The worst day in my Christian Life

Boohoohoo..i've become such a cry baby again. :~~~(

Last night, without thinking of my consequences, i told my mum about my faith.

It was terrible for her and for me.

I wasn't thinking right until Ms Tan put some sense into me!!

haiz...the whole story must credit to the devil. He took advantage of the time without the person who has been putting sense into my life and totally blinded me and the people around me to do that act.

After my talk with Ms Tan, i felt so regretful. I shouldn't have told my mum now, i shouldn't want more than what i can do. I wanted to go for church camp. and thinking back, God has already told me that i'm not going, but the people in church keep calling me to go, and that really confused me.

what i need to do to go, first tell my mum about everything, and pray for air tickets. and i rashly and irrationally did it. :(

they made it really seems possible but the fact is no.

Last night went better than i thought. I told my mum over the phone and i'm suppose to go home to continue to talk to her when Ms Tan stopped me.

After she put sense into me, she gave me some guidelines to handle this.
i need to stay unemotinal coz it will be very emotional and the devil will use this to make me feel guilty and secondly, i must prevent from fighting with my mum.

we prayed and i felt that it was a very powerful prayer and Ms Tan send me home.

when i reached home, i purposely press the bell. i want to see if my mum will let me in. She did.

than she brokedown. blah blah blah..
all emotional...

i assure her many things and now i need to be the greatest daughter in the world.

People i need prayers, and i really pray that God will answer them and i really expect God to do something regarding this problem.

I need support.....
I know i'm wrong.....
but i'm glad she knows and i hope she will pull through w/o falling into depression.

Ocean Park Hong Kong

went to ocean park just now!! its fun la. but not as fun as Disneyland and Disneysea. haha. got a lot of combi, got amusement parks, butterfly land, dinosaur park, panda habitat, shark n mix fish tank, cable car, mini race car, amazing amazon, and many more. its fun la not exciting thou. hehe coz i dun dare to sit the exciting rides, i hate the feeling of man in machine and fate is set. hahaha bullshit la, i just dun like the scared-i'll-died feeling hehehehe

Me n sis took public MRT there then change bus. The experience was great!! the MRT route will blink one..aiya difficult to describe but its like Japan's but looks newer. haha didn't really explore coz only took one stop. but the general feeling is good! took train to go HongKong island then from there take bus. WAO!! the bus also look super new!! all aircon, bright colour seats, some with seatbeats too!! the engine was smooth, but heard HongKong's busdrivers are famous for their terror driving but it wasn't as bad as i thought it will be. Had a comfortable trip to Ocean Park.

then reach there went to see see play play, but i dun dare to play scary ones la..then my sis complain i'm a boring person. haha, i'm sorry, i'm like that, i dun like to do things i dun like unless like God's calling or what but so far i'm still avioding haha, so pple, dun take me to escape k..or what downtown east, its a waste of money haha

but i enjoyed the mix fish aquarium! got so many dory inside!! hahaha almost all the fish in finding nemo is there, big ones, small ones, dead ones (saw a dead one), haha naugthy ones (swimming here and there chasing other fishes), lazy ones (lying at the bottom) all have, hahaha love the place man..so many different kinds of fishes, think it has more kinds than sentosa. hehe..

then, hmmm...nothing much..things very ex.

then return taking ferry!!! wa....scenary to nice!! enjoy the wind and everything..HOngKong is really a nice place, i dun mind migrating here.

hehe realised that the place better dun miss pple so much..haha may be a good thing or bad..hahaha..k la..

tomorrow going macau, not to gamble la, dun like, will just look around, shop around..hehe..all your presents haven't finish buying..mum unhappy me n sis keep buying for friends..haiz..its a hard barrier to shop for you all also...haiz..how i wish i'm going holiday with friends..hahaha..k la with mum around also not bad..more money but cannot spend..what a delimma..aiya dun knoe how to spell...haha..

kk go bath then dinner liao..then MORE SHOPPING!!!! wahahahaha
see all of you soon!!bye bye!!

hong kong is such a nice place!!!

wahahahahahhahahaha....
just went for a one day tour ystday..hongkong is such a nice place!! love the piers, seaside which is breezy and sunny (I WANA GO SENTOSA PLAY VBALL!!!), love the nu ren jie (woman's street) bought a slig bag, a cap for fuquan and...no more..wanted to buy more stuff..but prices qite steep, taiwan cheaper, chop the price still very steep, my bag is like $16 sing dollar, no not diff from bugis village, the hp chains all $2 buck EACH..taiwan can get $.60 each, each fake brand cap is like $11 each, i chop till $7 bucks, still ex le..wana chop till $5 one, but cannot, then wanted to buy a hp key pad for Ms Tan but cannot chop so left..haha but its a nice place la..

ok have to go each breakfast now...hehe going to each tim sum..btw the wanton noodle is so so so nice!! tim sum also nice!!

see ya! i'll be back soon!!

just finish my taiwan trip

wa lao....i miss home man....

i'm homesick.......

i hate it........ :~~~~~(

i'm now in hongkong, just flew here today.

Taiwan was, ok la..will not say its super fun, or fun...not at all...havse been visiting temples, more temples and even TEMPLE PARKS!!!! wa kaoz.....spiritual attack strong, ALMOST LOST MY FAITH. it was really that serious. the presences there is really strong, there is so so so so so so many pagan worshippers and i'm like GOING MAD!!! THANK GOD HE's with me..otherwise i will lose everything man, because i lost Him. haiz..it is really that serious..

haiz..you all got miss me or not..i miss you all so much le..got visit my blog and wait for me to post of not?? hahaha

my sis accidentally deleted all the photos..only left the last day's photos..so too bad if u miss my face k..hahaha

the scenary is really nice, didn't really buy a lot of stuff, the prices like same as singapore, some even more ex..sian...but i really hope i've got enough things for all of you..

anyway, i've grown fatter!!
Taiwan EVERYWHERE GOT FOOD!! all the road side food..SO NICE!! eat so much things..every meal eat till full...my table small but food alot everything push to me n my sis, eat till we siao, but its nice la..

then we eat, take long bus rides to scenic places so sleep..then everyday eat sleep eat sleep..sure fat..treated like queen here..hahahaha
but i miss you all leh..

wa in taiwan like monkey in a small cage..no hp, no internet, no communications to the outside world, can die..at least now got internet!! I HAPPY TILL SIAO NOW MAN..at pacific cafe, got free internet.

anyway, i really tired of everything, too long holiday, miss singapore so badly, i mean the people.

throughout this trip, God taught me a lot, i thought a lot about my life, the people who came and went, my charactor, my relationship with God and other people and my identity.

haiz ok la..i so sian..i wana go home.....

hope u all dun miss me too much k..
haha see ya on coming WEEK!!
i'll be back on wed...can't wait till then...
enjoy your holiadys guys...
bye bye
BTW!! dun forget to update me the christmas thing k!!