Thank you Jesus for Your wonderful blessings

I'm really not sure if i can make it this semester. I'm very fearful of my grades for once..i used to not mind them coz i know i did my best, but this time i'm really scared..i posted a simple question on my msn nick yesterday saying "can i make it this sem?". To my joy, my dearest friends came msging me.



* Its ok to feel beaten down* says:
you can make it
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
haha
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
with God i know i can..
* Its ok to feel beaten down* says:
Dun worry
* Its ok to feel beaten down* says:
it will be over soon


°o.O min O.o° Pimples Outbreak...Argh!!! =( says:
see mi nick and qy's nick
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
Thanks ALOT
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
THANKS SO MUCH GIRLS!
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
hehe
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
so honored to have friends like you guys
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
hehe
Their nicknames:
Don't Worry!!!! You CAN make it one!!!! =) cheerfulng@hotmail.com
frens!! you can make it!!!! bubblez_nite@hotmail.com


KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
can
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
you can make it this sem
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
haha
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
Thanks kai lun
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
hehe
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
can la
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
no problem one
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
must have some confidence
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
i lend you some
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
hehe
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
how you wana lend me your confidence?
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
must i return you??
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
hehe
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
what if i can't return you..hehe coz its all used up?
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
hehe
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
no need
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
i generate more then
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
free one
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
no interest and dun need to pay back
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
haha
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
wa..
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
so touching
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
hehe
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
Thanks kailun
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
ok
KaiLun -10): Soccer one last time on 25th Nov? says:
work hard ba


sotongmee says:
hey
sotongmee says:
u can make it tis sem la
sotongmee says:
its not abt making it tis sem k
sotongmee says:
its abt getting how many As tis sem
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
haha
XïÜ©hüÑ: Can I make it this sem? says:
Thanks!
sotongmee says:
praise the lord
sotongmee says:
ve faith


Lord, thank you for sending these people into my life at this point of time. You are good Lord. You are always with me, knowing my every thought, every need. Thank you Lord.


A part of a poem says:
"Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway."


I'm not used to being open about my weakness, not used to allowing others to support me. But i'm thankful God led me to where i am today, i'm thankful by His grace and forgiveness and love, He never let me go, never allow me to be who i used to be but make me to be who i can be.


Lord, i may be confused, but in this confusion, i know you are there for me, i know you love me the most.

Personalty Tests!!

haha.

my personality type: ESFS

GENERAL LIFE:> >ESFSs approach life with energy and enthusiasm. They are outgoing, friendly and down-to-earth. Material security and a happy family life are top priorities.

ESFSs tend to be generous with their feelings and their possessions. They are socially skilled, and are good hosts andhostesses. They enjoy being with people and have many social and familyconnections. They seek harmony with others and find conflict difficult to handle. (This is very true!!)

ESFSs tend to support and observe traditions and customs, especially those that bring people together such as festivities, celebrations and commemorations, and they are often actively involved in the local community.

LOVE LIFE: Even though two people from any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, ESFS's ideal partner is the ISFU, or the IIFU.

WORK LIFE: Typical ESFS Career Paths: Nurse, Teaching, Child Care, Administrator (Gosh, i always can't run away from this career suggestion, almost every personality test says i can be an administrator..wonder if anyone can make a career out of this?? still wondering...) , Flight attendant, Family Practice Physician, Clergy or other religious work, Telemarketer, Social worker, Counselor, Special education teacher, Merchandise planner, Credit counselor, Office Managers, Counselors / Social Work, Bookkeeping / Accounting, Administrative Assistants (again??!!), Caterer, Bookkeeper, Medical/dental assistant, Exercise physiologist.

Anyway, the below is the personality test.

QUESTION 1: The 1st of your 4 letters
Which statement - (a) or (b) - **BEST** describes you?

a) Sociable, outgoing, animated, expressive, acts before thinks. If this describes you better than (b), then write down the letter "E".

(b) Private, reserved, thoughtful, thinks before acts. If this describes you better than (a), then write down the letter "I".

