A wonderful day with god!!

Hey pple, due to my overexcitment and cant be understood English, I edited this entry..So for those who dun understand, can read it again? Sorry..Anyway For Ching: can read all? Not juz the non-Christian parts? I really wana share his love and show u that all this are true, My true testimony.

Woke up today..Feel like no "mu ai" (mother's love) like no one wana care abt mi..Think bcoz the previous nite talked with Ms Tan and she said once I'm independent enough, she'll hand mi over to someone else..Then in my sleep last nite, I believe the devil is dong something making mi feel like I'm having depression..But I told myself I can't like that..coz bcoz of my work, I dun get to go to church, but I fought for it..So I'm going to church today!!

then I take bus, realized my farecard no money, I got no money in my wallet too!! Only 50 cents..Told the bus driver. Heng the driver let mi pass. PRAISE THE LORD! Anyway was abit late for church..But juz in time before they start..

Angeline came along today..She's quite irritating when we were worshipping. Its like when we singing song, clap hands, blah blah blah..She'll stare at mi n Jason..Like poke her head out of the row (we were standing in a row) and look at us. Then she'll giggle giggle when u look at her back..

At first I was ok with it and was trying to block her stare at Jason..But Jason was super uncomfortable coz he's shy..I mean when pple stare at u like that and laugh at you u'll sure feel uncomfortable rite...Anyway, Ms Tan started to say her..But she dun listen. She still come and tell mi "u act happy ah!" then say to Ms Tan "ni kan..da shi bu shi zai act happy?!"

She upset mi..coz I really didn't wake up with a good mood, I woke up in a depression mood..Was trying to cheer up for god, to worship him, to enjoy my service as it did not came easy.

then I felt self pity, something like i'm not happy but bcoz of God, I "acted happy". Felt very wei qu..Felt like crying too..Really very bad..Its normal to cry in church so I would not be very noticed if I cried.

But suddenly, I remembered the bible did said we cannot self pity (also dun know where I learnt that from) coz God loves us so So much that he sent his only son to die for us.

I need made a decision..Its either I continue to self pity, or to go with god..I decided to go with god without expecting wat will happen..But at The moment I've decided, the sec, the split second, almost immediately, I felt a very very strong spiritual lift up! Raising my spirit up!!! Supporting my depressed spirit! Like i'm carried up in big warm hands..Then I heard God telling mi He's carrying mi up!!!!


**awesome!!!!!**


I feel so great!!!! The feeling makes mi feel so whole! The feeling of u knowing u can never fall..coz u have him.. Its like you're lying in his hands. Juz leave everything to him and it'll be alrite that kinda thing la..I cant really describe u the feeling..But its really really awesome..Then I close my eyes worshipping god, enjoying the wonderful spiritual support from god!!

then after Angeline "had-her-fun-teasing-pple" service She left early. She got other programs.

Then we continued to praise him!!!! Oh yeah!!! Enjoyed it so much..
When I was singing "Shout To The Lord" the part where it says "Forever I'll love you, Forever I'll stand!!" I meant it so much in my heart!!! I raised my right hand straight, giving God my promise. (Now then I know it takes so much sincerity to do that)

He has done SO MUCH SO MUCH for mi, and really changed my life..Change my attitude, change my character. I want to live a evangelistic life. I cant do it without him. He's my power, He's my energy, He IS my God, ONE AND ONLY GOD.

Then sister jenny, a pasture who was from the states, sent on a missionary to china..She met a lot of problems trying to keep the "trading activities" down..coz of the overwhelming response of the china pple.. They are so hungry for the word..So hungry that the pasture have to preach day to nite for 4 or 5 days!! After that they're still so hungry!! The reason is there is a lot of restrictions to wat u can preach..They're not allowed to speak of baptism, tougues, simply, there is nothing much left for them to preach..
so she talked abt her "contracts" as the water baptism she have to do, her "business" as the meet for open preaching, and her "business partners" are suppose to be business man also rite, but they come from a lot of places including rural areas..They have no jeans only those grey cloth pants and rough behavior that kind la..They're meeting her in the hotel room some more..Then abt 45 of them that kind..Got so much attention and also bare in mind china got so many pple I believe many of them are spies..From the government..If they caught, everything is traced, they will have to run..
anyway..heng the pasture didn't got it so far..PRAISE THE LORD!!

then I'm interested in the baptism of the holy spirit which pasture jenny did mention..Then I asked Ms Tan abt it..How to get it and stuff..

after service Pauline and Ms Tan prayed for the holy spirit to come into mi..As God promised in Acts 2:38, he wants a part of him in every of his pple..Pauline explained God wans to give it to mi..So I accepted..Then we started praying..

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then I will have to say it after Pauline that kinda thing..But Pauline said it so long to repeat..I might juz forgot wat she said when I was going to start..
but miraculously, some thing read it word by word with mi..After I finished one word He tells mi the next..I believe is Him..

then not long after I said the read-after-mi-thing, I started to think abt nothing, blank..then I realize I was speaking......In something I dun know..(which is tougues--the evidence that the holy spirit has come into me!!) then I started to say it out more..Then Ms Tan say "juz let it flow..juz let it out.." Then I began to repeat the syllabus..Only 4 like that..And also not very clear. Then Pauline said "increase increase" then I said like 2 more new syllabus..I also not very sure how many..juz some new lippings came..But also not very clear..
then after a "long release", Pauline helped mi sealed it..Not to let it go away forever..And when we finished..I was like drowsy..Like the ground moving..But I felt so So so great!!!

then rush to work..But I was feeling so So great!!

although only sold 2 phones out of 19 phones today, I was so So happy!!!!

after I out stock waiting for my manager to check, funan is almost empty then I sang "shout to the lord" "how could I live without u" "when the music fades" like funan is my concert hall..hahahaha..It feels so great..Almost cried..Anyway, I was feeling so So so great..

then today is my last day at funan, tml going century square, sian..So far..At tampines...

Anyway I love this day!
I wouldn't wana forget this day ever ever!!
PRAISE THE GOOD LORD!! PRAISE THE EVER FAITHFUL GOD!!

"*My Jesus, My Savior
Lord there is none like You
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

My Comfort, My Shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath
And all that I am
Never cease to worship You

Chorus:
Shout to the Lord
All the earth
Let us sing
Power and majesty
Praise to the King
Mountains bow down
And the seas will roar
At the sound of Your Name

I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love you
Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

My Jesus, My Saviour
Lord there is none like You
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

Your my comfort (My comfort)
And my shelter(My Shelter)
Your my Tower of refuge and strength
let every breath
All that I am
Never cease to worship you

repeat Chorus twice"