..we talk halfway..

anyway, peg and meh meh is suppose to pay me..haha..i'll call you all soon..very soon..haha..

ok take care all of you!
see ya!

Changes

changing for God is so much easier for me.
from what i think, i feel that if we're changing for God, He is our source of strength and motivation.
and also about changing because of guilt or because of love.
we are not directly pressured when we hurt God, but we always know that God wants us to change for good and if we already promise we cannot backout and we know by us changing, we knows it please God, as it will please others by not hurting them and meeting expectations. but have to be cautious not to let it stumble us, which is changing for the good, not for the evil.

yup so this is one of the things i learnt this week

school work is piling up, presentations are coming, submission of reports are all coming up.
but none the less, i still have time for my friends!! i always enjoy all of your presences k?
miss of you!!

God, How to live up to Your kind of love?

there's so many questions i want to ask God,
there's so many things i dun know how to do it God's way
there's so many things i'm doing in vain
God, hear my prayers?

Be a nice person. that's how i started, i think i was doing ok, until the hurts came.
Do you know the kind of feeling? when you're helping someone, you dun know how to, you put ur heart out, but people, dun want it, people dun need your help, when you ask them about it, they dun reply. when i back off saying, i'm not in your position i dun understand, have your way, i'll pray for you, nite nite.

so what now..
whats between a concern and an irritating person?
friends..what should friends be like?
extra mile? how does it apply to real life?
benefit, detriment analysis? i seriously think that it does not apply in friendships and God's love.

So how much can i give? how could i give it beyond what i could? i want to, but how?
How can anyone learn without hurting anybody??
the answer is no..
i feel bad
but everything was said n done


hurts (theirs) again..
pride (mine) again..
yet again (us)..

hmm....haiz..i'm ok la..i hope no one sees this..
dun worry about me..
i need to learn..
and i know people are helping me to

Jesus, i need your Grace..

wa...BGS proposal finally approved

had a very stressful call ystday when i was at suntec..
its from janis, my Business Governement and Society module projectmat.
she very stress coz our 2nd proposal submission got rejected again!! and we need to hand in a improved copy within 24hrs!!

oh man..that kinda freaked me out, but our last min work, within 1 hr we improved on it and submitted before our deadline. Thank God we were able to do it!!

and now, THANK GOD the prof accepted it!! but we still got things to improve on la..

anyway, i was really glad our whole group was very united in scolding him and improving on the proposal and finally we kinda made it..haha

yup i'm really thankful that i met these people.

oh ya..i found these lyrics very meaningful. its from the song called graduation (friends forever) i didn't think its so meaningful until i went to search for the lyrics. hehe here they are, take a look? tell me what do you think? hehe

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
From whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat chorus

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

mid term break..yeah yeah..

yeah..now is term break..but got to go back school everyday for project meeting. one of my project not approved by prof because we had some assumptions and the time periojd is vague so got to REDO the stuff..and we don't have the time to meet up on monday n tuesday and wednesday we have to hand it in again!! so we're going to meet in the morning then hand-in in the afternoon.

met up with peiwei ystday, had a nice chat with her, i'm very happy to have met her and to have helped her abit about her problem.
hmm i do miss the times we're together, when things are so much more simplier and happier.
maybe not happier coz of our circumstances but i'm happy to have found her at that point of time.
its such a blessing to have someone to go through one of your touhest time in life with you. and its a mistake to give up our friendship. that thing still haunts me always but as time heals, and when things are easier to let go on think i'm more ok about it now.

think my secondary school years are the most memorable ones that i make memories and strive hard to achieve something in life.

Junior college years is for time for getting over things, letting people go finally. haha, think i'm a person who cannot really get over things esp when its very dear to me.

then uni years, hmmm experience a new life with God. =) and enjoying the life accepting my past.

hehe..yup think i like it, there's always a time for everything yeah? hehe..

hmm for now i'm working hard in school, my grades last term is real bad and i can't get over it!! so i'm trying harder. hope i can give you guys good news in mid april? hehe..thats when my exams will be over!! yeah yeah yeah!! think i'm the earliest to be released from school, 3 and a half months of holidays!! yeah..but the bad thing is when you're happy enjoying holidays nobody can company me..=(

anyway, ystday me and a fren was talking and we talked about fearing lonliness. i said i'm not very much afraid of it, coz i just have to learn to accept it, if not i'll just make myself look poor thing and pitiful. i hate it.. i hate it more than the effort to accept being lonely is part and pacel of life. its hard but i will if i'm left alone.

but then i told my fren, now things are different, i have some people who i really cherish now. people i want to walk with them, for all my live. if i lose them, think, hmm..actually i'm not very sure, but what is the ultimate motive of having friends to walk with you in life? definitely not because you are lonely but think one person also cannot be so lonely to the point that nobody wants him/her. but if i lose my dear dear frenz, i will feel like that, the parting itself is more then me left being lonely, its more than many things, coz i lost a friend. He/she might not be my enemy, but the feeling that we're not close anymore is real saddening. you know? its like when me n jiemin parted, the bad feeling knowing we are not so close anymore. but is love really means that? love means we have to be close to that person? i mean even for love for friends.
the bible says
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not selfseeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
(1 corinthians 13:4 - 7)
does that means love does not have expectations? wa..very chim leh..i can't think..haha

but anyway, parting among friends..its just a very heartbreaking event la..thats all i have to say..hehe

i'm ok people dun worry k? i'm still very motivated coz i know God's love NEVER FAILS! and i am learning to accept that we are sinful people in a sinful world. we will disappoint and let down people so do others. yup, but God's love always protects, always trusts, always hope, always perseveres. yup and He never gives up on us so we shouldn't to others too. but think in theory its so easy to say, its easy to expect people to it. but what about doing it ourselves. i can't even accept my own mistakes! i mean i can't forgive myself, but i know God is dealing with me, He wants to take it away, but i just feel that if He takes it away i'll forget about it and there is a high possibility that i will commit that mistake again and it will hurt others again!! oh man!! i just hate the fact others is hurt because of my negligance on my own behaviour. i'm still trying to come to terms with God la..see how we can do it, i'm not sure if i want to involve people at the moment.

ok dun worry people i'm ok..
hear from you guys soon too!!

stresss....sssss.......

haiz..........
just finish my test 1 for management accounting..its so confusing!! i'm confused!! last nite i still very happy coz i find that MA is like A level econs,
BUT!! today's test is so difficult and confusing..and now i'm confused..very confused.. haiz..i wonder will i pass

furthermore!! i forgot if i not sure fun write coz got minus 1/4 points if i'm wrong!! ah!! wa...i really can die..

haiz..then i found out my grade point average is super low lo!!! others is like 3.5 but i only 2.7!! ah...

i need to buke up..but the test today........sad

2nd week of school

hello pple!! thank you so much for your prayers and encouragements!

now things are better but not very much la..
as in haiz..i cannot control my temper esp when mum say abt God, say God teach me the bad ways then i blow up liao

then worst thing is she blame me for not telling her where i go when i told her so many times and esp when i tell her i go church i dun wana say so many time coz she dun like it, and i always get black face when i tell her i'm going to church then everytime she forget i get scolding say i didn't tell her.. -_-"'

hey sorry...gtg..update another day..