> >YOU SHOULD NOW HAVE YOUR FIRST LETTER (OF 4) WRITTEN DOWN>

QUESTION 2: The 2nd of your 4 letters>

Which statement - (a) or (b) - **BEST** describes you?

(a) Down-to-earth, eye for detail, practical, values security, systematic. If this describes you better than (b), then write down the letter "S".

(b) Full of ideas, imaginative, trusts intuition, values freedom, idealistic. If this describes you better than (a), then write down the letter "I".

YOU SHOULD NOW HAVE TWO LETTERS (OF 4) WRITTEN DOWN

QUESTION 3: The 3rd of your 4 letters

Which statement - (a) or (b) - **BEST** describes you?

(a) Rational, cool, thinking, questioning, independent, seeks truth. If this describes you better than (b), then write> > down the letter "T".

(b) Warm, supportive, trusting, feeling, values harmony, likes to be appreciated. If this describes you better than (a), then write down the letter "F".


YOU SHOULD NOW HAVE THREE LETTERS (OF 4) WRITTEN DOWN

QUESTION 4: The 4th of your 4 letters

Which statement - (a) or (b) - **BEST** describes you?

(a) Organized, disciplined, goal-oriented, good decision-maker, planned approach. If this describes you better than (b), then write down the letter "S".

(b) Easy-going, flexible, spontaneous, keeps options open, delays decisions. If this describes you better than (a), then write down the letter "U".

YOU SHOULD NOW HAVE ALL FOUR LETTERS WRITTEN DOWN

NOW FIND YOUR 4-LETTER COMBINATION BELOW TO LEARN ABOUT YOUR PERSONALITY TYPE

EITU
GENERAL LIFE: EITUs approach life with enthusiasm and confidence. They are imaginative people whose love of adventure motivates them to explore new experiences and challenges. They can be both creative and logical. EITUs dislikerules and regulations, and prefer an flexible approach. An EITU's life isoften a succession of projects, some of which are not seen through to completion. They are likely to pursue hobbies that are exciting and involve an element of risk.

LOVE LIFE: Even though two people from any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, EITU's ideal partner is the IIFS, or the IITS.

WORK LIFE: Typical EITU Career Paths - Lawyer, Psychologist, Entrepreneur, Strategic Planner, Photographer, Engineer, Scientist, Actor, Sales Representatives, Marketer, Computer Programmer, Journalist, Project Manager, Art/creative director, Logistics consultant, Radio/TV talk show host.

EITS
GENERAL LIFE: EITSs approach life with energy and confidence. They are high achievers whose work and career share top priority in their life with their close relationships. In work they value efficiency and effectiveness, and are highly results orientated. EITSs are assertive, outgoing and decisive. They can be both logical and creative. They are excited by ideas and have the discipline to bring them into reality. EITSs thrive on rising to challenges and are stimulated by finding effective solutions to complex problems.

LOVE LIFE: Even though two people from any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, EITS's ideal partner is the IITU, or the ISTU.

WORK LIFE: Typical EITS Career Paths: Corporate Executive Officer, Entrepreneur, Computer Consultant, Lawyer, Judge, Business Administrators andManagers, University Professors/Teacher, Administrator, Sales manager, Logistics Consultant, Human Resources Consultant, Management Training/Consultancy, Engineer, Educational Consultant, Financial Planner.

ESTS
GENERAL LIFE: ESTSs approach life with energy and confidence. They are active,ambitious and practical, and tend to be analytical, logical and decisive, and mistrust theory, ideas and philosophies. ESTSs are good at organizing themselves and other people, and often rise to positions of leadership and authority. ESTSs believe in tradition and the importance of provensystems and structures. They often involve themselves in their local community through organizing events and keeping in touch with what is happening around them. People, behaviour or attitudes that do not conform to their very clear standards are often to be viewed with suspicion.

LOVE LIFE: Even though two people from any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, ESTS's ideal partner is the ISTU, or the IITU.

WORK LIFE: Typical ESTS Career Paths: Military leaders, Business administrator/manager, Police/detective work, Computer analyst, Judge, Financial officer, Teacher, Sales representative, Pharmaceutical sales, Auditor, Technical trainer, Project manager, Factory supervisor, Credit analyst, Engineer, Regulatory compliance officer, Budget analyst, Data base manager, Dentist.
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Food for thought

Found this post on my friend's blog, think its very interesting..and thought provoking..


Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?


Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?


Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are: I love you, Sorry and help me


Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?


Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?


Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

My Long day....

Wa..i'm so not like xiuchun these days..hehe Guess God is really changing me..hehe i've became so much more hardworking thesedays..i worked on my CAT project (a excel project) +chat with choon choon till 230am on monday nite. on top of that, i completed my QM homwork last week, done my case summaries beforehand, done well for marketing quiz..thank God..really really thank God..


what i really learn is to be humble..dun always think that you can do it (not that it is not good to think this way, in fact it is good to be positive), but think that you can do it, IF you work hard.


Anyway, i really thank God for the things that He has caused me to ponder on and the people that He place in my life..


went for Hockkee's POP on saturday morning..met his mum and his coach. it was a good friendly meeting, but if paul weren't there we'll be bored to death..hehe..
Began to chat with Madelene. haha She really has a very clever bro who studies for 2 hrs yet can score so well..i'm not sure if we should be encouraging wenjie to study..haha, coz it seems that he's doing quite well.. haha


anyway, thank God for his coach too for driving us out.. haha..if not we would be on our way of crossing the sahara dessert..hehe


anyway, then went for my CAT proj meeting..and went to church. it was really nice to see sarah and hannah at the meeting..it boost my morale for the ministry. hehe you'd never know how that little effort of yours could do such big things..hehe..


i realized i'm so bad at teaching bible studies. i'm not convincing, can't explain things and monotone...haiz..God..help....think zhou jie is so confused by me. i was explaining to her the difference between the catholics and christian (the b.s. that Terence taught us) which i failed terribly, but i really felt that she needs to know the diff but her christian foundations are very weak, so i realy had a very difficult time. Hope by getting her to start reading the bible will be good. but she's really very intelligent..good investment!! hehe..Thank God thank God!!


so anyway, i know i'm not very organized here, but i got to go back to my class now..hehe..
update again..

My Lord, Thank You

Dear Lord Jesus,



As I attend my friends' 21st birthdays, I get to recall my past, the good times and the bad times I had went through. Though I did not know you in my past, but i know that You have planned all these since the beginning of time and You were always looking after me like a secret admirer awaiting. Thank you Jesus for Your enduring faithfulness!! Jesus, my prayer today is to thank You for the things that you have given me. I want to thank You for my memories, thank You for my present, and thank You for my future for they are safe in Your hands. Jesus Lord, I am so grateful for the people that i have met in the past, my primary school frenz, my secondary school frenz, my JC frenz..they are all very very nice people. I want to thank You for every single one of them and most importantly my experience with them. Dear God, thank You for allowing me to meet them, and even for some to share a deeper bond, deeper relationship. As I look back at my past boyfriends, they are all very good boyfriends. Dear Jesus, I pray that You would continue to take care of them and bless them with your wonderful works. I want to thank You for all my friends, who added so much colour into my life; who walked through ups and downs with me and are there for me faithfully when ever i need them. Dear God, may you continue to bless them too.



Jesus I want to thank you for my life after knowing You. Thank You for the faith, the passion, the hunger and thrist, most importantly thank You for revealing who You are to me. It has been such a great honor to know You, to share a relationship with You and also to serve in Your Kingdom. Dear Jesus, thank You for this new life and God, I pray for my authorities for my water baptism, may You change hearts and minds.



Dear Lord, I also want to thank You for my uni friends and church friends, especially for my church friends for they work so hard for Your Kingdom and may we unite and be able to support one another and sensitive each other's needs. Jesus, may You bless their hard works and be our Multiplier and Provider!



Thank You my dear Friend, Father, Creator, Provider, Lord and Saviour.
In Your Power and Name i pray and trust.
Amen.

Quotes for thought!!

"Lord, it's just illogical for You to die for our sins on the cross, then disregard our prayers regarding these struggles."


"I asked for strength And God gave me difficulties to make me strong. I asked for wisdom And God gave me problems to solve. I asked for prosperity And God gave me a brain and brawn to work. I asked for courage And God gave me danger to overcome. I asked for love And God gave me troubled people to help. I asked for favors And God gave me opportunities. I received nothing I wanted. I received everything I needed."

(koped from yvonne--permission granted..hehe)

Verse for thought

Galations 3:26- 28
You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ. There is neither Jew or Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are al one in Christ Jesus.


Galations 4:4-7
But when the time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under law, to redeem those under law, that we might receive the full rights of sons. Because you are sons, God send the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, "Abba, Father." So you are no longer a slave, but a son; and since you are s son, God has made you also an heir.

So many things happened in such a short time...

Hello..wonder why i stop blogging again?
anyway, so many things happened...
i went to reformat my com..(BTW, DUN EVER REFORMAT YOUR COM, UNLESS YOU REALLY NEED TO) then you know what..i deleted my C drive partition..i think i must have pressed something wrong..then all went wrong...but when i realized it, it was too late.. 0_0 haiz..then i happily reformated my com and overwrited all my back up files..-_-"' its dirty job..dun ever reformat..even if there's no error reformatting com, its also a very tedious job..anyway, so here i am, got over my shock, my sadness and my tiredness from all the downloads..haha..


anyway, all my songs are gone..and my nice sister's boyfriend, also a nice guy burnt lots of songs for my sister and my sister lent them all to me to write into my "new" computer!! Actually it feels quite new..hehe..now even when i do my assignments on my laptop also feels better..haha..dun know why..hehe..but i know its all in the mind..hehe..


To Choon Leong: eh..i reformated my com and its faster liao..my com can sell more expensive? how about $25 dollars can? a $15 increase? haha


Anyway, so it happened on monday..and today we have our Urinelle presentation..hmm..didn't pray before my presentation..=( was caught up with too many things in the morning..=( but thank God it didn't go too bad..but i was really bad la..i forgot to present one slide..haha and went back to present it again..so paiseh..but comfirm minus marks one..opsy..


Felt led to read job...not the sad parts..but the part with Elihu started to speak (before God spoke) it really has alot of insights...you guys can try i think its chp 32 of Job..
Correct me if i'm wrong..
but after reading so much of job's complain, have anyone thought about God's case, instead of Job's case?
I mean what i always do is complain, fair, unfair..blah blah blah..but i've never thought about how about God? God is ALWAYS FAIR, ALWAYS GOOD. so even if bad things happen, there must be a reason, and that reason we might not understand but His charactor will not change..His fairness and goodness will never change.
This really opened my eyes, and gave me more faith in God..


Jesus, Thank You for opening my eyes, and let me know Your greatness and Your awesomeness!!


Praise You, You're the Almighty. You are truely amazing.

Fireworks!! haha!!

HEY!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
Actually wanted to upload a very cute pic that my fren sent me but couldn't..sorry guys..
anyway, you know what?! River Ang Bao will have fire works every nite until the 15th day of chinese new year!! i just saw it..but guess where was i? hehe..i watched the fire works from the bathroom..hehe..i peeped out from my bathroom window to watch the fire works..hehehehe..it was really nice..got big red ones, got one that was very nice, its a combination of purple and green..its quite a weird combi but it turned out rather nite against the black nite sky.. =) then there's this one at the very very last, where its super big and ended with glittery stuff.. hehe.. there were also the oldish kind where its only white colour..tried to give it the benefit of doubt that maybe it was purple, but couldn't convinced myself..haha..

anyway, its EVERYNITE at river ang bao..so you guys can go take a look..hehe..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! =D

Jeremiah 1:19

"They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the Lord.

WaO! i find this so cool! Who dares to say this, only the ONE TRUE GOD..my confidence in God is increasing, thank God for His grace and love.

(You're) Watching over me by FFH

Where could I run, where could I hide
Where could I go where You are not
Where could I be where You don't see
All of these demons chasing me
What kind of sin could I find myself in
Where You wouldn't stop
The world from spinning 'round and 'round
When it seems like I am upside down
But in Your comfort I have found
A safe place to fall

And I'll be alright
Safe inside
Stayin' alive
As long as You are watching over me

Where could I go where I don't know
All of the comfort You bestow
Where could I fall, where could I land
Where I'm not resting in Your hand
How could I stray too far away
Where You won't leave the ninety-nine
To come and bring me back
And put me on Your shoulders and
Carry me around Your neck
Until it's safe to walk

And I'll be alright
Safe inside
Stayin' alive
As long as You are watching over me

And I will be fine
'Cause You are by my side
And I'll be okay
'Cause You're with me every day
This one thing is sure
I could never, ever ask for more

And I"ll be alright
Safe inside
Stayin alive

Isaiah's Commission

Isaiah 6:5 - 8
"Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty."

6 Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. 7 With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."

8 Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"

I admire Isaiah's attitude towards serving the Lord. I hope to feel the same intensity that he felt towards his revelation.

This verses enlightened me. As i shared with the leaders of the IB on saturday, i pray that whenever they are discouraged, that they do not forget the great plan God has, of his great commission, of his great salvation plan for each individual to each church to each nation to the whole of the earth. Be excited! for we all are part of God's wonderful and great plans! I want to be part of it! I want to do be part of what my loving Father is doing! like what Pastor williby (ops, dun know how to spell his name) preached about he wants to be where God is, he's excited to see people turn to God, excited to do God's work, excited to show the world of God's power and miracles. As i'm typing this a surge of excitement just fills me..hehe..
though i know, i'm not of the TJ's pastor's faith and maturity, but i am simply just excited! hehe, for once, i'm excited of the unknown, because i know God's in it. =D

Maybe i dun know what's required of me, i dun know what is expected of me, but i pray that God use this excitement to motivate me in my service. i know God can do it!

hehe..

and...i wana thank the people who has been giving me the extra attention after reading my struggles? hmm..people might not have noticed, but all your extra little care and concerns and even conversations do encourage me and brighten up my day and brings a smile to my face. thanks so much every body!! hehe.

I hope i can be more concerned about other's life too..hehe coz that's what God's concerned about!! hehe..i not KPO ok..its call concerned...(fuquan always classify it as being KPO..haha..hope you're doing great in NS, Fuquan! dun lose hope that there are nice people around..AHEM..like here...hehehe..)

To shirley: my dear sponser, hehe, i'm sorry that i haven't been very accountable, things are just happening so fast i can't even catch my breath. dun be guilty of neglecting me, a prayer or two will be deeply appreciated. I know its not easy to be working at the same time studying, i really know its tiring and exhuastive. i'll try to cooperate with you more k..hehe..sorry for the late reply ystday..hehe..thank you so much for always checking out my blog though i super long didn't blog liao you're still so faithful..thank you very very much Shirley!! hope you had a great birthday!! --your sponsee, xiuchun

THANK YOU JESUS FOR THE ANSWERS!!

hmm..thanks alot of reading my blogs people, really appreciate it..

anyway, really wana thank God about how he answered my struggles these past 3 weeks..

Many opportunities are opening up..i do thank God for them, but i have to constantly reming myself that its not about me God, its all about you..but time to time, it never fails me to look at my shortcomings, my weaknesses, qualities that i do not possess that is required of my to do my job.

One good example is, i can't sing! in primary school, i still remember that i have difficulties singing our national anthemn..that's no kidding..every morning i go to school, line up and get ready to sing the anthemn, i struggle..i sing horribly..i sound horrible and i always try to hide away from teachers so they wun see that i'm not singing and catch me..until one day, i saw some people dun need to sing national anthemn, i so happy and thought, they dun sing, i also can dun sing..so happily i enjoyed my mornings listening to the national anthemn..UNTIL i realized, foreigners dun have to sing national anthemn..-_-"' ok so i have to sing my national anthemn..then until one fine day, i caught one of my good frenz not singing the anthemn!! haha! i so happy!! got pple who is a singaporean who dun sing the national anthemn..so that's about my singing in primary school..

in secondary school..i only sing my band song..hehe..its very nice, even the lyrics are so nice..i'm getting to appreciate the lyrics of my band song more when i became a christian. it goes
"we are a part of a military band, we are one and only outram band...*forgot lyrics* but still, i remember this part..
If God gonna a test on us, we will never fail the task, His spirit in build in all of us, we will survive till the end...coz we're one and only outram band and the best is our band..........blah blah blah..ok i know you must be confused
but anyway, i like that part about if God gonna put a test on us, we will not fail bcoz His spirit is in us! amen?!

ok so thats all for my "singing life" then i got a big bunch of frenz who like to go KTV..so i reached another "peak" for my "singing life"

then after becoming a christian...dun know what happened..i became a worship leader........... *thunders & lightnings* I can't sing!! how can it be??!! i'm still struggling with my singing today.. but anyway, that's not my main point..

Next, about leadership opportunities that are coming up..my spiritual life is not doing well..and things are just at a pace that is too fast for me to even catch up with myself..I start to question many things including myself, my motives..i dun have the answers, i prayed that God will reveal my motives to me and if its wrong, i pray that God corrects me..Comparing with people like Grace/Gary/Choonleong/Yvonne everybody else who are all more senior than me, has a longer history with God, are more exposed to Christian teachings and had more time communicating with church people and all..In what aspect of my christian life am i suitable to take up this leadership opportunities? especially now that i'm not really right with God?! I dun have it!! i dun have the qualities!! how to lead when i have nothing to give?!!

about my motives, especially when you're in a leadership position, motives are really impt and we must be very sensitive to it..we should be servants and we serve not for our own glory, but for God's..

but why serve God? besides that because the bible says so, why do I want to serve God? How does my relationship with God answer that question? this boils down to my motive of service..do i serve God for my own glory? Do i serve God bcoz pple tells me to? Do i serve God so that He can bless me? so that He will answer my prayers? What is my motivation of serving God?

its definitely, not easy to serve..it even discourages me to see people not serving..Choices Choices Choices..I choose to do it..WHY? what's my motivation? i tell meself, "just do it la..if you dun than who will?" i really want to thank people from the ushering team..its really not easy to be faithful in service alternate weeks, even continuous weeks..and just by seeing them serving motivates me..seeing people like Ms Tan, Paul, Terence who are serving almost decades of their lives and still going on..they're not superman or woman..they're just mere humans, like you and me..These people motivates me..but ultimately, i know its for God's kingdom..that's something i can't figure out, but God reveal through really unexpected ways!

First, why do i serve?
Out of a thankful and grateful heart. For all that He has done for me, He saved me, He died for me..these speaks to me and answered my doubts..
Guys, i know its not easy to feel for things like this, esp when you're down, but i really pray that as you read, God will touch hearts and reveal.

and than, that very same day, these came out from my own mouth:
When God gives the opportunity, trust Him that He has His plans that prospers us and not to harm us. Even when we feel that we can't do it, dun limit God to our limited minds.

that very same day that i talked about the above, a thought struck my mind and reminded me
like what jonathan suber preached about last week, He can do miracles in us! we have the capacity to be miracles of God!

in short:
dun limit God's miracles with our limited minds + have the faith that God has plans that prospers us + God already put in us the qualities to be a miracle when He created us.

the above equation: plus keeping an open mind when serving.
elaboration: we're all not perfect YET, God mould us through opportunities. therefore, an open mind is crucial if we want to be better people for God's glory.

I hope you guys know what i'm talking about and i hope that these answers God revealed to me will reveal to you as well..

hey hey..

wa..i haven't been writing my blog till i almost forgot my userid n password..haha..

hmm..feeling the stress from home and school..keep feeling that i'm behind time in school and plus stuff at home..mum feeling insecure and keeping an close eye on what i do..which i'm absolutely not comfortable with. home is not like a home anymore.. sis busy with her work and frenz, she does goes out with mum sometimes, bring grandma out, dad's busy with his own business but tries to come home earlier sometimes, mum's feeling bored with no one at home, no one to cook for, no one to talk to..i'm feeling like a stranger at home. maybe coz i've been minding too much of my own business and not others..maybe i'm like that coz i dun want people to mind my business too? which is, i know, its very dangerous when things goes out of hand..

maybe its my PMS and there are stuff that i bring upon myself..

hmm..i need a reformation of my life..